goingto try and open up more at therapy tomorrow but i know its going to kill me dead

trying to keep a lid on what i got cynthie for christmas but GAAGAHAHHHHHHH

had a good day today 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

have an hour until my train.........

WTF A MINISO OPENED IN CROYDON AND I HAD NO IDEA?!?!?!?!?!

i ate breakfast and suddenly feel the most nauseous ive felt in years what the fuck

i should go out tomorrow i should get grocceries >walking around in circles

going to adjust it a lil more but i can see the finish line

may bust out the ex wife (old computer) and see how shes doing

gggggggg ggggugughhhhhh >pulling at my hair

i dont trust electric blankets at all but this winter is so bitter i may risk it all

going outside becomes easier when i pretend im not wisp and instead someone who likes going outside and buying grocceries

mmmmm the advice the counseller gave me of "even if it mightve not been traumatic for others it was traumatic for you and thats what matters" has really changed my perspective and made me feel better

having so much caffeine and indulging in so many snacks in the same day was not my smartest idea. to be very honest.

we r making progress my wonderful wisplings

god i hate when mums in a bad mood

wearing my fraud shirt today

i feel like i blinked and its 3am

counseller picked up on my ocd frame one

im so nervbous i can feel my heart in my ears

first counselling session today

ocs

trying to study and break down the asaro head and i kind of feel like limmy but instead he thinks he understands what everyones trying to tell him but comes to the wrong conclusion that feathers are heavier than steel

(wip) let#s take ibuprofen together

10+ years of being dismissed and ignored by drs and professionals has really fucked up my ability to trust them anymore

im kind of terrified of spilling my guts to a professional again bc what if they tell me to just be happy and dismiss me

im fine (blinks) im fine and normal (blinks harder)

dad ate my lunch and im trying to be normal about it but man. my lunch.

i think i slept ok but i did get jolted awake by my bro 😑

i did my best despite everything today i hope i am rewarded with a nice sleep

i get a lil sad my dad doesnt care about my life or getting to know me but i do get little positives of of telling him not to disturb me between certain times and just getting a 👍 with no questions to why

i am home in my lane flourishing

yo mr white i feel an episode coming on bitchhhhh

i wanna go homeeeee im tiredddddddddddd wahhhwahhhhhhhh

anotger 1 billion more sleepless nights for wisp nation ☝️

christmas is kind of stressing me out more than usual this year bc i already just prefer buying ppl gifts when i see and think of them but i also do notttt have any money rn

save me 2 mg melatonin

hung out washing did ironing washed my binder and completed forms for counslling ive accomplished a lot today........!!!!!

i start counselling thursday

i cant find my favorite shirt which means i am doomed forever

oh actually ive been wanting to treat myself to a certain cat cafe in london they have a bunch of events going on................

going to try and reward myself with a treat tomorrow ive been through the wringer

I HATE TALKING TO STRANGERS I HATE EMAILS

bwwuwuwuhhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE huh what. why cant i say no.

got a response already...... going 2 walk around circles to try get all my anxiety out before i reply

now that ive done this i feel kind of aimless with what to do with the rest of my day its a huge weight off my shoulders. well it is 5pm so there's not much left of the day.

bwehhhhhh finally emailed a counseller i have a good feeling about. unfortunatly itll have to be online if it does work out since she lives a while away from me but!!!!!!! i did it. did it scared even.

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