aaaaaaa im tired

hi gamers i’ll be updating this with the abyss of the four + dragon guild battle + arena teams when i have the chance to

i wanna work on hair rendering,,,, i like the cell shaded but i want to incorporate the ‘rake’ like brush?? to some of it i’ll test that out later today and see how i feel (if i can manage)

i finished the crk event and i cried my eyes out at the final cutscene bc of how the story for the msq is 😭 it all connected and it made me feel so emotional for these damn cookies

sighing dreamily griffith…. baal…. sighhh

gmm happy sat [ WIPS ] im trying to get better at this new style of mine so i’ve been doing some headshots w/ the lining and trying to see how exactly i want things to look gonna say one thing !!! i feel like i 100% have a lot more line confidence now

i went kind of insane and decided to design a simple carrd site for the crk patch notes + builds since it's kind of difficult to find those in the first place unless you're in the official discord and i know people don't really prefer just constantly joining servers so--- crkinfo.crd.co

sorry for posting about The Character. yeah it's terminal. sorry. it'll happen again

crk! !! crk stop making my life hard !! (dailies)

getting comms done very very very very slowly this new style i have is so good on my hands its kind of insane

Tired..!

thinking too hard abt this but i think i. need to space myself away from xiv the concept rn that i would need to interact w/ players is making me feel uncomfortable o(-(

i fear my love for xiv comes in waves the ebb and flow of affection highly influences my willingness to draw tsukina/xiv ocs which is hard bc it purely stems off of how i feel like people see tsukina as well

i love ino so much it’s definitely unhealthy

done 8/25 this was pre-figuring out style stuff 🥹

i have been listening to caseoh and nl while i draw it has been such a great way to have my brain focus and a great way for me to time myself and give myself breaks !!! also discovering i draw a lot better in my ipad vs pc... is making me think things ..........

i’m !!! really used to this lining/coloring style now,,, i think 🥺 i really really like it and it’s super duper nice on my hands… the trick is that i just don’t do lineart and my only sketch is the body/face but most of the time the face is so refined that i don’t need to worry abt it!!!

cuties…

aaaaaaaaaaaaa

i wanted… to draw but my body is telling me it’s too tired o(-( i just wanna nudge it and make it do what i want but it’ll only hurt me in the end

ok update laid on the floor 30 minutes after posting bc my body is fighting me again

not feeling well but i will push forward and move my pc on the floor bc i crave desk space/my monitors being close and no gap

i miss her… i miss my wife ino… and my daughter… tsukina…

who knew a doodle would make me feel like i need to be bedridden (me)

doodled kotoe and tsukina hehe it isn't. that graphic imo but just to be safe i'm going to mark it as one

i've been in a 'i love listening to musicals' mood once again but that also means i've been listening to hunchback of notre dame playlist which is making go 'woooooo!!!!' bc i just really love music and musicals are so beautiful to me

oh to be a fluffy little hamster no thought between those eyes

maybe though.... i might do some world building again for altana i need to focus on other creative things when i can't draw ,,, !!

i want........ to doodle tsukina and inochi..... i think it'd be cute seeing them together but i have to see if my body is ok enough to handle the attempt today

thinking abt pol again… how much tsukina loves her found family that she could explode ( she won’t )

tsukina is (no surprise here) an inochi alternate/face,,, think of it like how fgo has saber faces? tsukina is one of them while their designs stem from a similar aesthetic the main thing between the two is how they’re polar opposites

party of light for these i wanted to test out how crazy can i go with line weight/get more practice with front facing horns/profiles + keep testing out how refining my sketch lines feel vs actually outlining ( this was done like 2-3 months ago iirc )

have u guys heard of pol? party of light??? my babies?? no no… /our/ babies… i love … i love them so much wahhhhh

going through my backlog of what i could manage to doodle btw

ino’s genes didn’t even fight back… 🥹 i was reading a manhwa and i fell in love with how the artist drew babies so !!

in misery once again,,, agh,, i’ll live o(-( but man…

mmm i want to... change up my desk setup but i have been liking how it has been... i just changed the stand to my tablet to an arm instead but there is no room for the back portion of it on my desk unfortunately o(-( mmm... i'll figure it out

am tired

i slept for longer than i wanted,,,,,,,

wait- before i explode from pain look at my side project !!!!!!!!!!! hehe my partner's ocs w/ their wife ino but in a line up so i can get better at drawing men/height differences the only way i managed to get this done in like. a month is bc i used the symmetry tool and didn't shade so it's all-

i need to be like gekkomon and lay ontop of a soft cushion rn bc this pain is i'm going insane with how much its hurting

while i was pvping i had the unfortunate discovery that i am not insane and i am just getting instantly targeted in FL-- so i changed to miqo and it stopped which is. annoying to me but it is what it is atp

oughhh my back… gamers my back…

oc redraw/slight update this is kiku !!

mmm.... maybe i'll use this for stuff i don't wanna post on main...

i’m afraid i’ve been far too addicted to frontline

i also started watching digimon with my bf their plan is working into slowly getting me into the series

hi welcome to tsuki's wow top dmg on my team once again frontline thread:

so drained its crazy

i have been. feeling really burnt out this past year it's been very rough combined with constantly feeling physically ill that i can't even continue working on comms- most of which i've had to delay the delivery date but the more i've thought about it the more i think i have realized smth