"what a sweet, obedient puppy princess! she took well to breaking, then?" "hers was a proud will. we resorted to sorcery to quell her errant mind." 🎨 @sunchild.bsky.social

All trussed up like a carousel mare 🎶🎠 🎨 YakuKid

#NSFW I think a spicy Arcanine would make for a fun naughty VRC model~

Hey, if you happen to like short stories (11k words) about an old lady feeling old in the BDSM club she built, then I've got the story for you! (Maybe. Do you like a touch of age difference stuff?) You can read it here: www.furaffinity.net/view/62797489/

the spiral of all spirals

canceling thanksgiving plans to see my partner's family because my dog is too sick to travel and I'm piecing together what might be veterinary malpractice I can't afford to fight. if they want more money to treat her (properly) I can't afford that either.

Kinda sad but when I post on the FFF account it's purely out of a commitment to what I started and has nothing to do with whatever my current mood is. Don't assume I'm fine just because I'm keeping the lights on there.

Not sure where the place for me is these days. I feel so disconnected from so many groups and individuals. Hurt too many times, too many conflicting interests, too much tension.

princess wolf for @furryfootage.bsky.social!

mutuals can just squeeze me if they want...

Robin Hood has shot the rope. Based on improvements over the last two days (limbs no longer swollen, eating and drinking) I called and canceled Himeko's goodbye appointment for Friday. We're going to take it day by day for now, nurse her to strength, and make the call when it's more definite.

Really hard day. Crying constantly at work. But tonight we got Himeko to eat a good deal of salmon and chewy udon and all the swelling in her limbs is gone from the meds. So... I dont wanna call it yet. It's hard. I might try and keep going with her longer depending on how she does next day or two..

spent all night crying, couldn't sleep, had that thing where 5 seconds of a song are repeating in my head without stop. I don't even know where to turn to for comfort.

i might have to keep the goodbye appointment after all. things aren't going great for her. i'm so sorry, I don't know where else to talk about this. gotta do the best thing.

girl's life

suffice it to say the last six months have been one of the worst periods in my life after that period six years ago

one day rejection is pretty rare in this business 😞

one of those lifetimes

submitted a new story somewhere, supported a friend, danced my ass off, and pet my good old puppy today. life goes on.

A *different* type of armor for Xenon~ I wonder if the Lunar Oaths Club has a Fantasy Night...

instead of waiting for the vet to get back to me, i called them again and got them to prescribe a medication that will hopefully get rid of the fluid in her system. if it works, she'll have more time. if not, I know what to do. I love her so much.

why am I not crying? why am I fighting it so hard?

It seems like her heart is catching up to her... she's had a murmur and a leaky valve for years, she's full of fluid, and all the scans to confirm might only lead to a possible treatment that only gets a few months. I think I have to let her go soon...

made an appointment for tomorrow for the vet to look at her and do a quality of life check and all that. feeling very numb in general lately.

currently trying to decide if my doggy, 14.5 years old, has declined so much that i need to consider saying goodbye humanely. she's not eating much of even her favorite things, has a hard time getting around and doing potty, her legs are swollen and she's lost a lot of muscle.

and now im sick 😭

rwwrrrr why am I always thinking about the pack's needs over my own, balance in all things

came home to a letter for some clerical thing I need to take care of on behalf deceased fiancee

re: vr. obviously I'm the problem because I don't express myself. I just wish people communicated more consciously, or did what I do: try to include shy ones and ask questions to find out peoples' interests and boundaries first. i feel like I fell into the deep end and have been drowning ever since

i do not understand what is going on with this book. I got two offers last year and pulled out because they were small press and I want a relationship with an agent. an editor who works with big 5 wants to edit it. another editor told me it was her "favorite query and opening" of the revpit contest.

completely losing myself in a swirl of dissociation but at least I got a fresh rejection on my manuscript today

i need to get something off my chest. in the six months since joining VRchat, I've becoming horribly depressed. i keep logging on chasing the joy of that first night, and when I log off I'm on the verge of tears to the point that my partner keeps asking why I'm doing it. I don't have a good answer.

call her a princess witness another little lamb is a wolf wanting redress undress glide on past make it long make it last neck a zipper will you unzip her or skip her draw her wide lay her bare pull her hair make her answer kill her shadow dead only light in this pretty crowned head light and lead

bath time. incense and oil. pomegranate and rose.

the stroke of midnight won't save her 🎨 ParfaitBunny

the center of a crowded castle, posed for pleasure and degradation, the princess stands in spreader and stocks, serving her duty to her nation 🎨@miorjah.bsky.social

run all you like, Cinderella but the prince has your scent

crybaby... 🎨 @miorjah.bsky.social

a lithe and lovely ghoula awaits unwary visitors to the graveyard.. #TrueRefDT009 #horrorart #ghoul #throneofbones

I'm going to being doing a $10 discount on commissions for the rest of the month for Hypnovember, so long as it fits the theme of the month of course

musharna is both adorable and terrifying

i need to break the habit of using this as a place to cry out but there's no where else. i will censor my heart because I don't want you to see it.

idiot

sits and stares bc decision paralysis

crybaby... 🎨 @miorjah.bsky.social

pls gently ask me things otherwise im afraid to talk

i wish i was stupid because then i wouldn't know how stupid i was instead of being smart and knowing exactly how stupid i am

A gift from @hypnodoe.bsky.social It's the princess' big day! 💒 Even the forest creatures are helping lead her to her destiny...

feeling good today for a lot of reasons, personal and societal

curls up into a ball