I really dont enjoy going to new hairdressers. I miss mine 😭 she was the best but retired 😭😭 but it looks so nice in here

start vs. finish ⚘

Home office today. And hairdresser at afternoon, then meeting friend and maybe having mcdonald ice cream or coffee 🥹 little "treat yourself half afternoon" in the middle of week. bonus points for fresh bed sheets 🥹

Last few weeks were so shitty...I need a hug 😓

Never mind. B caused anxiety but in long term, it was a better choice...

When my brain has two options: A: kinda hard, but with good long term results B: bad one, will fueling anxiety and terrible in long term My brain instantly choosing B like:

I love the weekend walks ❤️

I slept whole night, woke up dead tired 🥲

I could have day off if our lovely government wasn't full of selfish dickheads 🥲

Why is not Friday yet 😭😭 also no HO tomorrow 🥲

Crossing fingers for home office Friday 🤞🤞🤞

I want my escape solo trip already...probably putting too much hope into it anyway...

My inner self hater was fed yesterday and went on rampage whole night 😭 im so tired 😫 and even know it's bullshit, it got some good points 🥲

Happy Star wars day ❤️

Put on the clay mask which expired in 2021. Wish me luck 😬

Finally home, changed clothes, sat down and got message that my 6kg kettlebell is waiting for me in pick up box 🥲

once again a shameless art promo, but if anybody is interested in my vampire art I updated my rb and put few up for digital download on kofi: 🍎 monikagross.redbubble.com ☕ ko-fi.com/artseamoni/s...

Everyone!!! BEHOLD!!! 😍😍😍

I cooked enough for 4 days. I have the feeling that tomorrow my taste buds will change and I wont enjoy it anymore 🥲

I feel pms coming 🥲 anxiety peaking again 🥲

a preview of my new Lestat painting or watch me animate in procreate #wip #iwtv #thevampirelestat 🫶🩸 www.instagram.com/reel/DXmpTcxCCJ9/

My theory was confirmed tonight. It's kinda funny but kinda upsetting 🥲 at least I know what I will be overthinking today 🙃

I need to hire some decision maker. I wouldn't think at all and they will be deciding all the stuff. Coz if I have 2 options I always create the third which is always the worse one 🙃

Dobby is free today 🥹

I got message from practitioners that they are upset that I didn't prepare the name tags for them for workshop...they didn't sign up and no one knew they are coming...can't wait to have a day off tomorrow...

It's time to set the record straight. #TheVampireLestat debuts June 7 on AMC and AMC+. youtu.be/7c7JFMTBeVk

Thanks universe 🥹

Please universe, let me cook the lunch right or at this point I might cry 🙏

My tummy is very upset about having a different breakfast 🥲

Why things always go from bad to worse? I really need one calm week, no drama, no stress, no shitload of work. Just sun, chilling, moving, some good food...

After long night I figured out how to get rid of my anxiety 🙌 i will stay forever in my bed, hidden under my duvet and never interact with anyone ever again 🙌 peaceful life, no embarrassment, no misunderstandings, no expectations, no self hate ❤️

Im not sure how much more of anxiety can my stomach handle...slowly starting to giving me headache as well 🙃

Note to myself: if you want to have some sleep, dont check your phone notifications during the night 🥲

Stupidly admiring in the mirror that I'm starting to have waist again and the muffins are much smaller 🙈 superficial but hey. Nice to see at least small results 💪

I should be reminding myself more often that im 35 and therefore an adult. My mom was raining 2 fresh teenagers at this age and im having a meltdowns over the silliest things 🥲 but maybe today I will get rid of my other cause of current anxiety and then I will be able to enjoy the calm weekend 🙌🤞

I think Beky knows that i dont feel well. She follows me everywhere and wants to cuddle a lot. Never did that before

Today is the first workshop from our "Road show". Im so nervous and im not even there 😭 i hope that everything will work and participants will like the visuals i made 😭😭

The only good thing about Monday 🙌

I feel so overwhelmed 😭 i was recommended to write a diary but im not able to do it and venting to people, bothering them about the dumb shit in my head isnt just right...

Max speed 😂

I need my vacation ASAP 😩 5 more months and then just me, myself and I for 9 days 🙌

I need the science to figure out how to put the brain on nightstand during the night so I can have some good sleep 🥲

Was freezing most of the night and overthinking was set on max 🥲 it will be interesting day 🥲

My plan didnt work 🥲 and I maybe fuck it up even more 😭

I have to go for technical checking with my bike tomorrow 🥲 it should be 4°C 🥲 im cold just thinking about it 😫

Long day ahead, but day off tomorrow 🥳 just pity that it's super cold again 😭