Nowhere I can turn tonight.

I don't dare get a diagnosis, as when I do, I will have to deal with it alone. And I can't.

Just one piece of bad news after another. Death will be the only way this stops.

If people aren't acknowledged, they slit their wrists, and don't you dare blame "mental health" for the people you kill. Don't you fucking dare.

3 weeks after the con, and still yet to find any evidence that I was even there.

I do not care if I don't wake up tomorrow.

You are alone, because you are worthless. You can never truly escape that.

Well we reached 10 zero reaction posts. So I guess everybody got what they wanted.

Nobody to talk to again. Because I am worthless.

Kind of tired of being so alone all the time though. Death will be the only release from that.

I reckon I will die soon. I just feel my time is coming.

Let's see how many people tagged me in posts this year, either me, my costumes or my work.... Then let's calculate my value.

Three more posts to hit ten zero responses.

Maybe I need to find something else to do, that people actually want.

The only response today. One unfollow. This is why I point this shit out.

With three zero response posts today already, seems a good time to find out how little anybody cares about what I do.

Not unsurprisingly, the only photos that exist are those taken by me. Was I even there?

#medalmonday as if anybody even knows what that is here.

Average response here is now less than one per post. Bluesky a failure or just outright hatred? No positive answer, and nothing to build on.

Unicorn duties again today, I was f**king brilliant! 🦄

Does anybody care what I do anymore?

Going through all the pictures taken at confuzzled and seeing them looking like shit. This bullshit has damaged our brand and reputation. But nobody gives a shit.

I see followers are leaving again. What a nasty unpleasant bunch of cunts bluesky harbours, like twitter, but they target those who are struggling. Go on then, fuck off the lot of you.

Been in bed for 24 hours, so much effort for stuff that absolutely nobody gives a shit about. Shall we pretend mental health problems are chemical imbalances again?

First 4 outfits of #Cfz2026

Confuzzled 2026 review:- I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter.

I think I did 20 costumes at Confuzzled this year. Here's a small selection of the photos I've received of them, from all of the ever so inclusive photographers attending the con.

Confuzzled was not great this year, and has devastated my mental health right now. Not that anybody gives a shit.

Confuzzled gives me a huge amount of anxiety each year. I have an awful lot to deliver without any safety net, coming out of an increasingly deteriorating personal situation.

#medalmonday, if anybody gives a crap. Properly had a wobble at the finish line. Needed a half hour sit down and food and warm up. Getting old.

Would putting any words here make any difference to the 0-2 reactions anything I post will ever get?

Catboy/girl edition of Pixelate 🐱

Fuck off life