I’ve been up since 5. Could have spent 5-6 crying but no I had to wait until 5 minutes before the workday started. Poor time management tbh

I have two biological relatives that are a part of my life. Knowing that the one that was supposed to bury me will be leaving this earth before I do is incredibly hard. Barring anything unexpected I will be the last one left. I already struggle connecting, I’m not sure how to do this.

Think Ima stop questioning why I always come out on top. It’s my birthright.

My brother finally stabilized enough to leave the hospital today. WON’T HE DO IT???

Never gone this many days on a new gig without shipping something, possibly excluding my first role. I’m not the brightest or most talented by far and that’s such a blessing. This quarters goal is competency. Next year they’ll call me a rock star. Marathon pacing this time.

So much gratitude for all I’ve been given steward over and the ability it’s given me to protect my family from at least some of the cruelties this world has to offer.

Started spending some time on Twitter again for the same reason I watch Fox News from time to time. It’s getting much worse over there in ways you wouldn’t necessarily expect.

Two days in and of course I was right. I have no idea what’s going on but I’m already starting to form some loose frameworks. The way I know by next year I’m going to be an entirely different caliber of dev.

I can’t get over the juxtaposition of the last month. It’s simultaneously been one of the worst months of my life and one of the most successful. I’m just trying to keep the balance so I can continue to be the rock the people depending on me need me to be. So far, so good

Energy!

I really just shifted the whole trajectory of my life AGAIN

Just read something that suggests cirrhosis can mimic metastatic disease? Who can get me to #MedSky? Is this true?

I’ve grown so much. Not enough to feel anger in my personal life and never let it color my behavior, but finally enough to not feel like a failure for being moved to anger. I’ve grown enough to make the same space for myself that I would create for others. Monumental

Doing a little pre onboarding set up and the butterflies! Everything is so different and new but I’ve decided that given how miserable I get when I’m bored, this isn’t the scariest time in a role, it’s the most fun, so much to learn! Please say hi to my newest desk buddy😍

Oh, here’s the anger

One thing about me, I’m going to manage multiple layers of change all at once. Shout out to my last day as a startup girlie

Reminder that, as hard as it can be, if you find some time sit still and listen to your inner voice even in the most trying of times, you might find reserves of strength you never dreamed of and maybe even some growth

Y’all know I don’t beg for engagement but please boost this

Does anyone have any resources to help explain to a developmentally disabled adult that they have cancer in an appropriate way? Are there books for this? I’m so overwhelmed

Fuck cancer. Fuck metastatic disease 💔

Oh, so she wants to be Elonia

I know I haven’t been around much, but you might have noticed that I’ve been a bit unhappy in my role. Imagine how pleased I was to accept a stellar offer with a solid company this week. I’m so excited to push myself as a full stack engineer. Feel free to celebrate with me friend

Someone just @‘ed me in an email and I want to throw up. Outlook must be stopped

When the most jr person on the team is sad bc they’re losing their “best work friend” and it’s you 🥺 may I always be a safe space for the people coming up the ladder after me

The vibe is tidal.com/browse/track...

I’m so damn proud of myself

Shopped away my feelings, bought a new vacuum cleaner and for the first time ever, retail therapy actually worked. As someone who shares a home with two large, long haired dogs, this vacuum has literally changed my life

🤭

Idk man just trying to figure out how I help my employed but uninsured brother if it turns out the nodules they found on his lungs when he was admitted into the hospital last night are cancerous. Seriously, what are we doing to each other?

I cannot stop talking about Star line but baby that 4th verse on Letters? Man don’t even trip

Lunch break: when I catch up on the news and wonder if I’ve gone insane.

I hate how much I hate waiting 🥲

No bc the song is called Drapetomania and the hook is Go Crazy and I’m still not over that

Meanwhile Costco got Christmas decorations out, yeah I gotta be loosing my mind

Ain’t too many glass jaws around here and we all play for keeps. I’m so torn between wanting my people to be safe from the latest wave of occupiers and knowing that we gonna have to get into it and figure it all out at some point.

The Chance album really was on time

Sunday scaries take on a whole new meaning when you’re contemplating war being declared on your city

Guess we getting August in September this year

I was 14 when they passed the 94 crime bill. They really tried to get rid of me. Lemme turn this tv off

Forget your guilty pleasures, what’s the thing you love to do so much you never beat yourself up for it? Me and a good book? Don’t care if I laid around all weekend and did nothing else, I won!

Ngl I kinda want to go to GitHub Universe

I have been advocating for myself hard for the last year. I’m under leveled to an extent that no one has been able to refute it. Budget constraints have been and continue to be a blocker but today I got SOMETHING and it wasn’t what I wanted but it does feel good.

I’m looking for the people who understand the Ai era is here and not going away, but are locked in on the human experience and how to both protect and enable people both in and out of tech. Who and where are they?

Eternal quest for A Place Where I Belong

Had to run an errand this morning and I just wish you could all experience riding through Chatham playing Star Line

On my third listen of star line. Acid Rap fans he finally did it again 🙌🏾

Somebody tell Chance this is all I was asking for

Women, particularly Black ones, who have been working in tech for a sustained amount of time - how do you effectively (heavy on effective) deal with being treated as if you are as less capable by nontechnical team members, despite over performing and out pacing your peers?

Had one of those moments today where the fog lifted enough for me to be impressed with myself. Needed that tbh, ya girl has not been being kind to herself

PMDD + Perimenopause. I’m literally fighting for my life tbh