one thing about my old life and old name is i don’t hate either. everything She did brought ME here. everything She was is still in living memory in me. everything she wished for, i am doing my best to make happen for both of us. you don’t have to hate who you were or the you who carried you here

just booked a hair appointment because i had inspiration strike out of frustration with the top of my hair so i’m getting a yolandi visser cut 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

i’m high (wow, very) and working with a client (he knows, it’s why the session is scheduled, yay!) and we’re doing some denial and release and he asked me to feed him a photo (“anything!!!”) but i really like my wing with my lights so he has to wait longer hehehe :3

it’s been a while and uhhhhhh this post is hard to see really lol

mushie tea toniiiiiiight i wanna take some cute pics, maybe some clips just gotta wait for roomies to head to bed so i don’t disturb them making the tea 😬

happy trans visibility day! from the egg on the left to the full fledged person on the right. i am so proud to be trans. it has made my life explode with possibility and promise.

thinking mushie tea tuesday night and planning a little shoot outfit/look bc i haven’t posted anything new & spicy in a while

trying to chase my “i think my gender is incorrect era”

i just want to be home and in my cozies thinking about hands prying my mouth open and someone making demands of me. or working on my pokemon decks. either or.

i have such a thing about being called by pet names

i think i need to also make pecan pralines

the all day wait was worth it. i had to modify it for my roomies but it was still incredible to have a taste of home 😋

i napped for 3 hours and woke up to make the mac & cheese to go with the pulled pork >:3c y’all, it is SO good 🤤

just discovered corn dogs in the chest freezer LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOO

i ended up getting home VERY late, so i’ll have to reschedule mushie time bc i have an opening shift tomorrow and mushies keep me up for at least 4-6 hours

decided i’m going to try to finish some of my body mods while i sort out my name+documents change rn i’m planning on getting my nipples and eyebrows pierced then working on a couple of tattoos that are important to me. might be able to get my fangs done in time too!

i’m going to cards tonight with 2 “black eyes” 😋

i’m making texas style pulled pork and mac & cheese for tomorrow and i am VIBRATING with excitement bc all of my friends had some last time and want more

BIG NEWS i’m gonna be growing my own mushies! naming them mycellus wallace and the mushie wagon

what if i did my makeup and did a cute little series of shots tomorrow night what if i did that and and posted some booty and mouth what if

sliding in your DMs to tell you that i LIKE like you* *telling you i want to hear about your hopes dreams fears and how you’d destroy my holes

i’d like one of those hangouts where you come over and we’re supposed to be doing something together that isn’t facemashing and heavy petting for several hours but that’s what we *somehow* tumble into doing anyway

real interesting experience to be riding ghidorah and white out from cumming so hard that he popped off the wall and stayed in me 😵‍💫

had a nap dream about someone grabbing a fistful of my hair and shoving their tongue in my throat and i just waaaaaannit

idc about signs, how often am i flashing in your mind when you’re crankin’ it out

i make friends literally everywhere. last night a girl needed a portable charger and we sat on the bus together. she just moved here and has no friends, she feels lonely. i gave her my number and told her she has one now. we’re making plans already to hit the town together 🥰

i’ve scheduled myself some time alone with quiet and cleaning for next week and i can’t wait to sleep in with nowhere to be and no one to see probably will do my mushies then instead and try drawing during. i want to see if things come out differently

did you know? in texas, they will not allow you to change or alter your gender marker on your birth certificate or legal documents unless it’s a clerical error that can be proved they also add you to a government list just for inquiring www.them.us/story/texas-...

i got out of the house for a bit and now i get to wait to go play cards 🥰

i think it’s time for some mushie tea tomorrow night. i need to get to that place where all i think about is smooching

my roomie met me at the front door with corned beef, carrots (my favorite veggie) and potatoes knowing i’m exhausted lately and distressed about ruminating on moving T ^ T ~ 💕

trying to be excited to get home and veg out for a bit but i’m feeling very much like this kid because, yanno. the fact that my free time is now spent thinking about how to flee this hellmouth country

while i am going to do my damndest to pay for my way out of this country myself, i know i will have to crowdfund at some point and the idea makes me so mad and embarrassed and makes me so upset at the state of things

well, here we are: my main partner and i are having to discuss marriage as legal protection in order to leave the country i don’t want to be married. least of all out of fear and as a “tool”.

new cozies

always in the mood for a good

today is cards! i sure hope i’m able to concentrate on my plays and not get distracted by my thoughts for being dehydrated

a guy i matched with and had good convo with unmatched bc in his words “you don’t have to fake a sickness just to say you aren’t interested” when i was dealing with my upper respiratory infection sucks to lose out dude but that’s your feelings being soft

i think it’s a cosmic joke that hrt not only changed my sexuality but made it so i’m attracted to exactly the kinds of men i used to not even glance at or turn my nose up at wym i need BEEFERS

thanks to my sister my whole ig feed has become nonstop leon and mads mikkelsen which would ordinarily clog my news but now i don’t even miss the news i just want to see the pretty men and let my brain melt

i received some big news at work that i can’t share quite yet but it’s bittersweet on one hand, this is an exciting opportunity on the other, i’m working on plans to leave the country

idk just feels like a hand on my throat and the other gripping my ass while someone growled this at me would fix me rn

a little flash hits so different now

“da me beso” but as a command rather than a suggestion pls pls plsssss

it’s fucking snowing i’m PISSED my bus ride is already an hour to and from work andjalkxksxjkdkdkaksjss

everyone deserves to see these rare cheeks

prove me wrong

you have to be ohk with me going out like

none of which i asked for or wanted

i know i have a crush on someone bad when i start having thoughts like -i wish i could hold their hand rn -it’d be cool to go to this restaurant together -how warm are they to sleep next to -how many times have they molted their exoskeleton -can they dislocate their jaw to devour their prey whole