You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes Sipping coffee like you're on a late-night show But then he watched me watch the front door all night Willing you to come And he said, 'It's supposed to be fun Turning twenty-one'

Stand there like a ghost Shaking from the rain, rain She'll open up the door and say, 'Are you insane?' Say it's been a long six months And you were too afraid To tell her what you want, want

You played in bars, you play guitar And I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are And you'll never see You sing me to sleep Every night from the radio

Picture me thick as thieves with your ex-wife And she looks so pretty Driving in your Benz Lately she's been dressing for revenge

He opens up my door and I get into his car And he says you look beautiful tonight And I feel perfectly fine

Now did you think it all through? All these things will catch up to you And time can heal but this won't So if you're coming my way, just don't

I could've spent forever With your hands in my pockets Picture of your face in an invisible locket You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it I had a bad feeling

I reached for you but you were gone I knew I had to go back home You searched the world for something else To make you feel like what we had And in the end in wonderland we both went mad

Dear reader, bend when you can Snap when you have to Dear reader, you don't have to answer Just 'cause they asked you (You should find another) Dear reader, the greatest of luxuries is your secrets Dear reader, when you aim at the devil Make sure you don't miss

I changed into goddesses, villains, and fools Changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules All to outrun my desertion of you And you just watched it

And sometimes it gets me When crossing your jet stream We both did the best we could do Underneath the same moon In different galaxies And I didn't want to hang around We said it was just goodbye for now

We were supposed to be just friends You don't live in my part of town But maybe I'll see you out some weekend Depending on what kind of mood and situation-ship I'm in And what's in my system

And you stood there in front of me Just close enough to touch Close enough to hope you couldn't see What I was thinking of

All of this to say I hope you're okay, but you're the reason And no one here's to blame But what about your quiet treason?

If you want to break my cold, cold heart Just say, 'I loved you the way that you were' If you want to tear my world apart Just say you've always wondered

Lilac short skirt The one that fits me like skin Did your research You knew the price goin' in

So why'd you have to rain on my parade? I'm shaking my head and locking the gates

You find yourself at my door Just like all those times before You wear your best apology But I was there to watch you leave

You took the time to memorize me: My fears, my hopes, and dreams I just like hangin' out with you all the time All those times that you didn't leave It's been occurring to me I'd like to hang out with you for my whole life

So they killed Cassandra first 'Cause she feared the worst And tried to tell the town So they set my life in flames I regret to say Do you believe me now?

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in So shame on me now Flew me to places I'd never been 'Til you put me down, oh

You played in bars, you play guitar And I'm invisible and everyone knows who you are And you'll never see You sing me to sleep Every night from the radio

La, la, la, la, la, la, la Your very first day Take a deep breath, girl Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

Good thing I like my friends cancelled I like 'em cloaked in Gucci and in scandal Like my whiskey sour And poison thorny flowers Welcome to my underworld Where it gets quite dark At least you know exactly who your friends are They're the ones with matching scars

And they tell you that you're lucky But you're so confused 'Cause you don't feel pretty You just feel used And all the young things line up to take your place

I can't resist Before you go, tell me this: Was it worth it? Was she worth this? No... no, no, no...

But I knew you Playing hide-and-seek and Giving me your weekends I, I knew you Your heartbeat on the High Line Once in twenty lifetimes, I

I like the way you sound in the morning We're on the phone and without a warning I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission But I'm ready to fly

So you don't have to call anymore I won't pick up the phone This is the last straw There's nothing left to beg for

But I miss screaming and fighting And kissing in the rain And it's 2AM and I'm cursing your name You're so in love that you act insane And that's the way I loved you

They shook their heads, saying, 'God help her' When I told 'em he's my man But your good Lord didn't need to lift a finger I can fix him, no really I can Whoa, maybe I can't

Don't say 'Yes', run away now I'll meet you when you're out of the church At the back door Don't wait or say a single vow Your time is running out And they said, 'Speak now.'

Screaming, crying, perfect storms I can make all the tables turn Rose garden filled with thorns Keep you second guessing like, 'Oh my God, who is she?' I get drunk on jealousy But you'll come back each time you leave 'Cause, darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream

In dreams I meet you in warm conversation We both wake in lonely beds, different cities And time is taking its sweet time erasing you And you've got your demons And, darling, they all look like me

And it would be a fine proposition If I was a stupid girl But honey I am no-one's exception This I have previously learned

I wake in the night I pace like a ghost The room is on fire Invisible smoke And all of my heroes Die all alone Help me hold on to you

I'm alone, on my own And that's all I know I'll be strong, I'll be wrong Oh but life goes on Oh, I'm just a girl Trying to find a place in this world

I took a chance, I took a shot And you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not You took a swing, I took it hard And down here from the ground I see who you are

Break my soul in two Looking for you but you're right here If I can't relate to you anymore Then who am I related to? And if this is the long haul How'd we get here so soon? Did I close my fist around something delicate? Did I shatter you?

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree Said you'd beat me up You were bigger than me You never did, you never did

'Cause all I know is we said, 'Hello' And your eyes look like coming home All I know is a simple name Everything has changed

And the years passed like scenes of a show The professor said to write what you know Looking backwards might be the only way To move forward

It's you and me, that's my whole world They whisper in the hallway, 'She's a bad, bad girl' (Okay) The whole school is rolling fake dice You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes

'Cause tail between your legs you're leaving And I still can't believe it 'Cause old habits die screaming

Friends break up, friends get married Strangers get born, strangers get buried Trends change, rumors fly through new skies But I'm right where you left me

'Cause you were Romeo. I was a scarlet letter And my daddy said, 'Stay away from Juliet' But you were everything to me I was begging you, 'Please don't go!'

(I remember) Good girl, sad boy Big city, wrong choices We had one thing going on I swear that it was something 'Cause I don't remember who I was before you Painted all my nights A color I have searched for since

Then one magical night I forgot that you Sent me a clear message Taught me some hard lessons I just forget what they were It's all just a blur

And if you'd never come for me I might've drowned in the melancholy I swore my loyalty to me, myself, and I Right before you lit my sky up