so why the fuck do i have to do EVERYTHING to make sure youre okay

dude im fucking shaking crying idk what 2 do again why is it always my fault

and its not like im gatekeeping either its js too far away from where he lives

like i dont get it is he jealous or what

what do you do when your hb starts crashing out over the fact youre getting a job with cats and says that hes gna cut

im so so fucking pissed im actually gna kill a man

oops

okay im back here again

turns out i fucking cant bcuz even this clingy fuck is too much

i thought i could be myself around you

I THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE I THOUGJT I COULD

i hate being clingy

the assessment went horrible btw

im so gross im so gross

gettung an assessment today daaaaaawwwwgwggg im beyond cooked

please i need to cut myself please give it bakc

that fucker still has my jacket

15/25 for math im actually gna kms

hb has my jacket rn tbis sucks cant smuggle the knife again

i just cut myself btw earlier ts morning

art club is for the slackers anyways what the fuck

the world fucking hates me will the cca teacher honestly shut up

school shut up whay future i was mwant to die at 14 anyways

so tired so fucking tirednohbmy god

and then immediately after tbat was lkke planninf whats the next sharp thifn i can cut myseld wirh cuz i was panickinfnthen i woke up crying againbwhat tje fuck

bruh why do i keep getting dreams abt people confiscating my knife

thwn immediately sliced my wrists on the spot and when the panic didnt go away i cut my thighs too while running and then sje eventually caught up to me took my knife n left me cryint

dreamt that fsr i was hiding mu knife under my shirt then my mom found out and tried to confiscare it from.me

its morning again . when will thid torture end

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want to just bleed out and die everyone hates me and clearly nobody cares enough

left a blood trail on the floor

just cut myself yay

ill just cut myself bleed out and blame you for not caring enough

im sorry

cant even tell anyone this bcuz their feelings woulf b very very hurt

just a bad person in general

im sorry

if its not related 2 hb ion care at all

sorry gwen i feel bad im sorry that all happened 2 u like u dont deserve allat but also ion fuckinf care

and that also makes me an asshole bcuz i genuinely dont have the capacity to care about anyone else outsude of you

and i know im happy witu not meeting anyone new friends or partner wise bcuz hes the only thing thay matters 2 me rn

this is actually so aura loss were not even dating and we both dont have any feelings so it sucks that im so attached all the time

just w fucking attention whore that wants u all tbe time

sorry ure already enough i dont know why i cant b satisfied

fuck ton of experience anyways

will get there

ill get better at it sorry

maybe im just not attached enough

im sorry i try not to feel anythibf outside of you ur emotions are mine and i promised you that ill be okay if ure okay