And down the downward spiral we go. Haven’t been here in a while. Hopefully I can use what I’ve learned to not stay here long. It being scary here is an understatement

Tfw the bartenders are all women and you get free booze 🫡

Time to focus, grind and stay in my lane. I’ve put in the work to level up my emotional maturity, this glow up is for real now.

I swear some people that take the most acid have the biggest egos and they can’t even tell.

I will say though, I’m at that point in my life where I haven’t spoken to anyone with a shared death cab for cutie moment. That in itself is quite something.

Tfw you are starting to feel a mid life crisis creeping and yet you’re feeling strangely fine. 🫡

STP is tomorrow! I think this may be the new hardest thing I’ve done. I keep thinking back on my 1st st helens attempt. I had to quit because I was truly not prepared. It was also the first mostly mental thing I’d done. Yes there will be a lot of pain, just have to push past it as safely as I can. 🫡

This time next month I’ll be finishing the stp! (I hope lmao)

You know the training is getting real when I start busting out the food scale and meal prep for the week. A little over a month left, LFG!

Time to go see my faves tonight and also go see my other faves tomorrow night! 🫡

I hate that being “manic “ is unacceptable. Why can’t we set our lives up for this type of emotion. Maybe they call it getting an MBA.

Feeling a depression cycle coming but I’ve done these enough I am happy to see them coming. I can now start changing up my routine and habits to let it not really grown into anything. This time I can turn it around before it really hits. I guess that’s growth? 🫡

I think it’s almost time for a caffeine break. Half a cup used to half me twitching, now I need two full cups to feel anything 😂

That first post travel poop in your own bathroom. 🫡

Words to live by: don’t bender and txt 🫡😂

Lmao what a wild weekend. “I’d never cheat on my husband but I’d do you if I could!” 😂😂😂🫡

Man I missed the feeling of physical exhaustion after a good long run. I know it won’t last long so I’ll enjoy it for the few weeks it’s here. 🥰

I think I’m starting to do better emotionally. Then I get a tattoo and now I’m just physically tired. Rest it is lol 🫡

The universe provides.

The thing about MY life, when I need someone they’ll never ever show up. I found one person that did and now that’s over. No one ever shows up, I’m happy you did.

And finally we dropped kicked that fucking couch!

So close to having my healthy cooking and fitness routine back. As they say abs are made in the kitchen but the gym helps too. 🫡

If the vibe isn’t vibing, I’m out.

I miss going to hard rock shows. Made a buddy, he bought me a shot. I shared the news about our favorite band and also this new fest 🫡

Although Elizabethtown is just a movie I do feel like you can sense when something is for the last time. Certain moments, certain people, certain places. I’ve done my best to preserve those moments in my head.

So I finished dry January but now I think it’s time I do smokeless March? So many reasons I need to give up weed for but it’s formed itself into such a bad habit. Time to be too busy to even think about smoking. After 3 weeks of that, I won’t even remember I had that habit.

I feel like I did something right in this world every time I get to wake up with a cat under each arm

Can’t wait to get my first tattoo tomorrow!

Got my NIN ticket, hell yeah!

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