Being a demisexual slut, who is alone, feels like it breaks some universal law of physics.

I feel my gender at this point is on the level of some J.R.R. Tolkien lore depth. We are out here creating new languages just to come close. There will be youtube videos with deep voiced presenters trying to explain my lore long after my death.

Me: I don’t like songs with repetitive lyrics. Also Me: I FELL IN LOVE WITH AN EMO GIRL!

SWA iPPV Preview: #SapphireWrestlingAngels

This is me. Hated by some, loved by the weird, and in the end I hope to be a classic.

SWA iPPV Results: A great night for fans and a twisted plot unfolds.

About Me: If you want to talk to me never consider it bothering me, just reach out. I’ll let you know if I’m busy and i will cut things off if it becomes too much for me. I have a social battery but i am not anti-social or shy. I’m an ambivert lol.

I dreamt I drowned in an ocean of Orange soda. I woke up and realized it was just a Fanta-sea…

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I’m so fucking emo…

SWA News: Next show entitled “True Blue Fan Appreciation” will include only tag matches. The first being every singles champion in a tag match together. The rest of the show will be a random roster draw, 8 team, tag tournament with the winners getting golden ticket title shots.

SWA iPPV Results: Big changes and new champions! #SapphireWrestlingAngels

Q: Would I be a sex worker? A: No, but I have zero issue with anyone in sex work or sex work adjacent fields. I’d consider work in the technical side as crew, editor, etc for pron but not sex for money or OF etc. I post “artistic nudes” more as a confidence thing for me and others like me.

My 3rd foil badge. I really enjoy Black Skylands across the board graphics, gameplay, story, everything is on point. Planning on 100% the achievements as well.

SWA News: Hime Jaguar posted to her social media ahead of her TV Title match stating “It’s time for a new look, a new attitude, and new friends…” This comes after her loss in the AJPW Women’s Title qualifier where she humbly shook hands and bowed after the loss.

I feel Bluesky has become an echo chamber for me and i don’t like it. I’ve been stuck on the same numbers for 6 months and there is little to no discovery. 99% of my followers are people who tried BS from Twitter and then stopped posting. I work very hard on my creative stuff for very little.

I just opened a clinic to help evil geniuses with hair loss. It’s called “There will be hell toupée”

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#wagonwednesday A little artistic nudity wagon Wednesday with a whole lot of wagon, maybe more dump truck day? Tips Welcome And Appreciated: linktr.ee/shinmaryuu

I kinda miss the ignorance is bliss but we still care about stuff 90’s. “The internet made us smarter”…maybe we were better off stupid?

It depresses me greatly that $12,000 would legitimately change my life for the better. That it. Not millions or even hundreds of thousands. 12 grand and my life is better and sustainable. Sad part is i can’t make that money. I’d lose my check and my medical.

Thoughts On Chappell Roan: I 100% agree with everything she has said about fame. I struggled greatly in my attempt at notoriety on Youtube because i know me. I know how anti-social i can get, how set in my ways i am, how private i am, how i have severe bullying trauma.

SWA iPPV Results: #SapphireWrestlingAngels A big surprise, new champions, and 3 rookie graduations.

SWA iPPV Preview: A one night grueling tournament where the winner walks away with the tag belts. Plus WWE guests! #SapphireWrestlingAngels

How do you make quality friends as a 42yo, mentally ill, queer, person with social anxiety, and no money or transportation. Asking for a friend….

Why I’m Special: Because in the same sentence i can tell you that I’m not special, nor any human truly, for we are tied forever to a concept, reality, which paradoxically was defined by the very being existing within it’s framework. “Special”…I question if i even exist lol.

SWA iPPV Results: #SapphireWrestlingAngels

I made a thing 😁

SWA iPPV Preview: Grudges and titles dominate the night.

Added donation links back to my Linktree in the form of paypal, Venmo, and cashapp along side my amazon wishlist. Not necessary but any donations go toward paying off credit card debt I’ve aquired buying food while trying to secure cheaper housing linktr.ee/shinmaryuu

“Hey, I’ve always found pickup lines weird. Why would i need to pick you up if i never let you down.” *wink*

New SWA Dojo Class: Overseen by Joanna Tenta the new recruits were photographed today. British standout Piper Dixon, Clown college graduate Ozaki Shika, and Blue chip prospect Uematsu Fuji.

Breaking SWA News: President Joanna Tenta was viciously attacked at the training center by VALKYRIE and Eva D’Amore (God’s Chosen) via CCTV. Eva was then attacked by Mori Mariko in revenge backstage. Tenta has announced Mori as the first member of SWA Sekigun, her managed faction.

Time to make the next batch of SWA rookies! Funny note Eva standing next to VALKYRIE in game is hilarious. V is 7’ and Eva is 5’5”. Eva looks normal next to other wrestlers but V makes her look like a Barbie doll. It’s perfect for God’s Chosen as Eva looks even more like a heel.

Truth Drop: Past trauma is not an excuse to be an asshole, period. A lot of people know my history, I literally have ptsd I’m bipolar and suffer from depression and self hatred/destructive issues. I’ve become a more empathetic and kind person because of my trauma, not an asshole

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SWA News: SWA President Joanna Tenta recently did a photo shoot and interview for JoshiMag. In the interview she spoke about the possibility of her managing in SWA.

Kraven movie is basically Rambo with out the heart/story. Probably a good popcorn movie for streaming. Sony really needs to find a new executive team that isn’t C+ average.

*is sad emo panda* I had to get my prevnar20 pneumonia shot today unexpectedly. Ow… *rubs arm*

Oooo this is very good. Can’t wait to spin their new album. I am 100% here for this Bowie inspired disco revival in modern pop music. Disco gets made fun of for its cheesy nature but it’s a foundation of modern music along side blues. youtu.be/DlyfMSWDV98?...

SWA iPPV Preview: Here is the bracket for the Sapphire Grand Prix. Who do you think will win?

Ow 😣. Was removing a matted bit of fur from my cat’s bottom with the de-knot comb and he got mad and rabbit kicked me. Not mad at him it just hurts and I know it will produce a new plaque psoriasis area.

SWA Breaking News: The Akiro family of Taiji, Kenji, Ryuji, Shawn, and Kim all held a press conference announcing the AJPW Women’s Title which will be defending on both AJPW and SWA shows. Kim pulled off a velvet cover showcasing the new belt.

For every paper cut you get on your knuckle you should be required by law to have one season of incredible oral sex to even things out. 🙂‍↕️

My thoughts on big creators basically glorifying eating disorders and unhealthy body image with some thoughts on my own history with ED.

Being a forever alone weirdo with barely any friends who also happens to have a praise kink is some military grade edging torture that needs to be studied upon my departure from your human planet.

SWA Dojo Class 8 Graduates: VALKYRIE (Amalia Vogel) Eva D’Amore Mori Mariko Okuma Hikaru (Keeps her same dojo look in basic Dradition style) Lilith Black (Graduates from Cinn Dojo)

SWA iPPV Results: New Twin Dream and TV champions crowed, a dangerous new threat, and our rookies graduate.

Logic - Ultra 85 > Eminem - The Death of Slim Shady (Coup de Grâce) Yeah I said it…

Not all hero’s wear capes… Stay weird!