i betrayed you when i was intimate with him. i know it doesnt mean much but it felt like i was raping myself with him to try to forget you, it was awful.

people are only going to find you flipping over stones, beneath the cold, in hiding. but you died under there, bitter and timid. afraid of what might happen if you put yourself out there, but not considering what will happen if you stay where you are. defunct, inactive

i almost got tboned twice in 5 minutes. maybe its a lesson for me to not rush into things, to only make the move when im ready... or maybe there were just two jackasses behind the wheel today.

deny deny deny. correct correct correct. im wrong im wrong im wrong. i cant i wont i don't want to talk about anything anymore. shut down shut down shut down

god i love blowing my load into these tissues

coworker made fun of me for wearing a mask. im literally sick. my coughs sound lime im eating apples in minecraft.

okay its literally the end of this country lol and i just gotta finish this shift and act like nothins happenin

oligarchy.... nazis. blind loyalty and worshiping a false idol. i wonder how this is going to progress

pain is a universal language. so is love.

the unknown wants to be known. the universe strives to discover itself.

my purpose is to be somebody in peoples lives. someone they lose, someone they love, someone they hate, someone they find. im meant to exist and make people feel something and think. thats what im here for

if you make a clothing brand and dont have tags i can fully remove at the seam, you need to quit. i HATE you.

hopefully something terrible will happen to me.i will get love pity attention and they will come back to say im sorry that was selfish and i'll apologize too and we can be happy and they can learn to love me in my new difficult state and surely things wont go bad. surely they can still love me

buy candycorn for isa

you said you love me again. ive missed you.

you cried during edward scissorhands. you told me that you feel like edward and that im kim. in a world of people who either think you're entertainment or a waste of resources, i see you for what you are. a sensitive wonderful caring person. you just want to do the right thing. you kissed my head

i think my sciatic nerve is acting up, thisnisnunpleasant

tomorrow, my life either changes or it doesn't. Which is crazy because that is the odds of every day.

don't get mad at me im like paul revere man im just speading the news warning the people

be careful out there type shit

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of love, belonging, joy, courage, empathy, and creativity. It is the source of hope, empathy, accountability, and authenticity. If we want greater clarity in our purpose or deeper and more meaningful spiritual lives, vulnerability is the path.” ― Brené Brown

(i searched up online how to fix 3 computer problems and random people on a forum fixed it years ago.) we can pretend to be independant on only ourselves but we only ever got this far with the help of others. thank you kind stranger

history only repeats itself because people start denying the past!!! fascism on the rise, economic collapse and depression! oh boy!!

if you are choosing not to do it, someone else is doing the work on your behalf

HOW DOES THESE SEXY ASS MEN LIKE ME. AHAT TYE FUCKKKK

life is amazing. one day youre 15 and you want to die, next thing you know youre 20 and you got to see one of your favorite albums ever performed in its entirety live in las vegas

Closed mouths don't get fed

the difference when someone who lusts after you kisses you and when someone who loves you kisses you is a universe apart. they can do the same thing but it feels so much more intimate and tender. its sweet

some words are so reductive and diminish the reality behind what happened. oh you miss your ex. he wasn't just my ex. its not just a relationship that failed. you make it sound so insignificant. like it was nothing. that was the most loved and whole i ever felt in my life.

we were so sweet and weird and tender together. you understood me and i understood you. what more could you ask for in love? we each had someone who understands us and treated us well. why did it have to end. it was so good.

a surge of creativity and determination is coursing through my body and will leave me at any moment. i need to take advantage of this so i can build momentum

I NEED INK I NEED INK I NEED IT I NEED IT

WHERE THE SHIT ARE MY FUCKING STAMP PADS MAN

why do cats always want to throw up onto things. hey man is it cool if i empty my insides on your bed dude? no? awww come on man.. pleaaaaaasse. don't be like that!! let me throw up on your bed! fine. is the rug fine???? can i go on the rug? what do you mean NO? fine!! HOW ABOUT YOUR SHOES. COME ON!

really neat going for a skate outside and then bitching at myself for being ass and awful at something ive been doing for like a combined 3 hours over the past two weeks. i actually suck. came home irritated at my incompetency and inability to try anything

weird. i turn 20, but i go to three concerts this year that happen on the 19th of the month FUN FUN FUN

i wish i was more brave. but i cant even be bothered to try.

"you're not nice to me anymore" "i wanst before. im acfually nicer to you now" "yeah but you were mean to me and that was your way of showing you cared." .... i guess? yes im giving you the cold shoulder. your presence in my life has made me feel more insecure and inadequate.

why does it matter if i got you something? your ex girlfriend took you to disneyland for your 26th birthday. you guys literally want to get back together. why am i even in the picture dude im just your 20 yr old fuck buddy

And now I'm left to remember you for longer than I knew you.

please don't eat me. i don't taste good. im not even a good source of protein and i don't have enough meat on me.

as bad as it sounds, i kinda cant wait for you to be less active in my life so i can stop being a desperate loser fiending for your attention and affection

i lav da garden

LMFAOOOOO

you and i were back together in my dream, kinda. we went to the park and the library and we kissed and i held on to you. you made some quip about exes. i missed you

when i was a preteen, i was in a lonely relationship. i made a pillow version of him to hug. it wore a hoodie, had two long arms that were knee highs tied together at the middle, filled with clothes and ankle weights for realistic comfort. i used it to feel someone hug me back. right now i miss it

"lol" lets just say i wasnt laughing

meaningless babbles exit my mouth, nothing coherent ever. i cant even think. my brain rotting and my senses diminishing. i reach for somebody but when i touch them i feel nothing and my flesh barely holds my bones and im groaning out for something to change and for time to please stop moving

i am a zombie. lifeless being that stumbles around. my body resisting my every move, "youre dead already stop moving". questioning why i keep going on. but im driven by something primal that says i cant die yet im so hungry for something that will make me feel alive again. theres something out there

i don't care for my body and it falls apart, its my responsibility and i don't want to bear it. i hate this body. it never does what i want it to do and so i beat it senselessly but it never obeys me.