finally got a hold of my eating and back to restricting 😮‍💨 now to lose the 6lbs I gained (and an extra 20 before the year ends 🤞)

only one week left for me to finish packing and cleaning. im moving into a small room in my MILs house and have to somehow donwsize from a 2-story 4 bedroom home..I have to get rid of most of my shit to do so and its stressing me tf out

hi im still alive ive just been stuck in a binge cycle for a month and i finally gave up this week and started purging again 🥲

I desperately need to fast, I’m so bloated and gained like 6 pounds in one week ;;

This is embarrassing to share but wow The difference in my face between my HW and my CW is insane…I look like a completely different person

Ugh I’m so bloated after a day of horrible binging. Seeing my stomach like that triggered me so bad - reminded me of being obese. I can’t go back to that, I have to stop binging…it’s been a week of nonstop food and I already gained two pounds. I don’t want to gain more..

I’m back to playing animal crossing all day everyday. Great food distraction and im nearly done with my island! I’ve been working on it on/off for yeaaaars I’m so excited but also a little sad to be done with it soon 😢

Why can I not lose weight eating 600-800 cals a day but the moment I eat 1200 I actually drop

I used to NEVER get sick but ever since I moved to Florida I get sick once every few months With vaccine mandates being revoked and the lack of women’s healthcare I’m seriously considering moving out…

I caught a stomach bug and it kicked in during day 2 of HHN 😭 at least I got to go through two houses but gonna have to end the night early ;; My hubby had this bug for a week and lost six pounds so I’m hoping I lose the same lmao

It’s a weird feeling being at the SW that triggered my ED in the first place as a child.. yea I’m taller and older so the weight doesn’t sit the same but it feels the same nonetheless

Nothing like looking at photos of myself at my HW to start the day 🥴

Okay so we spoke about this and he says he genuinely did not see the word crossed out under hungry 😭 BUT even after I pointed it out he didn’t see anything wrong with it so naturally that led to an argument…

Whenever my emotions are this intense I just want to B/P all day until my body and brain is numb. I haven’t purged in a month and I already feel the urge building up.

Ugh I’m so upset I just want to run into a bathroom and cry but I’m stuck in line for a haunted house that’s about to open. This was supposed to be a great day and of course it’s ruined. I’m just trying to stuff my emotions down for now but I’m not fucking happy and that’s not going to change.

My husband posted this on his insta and he says I’m overreacting to be upset about it?? What do you guys think

Heading off to Halloween Horror Nights! Had to show off my dress 🩸 🔪 👻

Clothing sizes are so fkn annoying Size 12 jeans from most stores are too big on me and yet i have a size 17 shorts from 2015 that fit perfectly (much to my dismay 🫩) Vanity sizing is so weird now. Like im over here jumping in joy at being an M in most stores just to realize that’s a Y2K XXL💀

Happy that I’ve lost so much and finally fitting in as “average” (after a lifetime of being obese) Sad that I’m still fat AF and no where near skinny 🥲

on day 2 of no food 😘✌️ will i make it to 3 days (so I can be pretty)?.. we'll see idk why its easier to fast when i dont have an upcoming event that I need to lose weight for 🫠

Dropping 2 lbs after a massive 💩

Also another reason we’re moving out is because my husband got SUED from a debt collector and we owe $14,000 😀 We went through a debt resolution program so they’re handling the lawsuit but our payments are going up from $800 a month to $1300 and…yea we cannot fucking afford that with our rent

I should reach GW2 by the beginning of October and my OG UGW by December just with a 1200 cal intake and some light exercise…this is so doable I cannot fuck this up

I’m trying a new thing where I JUST SAY NO to food Calories cannot enter my body without consent and I need to stop giving in so willingly 🥲

Hubby and I made the decision to break our lease early and move in with his parents. They have a 3 bedroom and his two adult siblings already live there but we offered to pay whoever lets us take their room since we have a toddler and four dogs and really need the space.

Back from my work trip! Despite all the food we ate I managed to lose 1 pound 😳 Probably due to all the walking we did My coworkers are super fit and active so it was a little hard keeping up with them. My legs and ankles hurt sooo mf bad. But they inspired me to take fitness more seriously

All my coworkers are SO skinny im going to be the biggest one there and they’re going to be just as repulsed by my body as I am

Hate myself so much How is it that I only lost like 3 pounds this month I should’ve lost at least 10 easily Should’ve just kept purging Now Im stuck being a fat ugly fuck And I have my trip tomorrow Everyone’s going to be subjected to my ugliness I’m such a fucking disappointment

My grandma keeps mailing me 1X clothes and I don’t have the heart to tell her I’m an M now 😭

I love watching myself get prettier with each pound lost

Ugh I need this fat to come off NOWWW I have so much potential

Finally made it through day 1 💀

My doggie turns 10 today! I made some pupcakes for him and the other pups to share 💕

11 bmi points away from my hw 11 bmi points away from my gw

I haven’t had a single day where I’ve eaten anywhere close to my maintenance cals in months and yet my weight does not want to budge for the past couple weeks I’m going to fucking end it

Tempted to stop taking my meds so I can fast 💀

I wish I could just starve in peace

ok so apparently the meds I take lower my blood sugar too much for me to safely fast 🙄

Oh god now he’s making me food at 3am and forcing me to eat

My husband is so upset with me I feel so bad 😭 I’m sad too like I’m genuinely not trying to risk my life and I know I have to be healthy for him and my son I just didn’t think this would happen yet

Heart palpitations went away though so maybe I’m ok now ??

First thing I did after vomiting is weigh myself I’m truly sick in the head

Im too fucking fat to be going through this fml

Welp my body rejected the protein shake and projectile vomited it out 🥲

My body is so fucking weak it hasn’t even been a full 24 hours of fasting yet and I’m having heart palpitations and a panic attack 💀 I drank a protein shake bc I’m not trying to die over a stupid diet but I feel like a failure

One of my IRLs went through a break up and she lost a lot of weight and has been body checking on her insta stories nonstop it’s so mf triggering

Time to try this for this first time wish me luck 😭

yall I only got 3 weeks left before my trip I have to do everything possible to lose weight fr fr

Seeing IRL thinspo hits different 🫩 especially when the person is the same height as me aughhh