i used to think i wanted like a discord or friend group... i still wistfully look at games that are meant for 4 players but i can barely manage a tulpa and ~1 other relationship.. i tried a patron-only discord. a popular artist joined and kept negging me… im such a doormat, i couldnt say anything…

sorry if i haven’t replied in a long time… i promise i didn’t die and i don’t hate you, i’m just naturally kind of a loner and life experiences have been happening lol… (>人<;) i will get back to drawing soon… i’d like to be able to commissions lol… (￣▽￣;)

does anybody want to be really niceys to me

it just rained and i have half a 4loko and some bonghits in me and i went hah! and nearly started crying because i thought about how petrichor etymologically means stone + blood of the gods… like… yeah, dude, yeah, absolutely…

i think the riff at 1:20 seriously compels one to move one’s head in time to the music… #blackthrash #blackmetal #thrashmetal youtu.be/3aec_K6PDmo

unbanned for now… but i’m sure i’ll soon get perma’d for some old upload. like i don’t really feel like going through and censoring myself more than i already have here lol… (￣▽￣;)

lolicon stolen valour.

goresh*t in interviews being like “oh no im not a l*licon, i was just being edgy,” on one hand i get it. like what else can he say. but its a disappointing, like sabbath/bathory/venom going “oh no no we’re not satanic.” i feel like dead did. the guy who made 300 songs abt jacking to konata, doesnt…?

i’m definitely getting banned here next lol… i do miss tumblr, but i don’t think i’ll remake there. i guess i’ll finally put together some kind of static blog thing with federation… basically have a basic ahh bash script stitch stuff together and poke a mastodon bot to post + js embedded replies..?

i think moe thunderbirds would be cute. like lil anime girl marionettes flopping around, occasional shots of actual hands and other practical effects… i think it’d work well for a magical girl thing in particular…

drawings of the creature i haven’t uploaded here yet.

well, i *am* enjoying little kevin three hundred three lately… he’s done collabs with “gore sh*t” and such, if you can believe it. there’s cool breakbeats and funny internet style samples, but also anime girl samples, cool weird synthesizer sounds, and glitchy sample slicing. check it out sometime?

drinking steelreserv and eating ice peam and going to do even more bonghits 😇 and i erm still havent drawn… ok, ok, i’ll actually draw and finish something today… o-or at least try really hard to… i’ve still been technically drawing every day, just not really getting to a presentable or cute state…

lost at poker (doesnt know how to play poker)

feeling really zonked out today so i asked on twitter what to draw and i combined the first few ideas. ok goodnight!

educate you are damn self.

couldnt finish the thing i was doing in time to post tonight... so here's ummm this

Candy @b1eed.bsky.social 's OC Kinda obsessed w her...

having a series of off days...but the daily creature drawings must continue.

tumblr ask

even though she tries to act like she isn't, candy is actually very insecure and jealous and clingy...