best not to think abt it, back to deltarune...

i really shouldnt be judgemental finding out a few of my friends are on the xiv tinder app especially if its from a third party but mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

sorry thats totally vague for no reason....its too embarrassing to say aloud whahahaha

wguhuhghggg

I just had it in my head that Everyone was a lot more well off than me and that i was a giga failure but I guess if everyone is struggling then....its not as bad ;~;

I had a real candid talk w a lot of my friends and feel way better about it...ive been judging myself so harshly for not having a lot of money but it turns out pretty much everyone is really poor...

I have very few comms left then I can take a new batch, this week I gotta lock in

Wuuhrhhhg I'll make it if I keep working hard I just gotta keep going

theres no one on earth i love more than my baby sister!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i loveee giant fucking tits

My friends gassed me up a lot today I feel quite nice ☺️☺️☺️☺️

awhhhahwhawhahwhawhahwhahwhhawhah i just wanna be doted on i wish i wasnt so weird about this kinda thing

too many attractive mutuals...i wonder how many of them would actually wanna.....

i wonder if ill ever be happy it seems so unlikely these days..

rlly looking forward to the days when im not pushing thru pain to do stuff huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhg

i think 2morrow im gonna do my chores very early, update that person on their commission, then spend the entire day grinding ranked

i wanted to learn black mage in cc but i forgot trying new classes in cc is a bad idea because (if i can be toxic for a moment) the average cc player is genuinely so bad that if youre not in a position to carry then 3 or out 5 games are just gonna be total sweeps bc of the 0/6, 10k damage catboy(s)

ive spent the last two days just sleeping w/o talking to anyone....ig i just have to ride out the depression wave till im back to normal

😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞

Damn if even drawing doesn't make me feel better then this is just Big Depression Day

Too sore to go to the gym today………I will simply rot in pain guhhhuuuuu

Gym save me

like, it shouldnt be THIS hard

Im so frustrated with.working out I really hope im making progress

Wwuueehhhhh I won't crash out at 3am ill have a little snack and go to sleep

Fwahhh I had such a long day

Workout finished all my brain problems are healed

Im posting this mid set to say FUUUUCVVKKKKK I HATE LEG DAY ASUUUUJHGHHRHHJGGHHHHHGGHHHH H but I wanna be hot so bad >:'(

All the things I wanna use at the gym are taaakkeennnn aaauuurthhgghhhhhh

I have so many friends im soooo loved

Ok crashout genuinely averted im back to normal for real

like im FINE im just crashing out (soft)

ok my friends bailed me out im only moderately upset

[danger zone]

i made a super tasty meal using only leftovers and random stuff in the fridge...im really proud of the fact that im a very good home chef now

today was genuinley really bad for reasons that are to embarrassing to admit i must hold these L's and use them as fuel for progress

Maybe I need to watch more tv...

Im kinda worried my dating options might actually be limited exclusively to ppl I meet online just bc of how niche my interests are…………

Going out and talking to people more im realizing in kinda struggle a lot at small talk, idk what to talk abt that isnt art and xiv....

gym was closed bc of "memorial day" what utter RUBBISH

Another day grappling w self love arujggh

Uhhhggrgrg I feel saaurr unlovable at times

Thank u God for giving me the opportunities to move tf away I think if I actually lived there all this time id have gone insane Now to return to my nice life in the bountiful lands of the American northwest ☺️☺️☺️☺️

This trip suuuuckeeddd I never wanna go back to the south

I used a proper conditioner meant for my type of hair (instead of just using whatever I found in a bathroom) and my hair has been so well behaved and fluffy all day....amazing...

Ahhhh I really didnt deserve that

My family is so horribly dysfunctional im remembering why I dont like to visit!!!! I love my baby sister enough to deal though

I looooveeee your shoelaces

I was there for fucking everything man, dashcon, mishacolypse, the whole once-ler thing, my god

I think Tumblr became the real internet secret club that 4chan used to be but that's a really nuanced topic I could only properly explain to like 4 people max