Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, lemon Dijon cod, a Yukon gold potato and a garden salad. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, rosemary garlic citrus turkey breast, a Yukon gold potato and green beans. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, lemon Dijon haddock, a Yukon gold potato and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Zinfandel, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

I just received an email from my health plan / insurance company that they are allowing the previously denied therapy sessions. Yay! So happy!

I attended my first virtual support group meeting for older trans people today. It was so amazing and affirming.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, lemon Dijon haddock, a Yukon gold potato and rutabaga. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, cucumber dill haddock, a Yukon gold potato and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, horseradish peppercorn steak, a red potato and green beans. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: horseradish peppercorn pork chop, a red potato and golden beets. Also having a nice bottle of Sangiovese, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Can I say that I hate the health insurance system in the US? I just got a notice from my insurance company that they are not paying for the last 6 sessions with my therapist. She's been so supportive about me transitioning. I'm rather heartbroken at the moment. 😭💔 1/

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: curried mango haddock, a Yukon gold potato and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is another nice supper: bruschetta, lemon Dijon haddock, a Yukon gold potato and rutabaga. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: a pineapple ginger grilled pork chop, a Yukon gold potato and an ear of corn on the cob. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: bruschetta, curried mango grilled pork chop, a Yukon gold potato and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: horseradish peppercorn grilled pork chop, a Yukon gold potato and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: bruschetta, lemon dijon haddock, a Yukon gold potato and a garden salad. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: bruschetta, cucumber dill haddock, a Yukon gold potato and green beans. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

meh. brain is being really bad tonight. I'm safe but really struggling to see anything positive. sigh

Self care for me is another nice supper: Bourbon bacon barbecue grilled chicken, a Yukon gold potato and Chioggia beets. Also having a nice bottle of Grenache, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Self care for me is another nice supper: curried mango pork chop, a Yukon gold potato and Chioggia beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Sigh. Not having a good day today. Brain is giving me all the negative self talk. I'll be okay but I'm just really down right now.

I'm really looking forward to the long weekend. I have a couple of new outfits that I'm looking forward to trying out. If I like them you may get a partial Heidi reveal post.

Well, I had another great session with my therapist this morning and we have a session scheduled for next week. I have a lot of things to think about which I will share with her as journal entries online. Some things I may share here as well.

Well, I had another great session with my therapist this morning and we have a session scheduled for next week. I have a lot of things to think about which I will share with her as journal entries online. Some things I may share here as well.

Self care for me is another nice supper: bruschetta, curried mango haddock, Yukon gold potatoes, and zucchini and yellow squash. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Unfortunately, between the straits that I see my country in, work being dreadful and various things going bad in life, I'm afraid I've lost any spark that I may have had. I feel like an empty husk tbh.

Another nice supper for me tonight: port wine and mushroom grilled pork chop, Yukon gold potatoes and beets. Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Another nice supper for me tonight: curried mango haddock, Yukon gold potatoes and green beans. Also having a very nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon, some chocolate ice cream and a brownie.

Looking for a transgender friendly medical practice north of Boston that takes my insurance. The policy claims to cover hormone therapy so trying to see what I can do.

Meh

Another nice supper for me tonight: Hawaiian grilled chicken, yukon gold potatoes and green beans (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Well, I think I'm going to stop posting here. If I ever figure myself out, maybe I'll come back. I'll give myself a couple of days to decide. 😔

Was going to post a self care supper post. Even had the basil garlic olive oil pork chop picture ready. But what's the point? I don't think I'll ever feel confident enough to transition. I can't afford to give up what I do in my vanilla life. Maybe I just should delete this account idk

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I'm alone today physically but not really. I have the community I've made for myself, my books, my movies and music, and some great food. I have things to be grateful for and I hope you do too.

Another nice supper for me tonight: bruschetta, lemon dijon pork chops, yukon gold potatoes and Chiogga beets (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Sangiovese and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Meh

Oh well. No one seems to see what I post here. 🤔

Another nice supper for me tonight: bourbon bacon barbecue chicken, yukon gold potatoes and corn on the cob (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Another nice supper for me tonight: grilled scallops with truffle aioli and pickled red onions, yukon gold potatoes and corn on the cob (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Sangiovese and will have some chocolate ice cream.

A nice supper for me tonight: grilled scallops with truffle aioli and pickled red onions, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Another nice supper tonight: bruschetta, bourbon bacon barbecue chicken, yukon gold potatoes and green beans (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

A nice supper for me tonight: grilled scallops with truffle aioli and pickled red onions, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Another nice supper for me tonight: grilled lemon Dijon chicken, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Sangiovese and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Sad. Don't think I will ever really be Heidi. Should just accept that I'm deadname and forget about it. 😢 (Don't worry. I'm safe and would never do anything to physically hurt myself.)

Another nice supper for me tonight: grilled Hawaiian pork chop, yukon gold potatoes and green beans (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Syrah and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Another nice supper for me tonight: bruschetta, grilled horseradish peppercorn pork chop, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also having a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Another nice supper for me tonight: grilled lemon dijon pork chop, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also had a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Self care for me tonight is a nice supper: grilled pineapple ginger pork chop, yukon gold potatoes and green beans (not all items pictured). One of my favorite meals and tbh I need all the help I can get tonight. Really struggling with the feeling that I'm not trans enough.

Another nice supper for me tonight: grilled vidalia onion and fig pork chop, yukon gold potatoes and a garden salad (not all items pictured). Also had a nice bottle of a Super Tuscan red blend and will have some chocolate ice cream.

Had a nice supper tonight: grilled curried mango chicken breast, yukon gold potatoes and green beans (not all items pictured). Also had a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon and will have some chocolate ice cream.