realistically speaking is there any point in going forward

grok can i go for a smoke

that south node venus transit and pluto uranus transit got me acting suspicious

when u gotta pack for moving tomorrow but all u have been doing the past two months is trying rly hard not to kill urself

going to visit places that have never been visited before

a rly good crying session would save me

i am coming up with a new gender spectrum but nobodys ready for it yet

sorry im just saying words

grok where the fuck are my cigarettes

does anyone know when is it ok to give up

do not listen to the playlist ur 2023 ex made for u.

it's so dire

nobody has any idea how bad things are right now bc i feel a burden on everyone and like ppl only give me time and attention out of basic empathy and not genuine love and i dont want ppl talking me just out of pity

i bet being jumped off feels so good for the golden gate bridge

u dont realize how much time passes til u are out of it

i just wrote code so clean i could kiss it in the mouth

what did they mean with this banger

my august hobbies are chainsmoking, amphetamine abuse, and writing regex

linux.ucla.edu/cknight my website

i have a website

grok where are my fucking cigarettes

Mitsuki Koga:

let's all get diagnosed now

i had a dream i was toing to kill myswlf but i didnt go through with it but ppl thought i had and they were celebrating. really makes u think

one thing they don't tell oyu about PTSD is u feel like a scared animal all the time

when i kill myself im posting my suicide note on bsky to my one active friend and 3 mutuals i dont talk to

it still feels pretty unreal im going to my dream school with full ride and i got in with a GPA so low ppl dont beliebe me

oh my god i forgot i uad this

It came to me in a dream.

i rly like tbis photo of me and her

i bet on the paleolithic dog

assigned cadaver at death

a ciggie and beethovens große fugue hit different wgen you are actively suicidal

are you fucjing kidding me

case/lang/veirs ran so that boygenius could fly

cant shower in peace without this cat screaming at the door BRO I HAVE ROOMMATES I CANT SHOWER WITH THE DOOR OPEN

i should drop out and move to NYC

# mood

very depressed & suicidal & feeling like my friends don't wanna be around me when i'm like this bc last night someone messaged me to ask me how im doing and i told her and she left me on delivered. cool thanks that's awesome

hi

I like @freedomoklahoma.bsky.social’s spirit

ghastly morning in Los Angeles today

46 degrees in Compton, California, and i really just want a hug and nothing else

is anyone else acutely aware of the passage of time and that the good things that are coming will end just like the bad things you survived?? or just me and my godawful 2024 that almost killed me and in which i lost the last family member i felt close to?

moodboard for thr week