Fancy headphones broke (left side plastic casing cracked in half, wires exposed, external structure unstable, device unusable) Realized I can't afford a replacement of equal/decent quality And I'll never have the means to replace nice things ever again So... why bother WANTING anything?

It really is interesting what's considered "political violence" worthy of an instant torrent of statements from Democrats and what isn't, and to whom those rules apply.

Literally cannot escape sensory hell. Not safe to go out again, I'll crash the car. Taking a walk in 100°F heat also isn't an option, as I'll pass out. Not hyperbole. This will happen. And there's no place the house where the smell doesn't reach. I'm going to throw up.

Still the biggest mystery in #Severance Devon/Ricken Ben Stiller, explain They have negative chemistry Girl why are you, the most believably written character in the show, married to an uncooked bratwurst with delusions of grandeur Do you need help Blink three times if you need help

"WHAT THE FUCK-ETH WAS THAT??!?" Lessons in holiness from Moxxie: add "-eth" to the end of every other word during your DIVINE SONOROUS PRONOUNCEMENTS & bing bam boom, no one will ever doubt you've got a halo up your ass or whatever it is angels do with that thing #HelluvaBoss #MissionWhackedOff

We got @amirtalai.bsky.social over here posting political stuff that scares the everloving shit outta me, and @meakoopa.bsky.social over there all "HELMET ON, TITS OUT"

Ah man, why be upset about my petty problems and insignificant life when I can visit Bluesky and allow just 2 minutes of doom scrolling (free of charge!) to realign and broaden my existential horror to the point I'm rendered incapable of believing the future exists? Works every time.

Currently on hold with state agency I'm required to contact specifically by phone in order to renew services. Been on hold for 85 minutes. I'm gonna hurl.

I have a not-very-spoilery question for @chucktingle.bsky.social about #BuryYourGays (I finished it in two days btw 🤠): Misha thinks of Zeke in terms of his "status" (aka "my boyfriend") probably more than he thinks of Zeke by name. Was that intentional? (If so, follow-up question...)

them: cute story about family me: active listening, sharing of joy, ensuring they've been heard, also an emotionally complex story about MY family them: me: them: ..."ANYWAY", more about the cute thing fuck this. not sharing anything. you get nothing FROM me ABOUT me. not when i get ignored.

Here's now jaded I am The very trope from which #BuryYourGays derives its title, the trope I'm sure, I'M SURE will be subverted in several ways, is still something I'm worried about at pg30, AS SOON AS ZEKE APPEARS Sure it's a horror story, but @chucktingle.bsky.social wouldn't bury him...right? 🥺

Thank goodness I'm not alone. Saaaaaame. The tone of the whole thing felt off to me. I mean, I get that literal demons contracted to merc a fusion of Mr. Rogers & Ned Flanders COULD be a funny concept, but Blitz was bizarrely petulant ≈ 95% of his screentime. What'm I supposed to get out of that?

Seriously though what was I supposed to get out of that? The sneak peak built up so much hope that we'd get a substantial moment of dialogue, the slightest glimpse into backstory for either Loona or Blitz, a flash here & a flash there of still frames we hadn't seen yet, ANYTHING Nope #HelluvaBoss

Sooooooo Orphan Time was a thing that happened .................yeah 🤷🏻‍♀️😕

The President of the United States is advocating for arresting the duly-elected Governor of California for his SPEECH He thereafter admitted that the Governor of California had committed NO CRIME—but he still wants him arrested Spend as much time as you need processing what that means for America

Refuse to debate the worth of others. Fascism thrives on the concept of “us versus them”. It says that certain groups (immigrants, trans people, disabled people etc) are less than. It blames the world’s problems on the “lesser” group so people won’t fight for them. All of us have value.

Sometimes my joints and my muscles feel so weak and unstable that standing in front of the stove and tending to a boiling pot seems inadvisable and maybe even dangerous. I wish I'd been aware of my extreme hypermobility waaaaay way sooner.

Getting back to that "nothing means anything, my feelings have force-closed, I don't care if the fascists kill me, or that the progressives are extremely irritated with my inconvenient disabled existence, tbh I invite you to forget I exist, please go away & let me rot" place.

hello hi everyone WHY HAVEN'T I SEEN THIS DISCUSSED OR EVEN POINTED OUT? Stolas is divorced. He doesn't wear a ring. He wasn't wearing one in Mastermind or Sinsmas!! And yet!!! Did they get Earth-married in Vegas?! WHAT IS HAPPENING #stolas #blitz #Stolitz #HelluvaBoss #Pride

The last four things I've drawn. Two (Fizz & Loona) from the Sad Gay Demon Musical Cartoon Show (aka Helluva Boss, but I like my title better 😆), and two based on an app I use, Finch. Not hashtagging anything. Just putting this out there because my therapist suggested I share stuff publicly. 🤷🏻‍♀️

My therapist said "Art is important to you, and you're also experiencing profound isolation because of your health. Maybe you can connect to people online via mutual interest in art." Appreciate the sentiment, but nothing I draw is original in any way (besides proportion mistakes). No one cares.

Therapy is tiring But... so is hiding how you feel

🍪 #HazbinHotel

Really loving this freeze-frame of @domaindead.bsky.social 😙😆🥰 It's always wonderful to accidentally pause at juuuuust the right moment [but genuinely, this is a super cute expression]

JK Rowling is a raging cunt, and it’s fun to know she just hates everyone who isn’t her miserable shriveled bitch self.

Sir if you continue to say the quiet parts through a megaphone, I WILL inform everyone I live with that it's your fault when I pterodactyl shriek. (but Amir understands what the REAL priorities are and he SHOULD say it soooooooooo no genuine objections from me 😈💜)

Spend all my waking hours today: (1) Giggling with my wife about old man yoai, (2) Going down an internet rabbit hole starting with a crochet Reel & ending with a 35 minute video essay on Hobie Brown (Spider-Verse version), & (3) Screaming stuff like "WHY AM I SO DIZZY?!?" at my empty living room

I'd very much like to live in literally any other version of the multiverse. Even the sandworm planet, y'know, like in Beetlejuice. Send me there. I swear, it would be better than this. Either I'm completely cut off from humanity, or people come out of the woodwork to lie about me for no reason.

I really miss, um... Feeling things. #disability #autism #burnout #chronicfatigue #NumbLittleBug

Fucking unbelievable how little the ~everything of me~ matters.

Are YOU a real ace in the hole? Sending love and respect to everyone on the asexuality spectrum. Your existence is valid and important. Be you, be proud. You are loved. And a reminder for the aces AND the allos: You dont have to fuck to be fab. #internationalasexualityday

Okay cool I finally have access to Apple TV and I can watch #Severance along with approximately half the population of planet Earth, or at least that's my best viewership estimate based on the staggering number of people who can't stop fucking talking about it And now I'm one of them hooray

why am i even...? like... @sharkrobotstore.bsky.social won't see this & neither will anyone else if i tag #HelluvaBoss fandom THEN WHAT??? i'm no one, & this isn't a "problem" compared to everything happening everywhere else all at once i'm just a lone dumbass who should've bought groceries

Just been completely screwed over by @sharkrobotstore.bsky.social who issued an immediate refund when I DID NOT ASK FOR THAT, and the payment method (a stimulus card) isn't even in my possession anymore. Way to completely jump the gun and send my money into the void. WHAT'S MY RECOURSE HERE?!?

Y'know... Maybe I *should* be ignored I've never been "right," I've never belonged, I never will, and even the one person I know who refuses to give up on the worst of the worst... gave up on me So I might as well give up on me too Turns out I'm worse than the worst of the worst

I'm never getting approved for SSI.

Sometimes I want to be the one who's expected to speak, even if I don't speak continuously or forcefully, even if I can't find the words for several minutes. Please recognize that I want my voice to be the priority at least once in a while even if it's not very strong & doesn't have much to say.

Car battery died. No one around to give me a jump. If was nice knowing....... the very few people who ever cared. ✌🏻

This whole "energy block in the throat" thing really is uncomfortable

I think I think I just had Had, like My first POSITIVE experience With a goddamn therapist. What the fffffffff This never happens for me this is never a thing it must be a scam he must be secretly bullshit Self-sabotage self-sabotage self sabotage oh my GOD shut up Let good things HAPPEN

What if I'm saying all this and no one will ever see it Because no one will ever see it What then

What if I'm told to stay strong and fight And what if my entire existence has been narrowed down to a near inability to MOVE while trapped under this Lovecraftian horror level of crushing, suffocating, miserable fatigue AND WHAT IF I CAN'T STAY STRONG AND WHAT IF I CAN'T FIGHT WHAT THEN

What if I can't psychologically process the collapse of civilization And what if I can't handle the probability that federally funded programs keeping me alive will crumble & decay within a year And what if I can't leave my house or turn on any lights or speak to anyone And I just cry What then

Mom's gone to the same church for the better part of three decades. There were family baptisms, first communications, & marriages there. The moment one of the deacons started railing against being transgender, she decided "nope, I'm out." So she left. And she hasn't gone back. Love you, Mom. 💖

Trans right are human rights.

Roommate @gaugebosons.bsky.social used the term "psychomodify" as shorthand for "psychological modification", aka "doing mental actions, thinking certain things, going through certain therapies, etc, in order to improve mental functionality in terms of anxiety, depression, etc". And I love it.

met someone who seemed nice, who has some sorta degree in psychology, & after telling them that i've been mistreated in a space specifically dedicated to self-care for neurodivergent, mentally ill, & chronically ill people, they said "hm, maybe you should consider going somewhere else". The. FUCK?

my kink is people caring about me and LISTENING WHEN I SPEAK/READING WHAT I WRITE sometimes being known is a validating reassurance rather than a mortifying ordeal who knew

I shouldn't suffer physical & psychological torture when the medical professionals KNOW I'm awake & panicking & experiencing pain, since I was conscious & lucid enough to REPEATEDLY TELL THEM. I've endured these surgeries since my 20s. But it's never been this bad. #disability #chronicillness

I supposedly underwent twilight sedation during my pacemaker replacement. Every other time I've been sedated that way, I either passed out within seconds, or retained zero memories of the experience. This time, I was awake & aware through most of it. And I remember EVERYTHING.