Is it petty for me to say I don't like it when people said: "I felt the same for you." or "A lot of people also experiences the same thing as you do"?

God I can't stop feeling like I'm being pressured by time and schedule. It doesn't matter what they are and when they will arrive, they just keeps on overwhelming me and kept me anxious.

I feel like... I'm fighting my executive dystfunction making this shirt and pants. I... Can't exactly point out what made me feel demotivated and afraid about this work... But I'm glad I'm fighting it, I'm making a change

Is there room for improvement? Definitely. Do they greatly affects my work, and make it undesirable? No. Have you tried solving the issue and gave it your best? Maybe. Do you think you did a good job? Kinda.

And that's texturing done! I took after the design of switch sport, and aim to alternate and color and add some part of my own. I think it looks... OK. I kept feeling like there's is something I need to do and something I need to improve but... ...I guess sometimes being OK is good enough!

Why is playing Sekiro on PC with controller requires so much effort...

Is there anything else I needed to add? Anything... that was immidately off to you? Not really... But what if there is? I keep feeling like there's something I need to add or something I need to do before I move on

Seeing the topic around chainsmoker cat reminded me of a friend, who liked watching fictional character smoke because it makes them looks so cool and has a lot of charm to it. Although he clearly stated that he sees real-life and fictional situation differently, there's something about this...

I don't know what to feel about the process of making clothing for Arashi. I feel very lost and reclutant, yet I actually know what to do and how it looks all along. It's like I'm very intimidated and don't think I can produce a good result

I... couldn't exactly figure out how to make a tuck in varient, it's just looks somewhat off to me. I dunno maybe it's the pants?

More progress I'd probably add more detail to the pants, but I'll just have to figure out how to do it.

So wait, Splatoon raiders demo is available in some supermarket stands!? It seems like NA already have a version where they can play... Not sure for my country(TW), but I'll def go take a look

I suddenly wonders… What activity makes me feel relaxed and reassured?

…I’m so tired. It’s so exhausting feeling like I have to deal with everything myself.

Less Instagram more happiness

The thing about summer vacation is that I will constantly urge myself to pick up a responsibility. Which gets tiring very quickly, because I don't really want to.

Progress is made. Just gotta keep going... And don't overthink it.

When I'm playing NS sport Chambara I gets stressed so easily, but whenever I think about it, I just never think I needed to be this anxious over something that barely matters for me, when I think about it. But surely there's something I care about right?

There is just- Too many sources of stress in my life But surely there are common point of all that stress right? I just need to figured out, what is the one reason that neumerous stress shared.

Don't overthink it. Just write down whatever came to my mind and work around that, it'll be great I promise. No pressure, nobody's pushing me and they won't say anything.

Why do I constantly feel a pressure of responsibility? I got a feeling my interest turns into a responsibility really quickly. Not saying that I don't like it, but these feelings intensifies to a point I found too stressful And it shouldn't be.

I think... I'll try to clearly define the very basis of what my OC are. I wanted to add so many details and depths that I think I'd get lost track, and really confused of how to define them.

Shiya's most defining characteristics: creative, amiable, compassionate, selfless, impatient, insecure She is this charming girl that are very sensitive to emotions. Shiya adapts to new situations quite well and are very expressive, but she have a very weak sense of self.

Arashi's most defining characteristics: Nonchalant, acute, serious, inarticulate, prideful. He's a very straight talker that kept his movement and speech short and sweet, have a lot of knowledge, but also too straight that can hurt people sometimes.

I will. But I need to tell myself to start simple. Don't be too stressed out about the details and such, I can go with the flow, and then work my way up.

I genuinely, think I don't know how to describe my character and OCs. I don't know how to properly write them and describe.

Hmm... No matter how many times I look that the charactistics of Arashi and Shiya they just always seemed... off. Feel like I've been trying to define them for such a long time, but they just never seems to be right. That feels contradicting...

Let us start from the basics.

I kinda want to make their outfit dancing themed. I love the act of dancing with pairs, it is such romantic and intimate way of expressing relationship. Improvised or structured, it shows how deep of a connection you had with the other half.

Wouldn't it just be so great if I can make a matching outfit for Arashi? It's gonna take me some extra effort though, maybe maybe...

It just makes me really happy. It feels... weird. I want to directly share this happiness to friends around me whom I valued. But I'm also very reclusive. Like what are they supposed to say? What do I expect from them? I expect them to feel the same happiness as I am?

I wanted to adjust the color a little bit More appealing colors imo

Dress & flow #Blender3D #Splatoonart

I gotta take rigging lessons man.

(WIP) The dress is done!!! Now all that's left is to rig it.

Was trying to reshell my 3ds while fixing issues. But then, ribbon cable became my worst enemy. It’s fine… It’s only the screen… I just need to buy a new one it’s not a big deal, I’m fine it’s fine I organized everything if I can disassemble it I can put it back it’s not broken it’s not

Today's progress(It's almost 3am for me) Aside from the completed skirt, I added a rough color to everything else and finalized the modeling, I also UV unwrapped some of them.

Nice. The node materials may be a little bit too much tho.

Slay💖

WIP Modeling a dress I really liked in NS sports

I struggles from stress very often. One of the most prevalent example is when I was playing Splatoon, solo queuing. I took pride in my skill and devotion, yet very insecure about my own capablity. Playing with strangers or againsting a figure posed as popular/strong can amplifiy my stress.

I suppose I can tell myself I'm doing a good job mental exercising. It is a real task that takes energy and effort to complete, one that I neglected before but do now.

One thing I have always neglected before is that internal feelings and mental processing is a form of stress and work too. They too requires effort and energy, not just a long to-do list. That explains why I always feel tired and overwhelmed.

好羨慕別人可以畫光鮮亮麗的婚紗圖... 好美...

I was always so eager to make the most out of everything and every little time. I wonder why…

I wanted this outfit for a long time, and it did not disappoint me at all. It’s so pretty, I love it💖🥹

(NS sport: Chambara) Because of the nature of Chambara swings, you need to take some time to angle your sword and prepare for your strike in order to attack properly. I think this is actually a fair balance, giving players time to react even if window is small.

I will never stop trashtalking about NS sports Chambara This shih is literally unplayable, I can't find players so I ends up fighting bots. And these bots are absolute hell to fight, somehow their stance just seems unbeatable and relys a lot on luck

I dunno, this is my way of approaching friends I want to play or interact with them but I'm too afraid to directly engage or callout a specific person. But it also just made me look kinda awkward... Oh well, the only one who can feel embrassed is me.

I looked at other people's OC and I was like: Man I loved them, but I can brought out something better. I think it's like other things I had in life, I wanted to seek validation from others. But where do I even start with this...