On the plane, for comfort, I reread the creelson kiss scene a hundred times and then I cried from tenderness. I need another hundred thousand scenes of their kisses and fanarts too (I’ll help with that, even if I’m the only person in this fandom)

This week is going to be very hard and I’m terrified of how it will end. If everything goes well, I’ll be here more often starting next week

I feel so lonely, so broken that I don’t even know how to live my life. I feel like I’ll never have real life friends who would actually be happy to have me around

WHAT

You hardly see me here anymore ‘cause of all the internet blocks

Thank you to my bro exedodomini for supporting my madness in January and we actually got a real result out of it. When you want something that doesn’t exist, you’ve have to do it yourself. Now we have Henry Creel figures. It was a really interesting experience #henrycreel

Be born in a dictatorship, then try laughing at anything. Or better yet, end up here after having known what freedom is, so you can feel this despair in full contrast. Some people are completely fucking out of touch with their privileges

The latest news and new laws have dropped me into such an emotional pit that I have nothing to say

Tomorrow is going to be a really tough day for me (Cooper’s having surgery). I’ll do my best to get through it emotionally and then finally start working on your commissions in the evening… So sorry for the delay, friends

I found out that someone has already tried to impersonate me. Friends, please be careful and don’t pay money in advance. My nickname is almost completely identical everywhere and I never ask to delete your comments (that should already sound suspicious). Love you

I didn’t want to announce news like this but I have no other options left. I’m opening commissions and I’m begging you on my knees - whoever can please commission me. The layoff happened at the most difficult time for my family and I simply won’t cope without your support

It was a layoff. I don’t know how to live this life

You are my Oscar winner, Jacob

200k words in and they finally held hands. Slowburn indeed ❤️‍🔥

What’s especially upsetting is that yesterday was supposed to be a good day. My first vinyl record for my collection arrived, my gift to myself for my birthday. But all the joy of owning it was tainted by reality

It’s been 14 years today since I first started reading fanfiction on AO3

Well, I’m going to assume that I’ll be fired next week. There’s a very high probability, according to the omen they don’t schedule good meetings for the beginning of the week on a Friday without an explanation

Lately I’ve been thinking about deleting my blogs on twt and bsky and only staying on discord. But the thing is, it’s pointless to be there too. I’m in the mood to disappear from everywhere and just be a lurker

I have no idea why I even bother dreaming about my own merch (hoodies, keychains...), checking prices. It’s not like anyone else would want it

So I just randomly found out that my old (2009-2011) yaoi stuff is still on LJ. And now I’m sitting here with this really weird, complicated expression, trying to process it all lol

That's my boyfriend! Isn't he beautiful? Eddie Munson/Henry Creel Fanart for "Swamp Things" by papirossy #creelson #eddiemunson #henrycreel #strangerthings

Okay, I love Procreate. I’m even starting to remember why I love drawing. The rendering ends up looking more watercolor-like but I actually kind of like it that way. The color isn’t as dense, like there’s more air to it

I’d forgotten how much I love drawing faces, especially eyes. God, it’s my own personal hell and heaven all at once

Chapter 1 of The King in the Moon is finished, and I can't believe I have to wait another 2 months to post it - I'm too excited! Well... I guess I'll move on to chapter 2! @saurondrielfest.bsky.social

The urge to draw something illegal is just incredibly strong. I mean, mlm porn

Getting used to Procreate is going to be really hard. I yell at the tablet every five minutes because I can’t figure out how to do anything

He is a demodog

Another funeral at the Noldor farm... meet me at the edge Haladriel | E | 58.7k | 6/8 Please mind the tags! Read on ao3: archiveofourown.org/works/47210539/chapters/211066991

Literally me

Looks like I want to descend into total isolation where no one else would care about any of this except me. Here I am drawing creelson and after that natejules. A parade of rare ships. If self-pity doesn’t consume me, maybe next will be something… haladriel?

This crappy weather got me sick

That’s really funny coming from an American

Sometimes I want to show my resting bitch face in different trends like “me and my art”. Like now. And I’m torn between the fear of being doxxed and the urge to kms

Every time I think it can’t get any worse, it does. Especially today. I’m laughing hysterically

I just saw a fanart of the exact same scene from a fic that I wanted to draw. Guess I won’t be drawing it now. My stupid head is full of enough cockroaches as it is, and this is just one of them, unfortunately

О, печаль моя. Здесь я не был. Где предел, края? Кто видел? И чья теперь ты, чья? И чья теперь ты, чья?

⚠️ Chapter 26 ⚠️ Ch 26 of Love Me, and Let Me Go is up! 'Men Are Weak' A feast. A mistake. A knife. archiveofourown.org/works/635580...

Me: I'm probably done with writing modern AUs for Haladriel tbh. Also me: Grab You 'til You're Sore E 8,809 words archiveofourown.org/works/80131216

being a working adult means spending 8 hours doing things you don't like and then making dinner and then having no energy for your hobbies and things you like and all of a sudden it's already bedtime x5

Morning mood

I know I’m hella late to this party but I really want to find some creelson moots here

The amount of blini I’ve eaten in the last two days… My craving is fully satisfied until next Maslenitsa

Something teaser-like

Realizing that I’ve started reading again but that my memory is struggling due to emotional overload (I only remember the emotions, not the details), I decided to use an app to save my favorite moments. So I can remember what made each story so special to me

Serbia was on my mind all night. Sometimes I really miss that place

CHAPTER 21 Her eyes watered. The fire in the hearth leaped up like a living thing taking a great gasp of air. “I am here,” she whispered to the night. “The door is open. Come to me. Please, Adam. Come to me.” archiveofourown.org/works/737951... #frankenstein #creaturebeth

Chapter 1 of my haladriel academic AU is up! Thanks for all the support as I go wayyyy out of my Humanities comfort zone to STEM land 😂❤️ I heard her holler, I heard her moan Haladriel Professors AU E, 1/4, 4.5k archiveofourown.org/works/79997431

Every year I hope to make it to Nikola-Lenivets but I never seem to have any luck. This year my dream of celebrating Maslenitsa there fell through again

Николай 💔