Listening to this song and as of late, being certain to have BPD, this song is essentially what having BPD sounds and feels like youtu.be/9-5IIx4R6E8?...

(TW: Mentions of depression and hopelessness) Made this during hiatus. I swear feeling like this is not good. It sucks horribly it's just torture. I want to feel better...

(Vent: implied depression) 21... I did not think I'd get this far... but here I am.

(Mention of extreme anxiety) I didn't think I'd get a horrible anxiety attack at work where I would experience tunnel vision, feeling unable to breathe, feeling like I am going to pass out and have my whole body feel almost numb and weak... what a day.

(TW: Depression, verbal ab*se) Had a major depressive episode at work... just the type of stuff that floods my mind at any waking moment. I just want to get better, not worse. (Extended caption in alt.)

First comes having depressive episodes, then lacking sleep, then back to feeling depressive all over again.

Sure, stuff happens, but am I at fault for what chaos has been happening day by day?

Always feeling on edge. Brain feels rattled with visceral thoughts. Heart feels hollow. Why do I always have to feel scared? It's not fair.

(TW: Extreme mental illness, fear of death) My mind can't stop running. Every single worrying thought comes and hits me faster than a train. I'm afraid to die at any given moment, whether it's an illness or an accident. My mind can't stop running.

TW: Organ horror, mention of extreme depression I had been feeling empty lately, but today has gotten worse... I had a wave of emptiness come in at work. This was drawn while at work.

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Been having this migraine since yesterday, it is pounding like absolute hell.

I fell in and out of dissociation at work yesterday, what a vicious cycle it can be.

TW: Eye strain, intrusive thoughts I am sick at the moment and one of the worst things about being me is being a hypochondriac. I let my mind wander into very disturbing thoughts and conjure up stuff that one may consider outlandish. It sucks.