the big beautiful bill now has a work requirement attached to it in order to receive food stamps. if you can’t find work, you can volunteer. i’ve been job hunting for a job with accommodations for almost 3 years. no luck. found a place that’ll take my labor for free, though.

there’s a 35 min doc on netflix called “all the empty rooms”. cataloguing the empty (but preserved) bedrooms of kids who have died in school shootings if you can watch this & still believe we don’t have a gun problem in this country i do not believe you deserve to walk the earth

i survived the stress test! barely but it did happen 😅 heart rate hit 184 in under 6 minutes. didn’t get any of the scary symptoms! i’m so exhausted now. this is where i’ll be for the next few days recovering

i have a stress test tomorrow. i’m actually terrified of it because i can’t be on any of my meds and the last time i was that active without them i got chest pain and short of breath and vomiting and a migraine and pain radiating down my arm and up to my jaw.

a food photographer i am not, but i made eggs benedict with homemade hollandaise sauce and it turned out delicious 🤤

i’m having stress dreams about a stress test i’m scheduled for this week.

i love my parents with all my heart. they are the best people i know & i am so grateful for them but i stg everything people do as they get older is just louder !!! want to watch a movie? good luck. we’ve got one 60 year old toddler drinking glasses of milk and then clearing his throat all night.

ended this week by decorating the house for christmas. this is what you can see from where i’m sitting 😂 im too tired to get up

i’m in a family of passive know-it-alls and i cannot explain to you how much hell i’m in now that we are trialing a monthly game night to hang out more since gramps died.

i managed to go my whole life and through the promo for two films without spoiling the plot and character connections in Wicked. my mother spoiled the movie for me in under two minutes from the opening scene. she just leaned over and spilled the tea. like ???? help 😂

my parents are having a spirited conversation about a hypothetical business where you rate landlords so tenants don’t get scammed. they have had a mortgage since 1990. bought and sold 2 homes before the one they are in now. why are they weighing pros and cons of this. i am going to die.

i am convinced the discourse about these emails is being algorithm suppressed bc how the fuck does it feel like no one is talking about it. BUBBA BILL?? HE IS THE WORST PERSON EPSTEIN KNEW?? my brain is malfunctioning

“if liberals are so fucking smart how come they lose so goddamn always” - will mcavoy s1:e1 of the newsroom. the most evergreen quote of all time. “we are reopening the govt on the PROMISE we will be allowed to vote about healthcare” fucking morons. the lot of them.

i will say that it feels profoundly difficult to emotionally process the hope of last year being absolutely railroaded to celebrating this year. i’m glad for any win. any movement. but goddamnit where were you all last year. why are we now cursed to celebrate with an asterisk of profound failure

look. i am the last person people look to for optimism or pollyanna perspectives. but i have been shocked, in very good ways, by the outcomes tonight. and it goes past these very large races like VA or NYC. my small (and VERY red town for the past 12 years) just elected a democratic mayor.

god the fact that we’ve gotten all these wins on the day dick cheney died is honestly incredible. like he will enter that grave rolling over. he deserves every second of his legacy being overlooked.

do you know why today is a phenomenal day? it’s because the man who abused me for the better part of a decade now lives in a state run by a democrat, female governor and he can’t say shit about it without blowing his misogynistic identities he hides behind narcissism 🫶🏻😇

VIRGINIA MY HOME SWEET HOME I WANNA GIVE YOU A KISS

taking headshots for my mom’s coworkers. which also means batch making some content for tiktok bc i both left the house and did my makeup and the last time both those things happened is unknown to me.

exvangelical girlhood is blasting “the black dog” and screaming “i hope it’s shitty in the black dog” as you drive by the church that tore your heart out when you were at your most earnest and sure.

notice the general mood of the timeline? how everyone is in a good mood and there’s a lot less misery and dooming? how there’s a lot of “we’re going to beat these assholes”? anyway that’s why these events are important

i think that one of the reasons why taylor’s newest album was so hotly contested is bc no one knows how to chill out anymore. i implied that part of all too well could also describe john mayer in a tiktok and i am being vilified in the town square.

this is an article i wrote that i’m really proud of and i put a lot of work into it and careful thought and i have nowhere with an audience to share it. so it would be cool if you read it!

it took christians two years and an authoritarian president to finally admit we shouldn’t unilaterally back israel. it wasn’t the genocide we’ve watched live or the belief in the basic humanity of all people - they just finally realized this israel and biblical israel are different.

listen. i just need taylor to not tour this album, ok? bc from when she was an opener act singing “tim mcgraw” & “picture to burn” to the Eras Tour - my tradition has been to go with my dad i already had to endure “vigilante shit” live with him. i cannot do “wood”. i just can’t

some quotes (mild spoilers) from the book i’m being attacked for reading by keyboard warriors on tiktok. like. PLEASE. be fucking serious.

being canceled on tiktok for saying supporting a queer author of color is not transphobic simply bc her newly published book was harry potter fanfic once upon a time. i am not long for social media i fear…bc WHAT.

it is october 1st which means i will once again be going through this immaculate list of horror films provided by @masmus.bsky.social i asked him last year what he would recommend for someone who grew up without being allowed horror flicks. as this is the 2nd year, it is now established tradition

something no one talks about is the crippling anxiety of relying on your parents as an adult and listening to them plan retirement and knowing that they won’t be around forever and also they can’t retire as soon as they want because of you. i should be prepping an in-law suit. not extending work

my brother didn’t even wish me a happy birthday as he left for work this evening and i spent all day alone and my mom came home and told me not to be a bitch 😇 what a great day !!!!

i hate how cruel the people who abused me were on my birthday. the intentional torture they’d inflict by telling my friends they had plans with me for my birthday. but not making plans. so that i was left alone. my birthday is one of my least favorite days bc i am on edge so much.

my birthday is tomorrow and i am cripplingly depressed at the state of my life and my health. what a time to be alive.

my birthday is tomorrow. after going on a cruise i did not expect my parents to do anything extra. i know that was expensive and im grateful i got to go. but i figured we’d still go out to dinner - me and them. and then have cake this weekend with my siblings. but it’s “not a good week”

i’ve had this half drafted for about a week but it took a tweet from a friend to give my mind that creative push to get it finished off. and then i bought internet on a cruise to send it. read it here:

going through some extensive medical testing currently - haven’t said much bc honestly it’s overwhelming and i feel miserable. anyways. thanks to my dad for these moments of levity in the hard stuff 😂😂

i think mostly right now i am deeply fearful that an already extremist group of people has become more radicalized because of this and that our country has moved from a crumbling democracy to a crumbled one.

it is worth noting that, in addition to gun control, speaking hatred breeds hatred. divisive rhetoric breeds division. and violence is less likely to fester where there is space for questions and disagreements.

gun violence is still gun violence & our advocacy for gun control is null and void when we don’t call for it even when the side who supports guns is the one harmed. i’ve got nothing good to say about charlie kirk. but i will say, once again, gun control could have prevented this. enough is enough

my food stamps got stolen. my doctor canceled my appointment right as i turned onto the street of his office. i’m in one of the biggest autoimmune flares ive ever had. i can’t even dream of getting a job rn and i have no way to make money. if i didnt have my parents id be homeless…

FOOD STAMP HELP NEEDED: hey friends. i need help. i’ve spent today using every resource available to me & the result was basically “you are shit out of luck” my food stamp account was compromised. my $$ for this month is gone typically i get $292/mo. i was only able to spend $50 before the hack

FOOD STAMP HELP NEEDED: hey friends. i need help. i’ve spent today using every resource available to me & the result was basically “you are shit out of luck” my food stamp account was compromised. my $$ for this month is gone typically i get $292/mo. i was only able to spend $50 before the hack

if my mom says one more time “sometimes i hate how much you have to struggle” when i talk about my chronic illness im going to scream. like. it’s MY struggle. feel how i feel about it or feel quietly.

james dobson is dead which is a great day for the most annoying christians you know to posture themselves as people who “wish him more peace than he gave” and other grace and dignity bullshit. i’m here to tell you it’s fine to be happy. the world is free of an abuser.

i fear that i have found my calling and it is….tiktok i know. i know. i’m as annoyed with myself as you are. but this is the best i’ve ever done with content and engagement and going viral. i’m going to be insufferable about it.

as important as it is for scripture to not be taken out of context and misapplied - i would say the same is true of quotes from classic literature. one of my favorites comes from Moby Dick “i know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, i’ll go to it laughing”

oh the IG filter is going to dominate my life.

once again here to confirm that i am 99.8% straight - that .2% is taylor alison swift.

i’m going to be so real with y’all. i’m beat down and discouraged. there’s a book that is $20 that i have wanted for months. i’m doing everything i can to try and make money. applying for jobs. i even tried target again and they said no 😭😭😭

she’s moving on from the manuscript of tortured poets into the life of a showgirl !!!!!

TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT YOU BEAUTIFUL, HEALED, AND CONFIDENT QUEEEENNNNNNNNNNN this is going to be the most watched podcast episode in history.