I am the April fool. Friday 5x5.

Thought the days were getting easier. They are not

Waiting on my burger

March 2025 has been one of the worst months of my life and has likely altered me forever. I hope to never experience anything like it ever again but I know probably will. Thank god for music that makes me cry or scream. For music in general. 10x10 because it’s that serious

Heartbreak so painful I’m thinking about moving somewhere rural

PB+J for breakfast

Feeling things Friday. 5x5.

On repeat while I sob uncontrollably

I wonder if you’re still the same or if you are just adding insult to injury. Did it kill you like it killed me? A picture perfect portrait of my pain and suffering But thanks to her I am who I am I know I’ll never see her ever again

Paths forward. Winter 2024-2025. More on my instagram

Legitimately leveling new single from John Galm

I wake up and immediately feel like I’m having a panic attack every day. I am in the most terrifying, painful part of my life and it doesn’t feel like it’s going to end ever

Still Crazy After All These Years by Paul Simon in my ears. Tears in my eyes. Pain in my heart.

Woman on the street asked me what I was reading as I was going from the laundromat to the coffee shop with my book. “The Power Broker, it’s a sort of biography about Robert Moses.” She had no idea who he was. I know I’m a dork I just figured people knew about Bob Moses

Reading about Robert Moses is the only thing that’s calming me down lately

Really sad week. 5x5.

That new John Galm single is making me sob like an idiot

Trying to save my relationship will either be the thing that kills me or something that supplies me massive amounts of clarity about what the rest of my life looks like

No. It’s cool. I’m just sobbing while listening to Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate)

I’m so fucking sad every day. I just want to fix things

Hollowed out

One of those days where it feels like too much to even get out of bed

It’s been one of the worst weeks of my life. 5x5.

I should probably eat something for the first time in like 36 hours

I’ve never been so sad and anxious

In the past 5 days I have been rejected from grad school, dumped, and lost my job. I am at the end of my rope

lol I just lost my job

Everyone knows everything about being alone. But. I. Still. Don’t.

I was flying to the moon Whenever you were around You were slinging black holes And I got lost in the sound Not that you'd ever understand But if you wanted to know You could make me You could break me You choose to waste me The only love I'll ever know

I’m a wreck

Two year long relationship just ended because they got the job offer they wanted so they broke up with me. I’m in shambles. Idk man

Listening to Mineral and making pasta dinner

I’m tired and listening to hockey podcasts in bed

We did it boys

Michael Cera Palin ending LP1 with a powerhouse of a nearly 11 minute long song. Just a fucking masterclass

I just woke up. Happy 5x5 Friday

I’m gonna buy a pack of cigs tomorrow and go to the Bronx to look at the stone structures the New York Central Railroad left in Van Cortlandt Park in 1905 so they could see what type of granite would hold up best when they built grand central

Day took a really bad turn towards the end so I walked home in the rain for emphasis

Okay. That new Downward album is really good. Especially this song (thanks to everybody who posted about it)

Trying not to forget my leftovers when I leave work today

Today is my Friday. I’m going to drink too much coffee and pester all my coworkers

I can’t see a future that’s better than today and today is already really bad

Listening to the album Clarity by the band Jimmy Eat World for the first time. It is good and I like it

I am writing these posts in an attempt to impress you

One thing about me is I will be wearing a short sleeve shirt over a long sleeve shirt for the entire winter (photo of me from crit last night pulled from instagram)

Whenever I put all my stuff on a chair this time of year I feel like I’m staring at myself when I look over. Jacket and hoodie and bag, no limbs required. Everybody can sit on me

March calendar is up. I’m used to it getting warm around this time of year as somebody who grew up in the southeast. It is not warm at this time of year in the northeast

Trying to think of something to post that is not complaining but, boy howdy, it is Monday morning, huh?

February grid is very telling. 5x5.

Reposting grid because it was pulling from the wrong data for this week and I refuse to be misrepresented musically. Happy 5x5 redo