Missing someone 🥺

Oh. So i wasnt imagining it

Deadass wasnt gaining weight at 3200 cals per day 🥀 so i coped that i could get away with 3500-4000 calories a day and now im fat, shouldve upped to 3500 max.

Chubby guys are so cute 😋😩

The goober effect has ended 🫡

My abs look so weird now that i have love handles again from bulking 🤣😭

Eating healthy is something to be proud of 💀 but dear god, seasoning and sauces aren't alot of calories. Some people out here are really eating boiled vegetables, egg and chicken 😭

There's this high for the first 12 hours because of how thoughtful and caring people can be during birthdays, then the next 12 hours are just... let it end I'm an introvert without alcohol😭🪫

These love handles are not fun, I should have made sure I was at real 15% bodyfat or lower before bulking 😭

So toxic that so many people felt the need to make unwanted comments(sometimes shade) on my weightloss that I'm losing too much, then so many are suddenly nice now that I'm bulking 🤷 People typically need to lose weight to build muscle, permabulking is slow progress and unhealthy(if already >25%bf)

Not gaining weight at 3500 calories a day, you're telling me i need to eat more??? 😂

Tired of eating 🫨

And now it's 36 flat. I guess I need to eat 3200~3400 daily 😨

Coach said I have to stop doing powerlifting because the fatigue is messing with hypertrophy. I--- okay. 😔

Yun na yon? 🥱😂 Really not into abs lmao

I'm supposed to be on a bulk at 3k calories per day but somehow my waistline went from 37 to 36.5 😂😭

Hedonistic adaptation 🫡

Instant 3kg water weight gain at the start of this bulk. Going from 200 grams carbs to 350 grams makes such a difference 😮‍💨

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Knee injury healed, can finally do squats again 🥺

Nevermind, eating is fun 😌

Weighed in at 190~ lbs at both pics 😮‍💨

How the fuck do i eat 3000 calories a day??? 😭💀

I want to have abs for the sake of having abs, as a marker of fitness. No I don't like how it looks I prefer muscle-bear body types. 😮‍💨

What do you mean free hevy can only save 4 workouts??? 😭 going back to jefit, sakto may redesign

It's crazy how fat loss isn't linear because I deadass suddenly lost a ton of weight *after* semi bingeing in Boracay 😩

So injury prone lately 😭

Sense of hearing has been so sharp lately... could this be from weight loss..? 😭

Been at a deficit of 1lb/week weight loss and upping to 2 lbs/week backfired, so weak 😩 giving up on reaching my goals by september... maybe i can get my strength back by going for 1lb/week

Today's realization is I'm no longer fat, just chubby. 😌 And I'll stop being chubby too once I reach my cutting goal.

Face thinned out significantly from 94.6 -> 93 kg 😩 but i have to keep going

This cut is killing my bench press 😭

Leg day = RPE 10 😭

Wishlist: 4pack/6pack - 50% there??? V taper - 50% there???? Round Pecs - gonna work on it during my bulk 🥴

Okay it is back to 70~85, maybe because i stopped doing cardio religiously 🫠

RHR went from 70~85 to 60~70 🥹 i feel so healthy

Looks like I can't lean down lower than 95kg, the loose skin is very telling. 🫩 will bulk to 100kg to gain muscle then cut down back after, with the loose skin filled out(hopefully) i guess.

Very near the 95kg mark, and I'm finally feeling comfortable in my body. I think my comfortable weight is 85~95kg and I'll play around that weight when trying to cut and bulk 😬 Side note... when lying down and flexing i can touch my abdominal muscles 😂🥴

Ate macadamia nuts, now i have a mild gallbladder attack 😬

Just one... 🤪

Deja vu 🥴

Achievement unlocked: my boyfriend's shirts fit me now 😩 i can fit into Large sizes, albeit a bit tight on the upper body

Random thought but rejection is such a strong motivator for me 🫩😩

Thanks for noticing im at the gym every single day AF 😭

Not sure what's worse, being told not to lose weight or being told I'm so hot now after leaning up 😂😭

Video games progressively getting less and less fun 🫩 gonna buy what games I REALLY wanna play this current gen and probably gonna call it quits afterwards.

Losing weight has done so much good for me 🥹 can't wait to reach my fitness goals~

Losing myself 😭

All-consuming 🥹