there was a girl at our anti-pride protest wearing a t-shirt with Sam and Dean's mugshots. I have several theories: 1) it was an "I was kidnapped" situation 2) she implied that gays should be jailed 3) Sam and Dean promote traditional family values (incest) and she's got a point

I'm starting to realize that I should use emojis more, especially the laughter ones, because my Eastern European sense of humor often needs to be pointed out explicitly or people start thinking I'm in a depressive episode. laughing emoji.

the person who left thirty-six kudos on my wincest fics in one day, if you are by any chance reading this, please know that your heroic feat was noticed, appreciated, screamed about, gushed over, favorited, printscreened, and stored in the most sacred chamber of my heart.

gone over all my 115 wincest fic projects and only managed to mark 9 of them as fics I probably won't spend time on, but not because I don't want to write them, simply because there won't be any audience for them. no one will remember what wincest is, and I'll still be writing.

been having some really hard time re writing for the last month. edited 20k words today and am really disappointed in the quality. been skipping writing a lot. not blocked per se, just don't know why bother. (hugs, nice words, kicks in the butt will be appreciated.)

❤️A Portrait of a Brother as a Hot Dude💙 ~17k, season 13 #wincest, explicit, getting together, case fic, obliviously pining Dean Winchester, an ode to Sam’s face Chapter 1/3. Speculation archiveofourown.org/works/867233...

got myself the perfect queer mood t-shirt and am planning to wear it everywhere (especially to work meetings).

I have discovered a Stanford paper "Slang for Penis and Testicles" and I'm wondering if Sam was inspired to write it by Dean's vocabulary during all their phone sex calls (web.stanford.edu/~eckert/PDF/...)

took mom, an Arctic aviation meteorologist, to see Pressure, a gripping true story movie with Andrew Scott about a WWII meteorologist who has to make a forecast for D-Day, and she absolutely loved it, no complaints. (I loved it, too, do recommend.)

❤️Lazy Boys💙 ~5k, season 13 #wincest, explicit, Scoobynatural coda, brothers with benefits, porn with banter archiveofourown.org/works/86245446

listening to a Ukrainian video lecture on Russian imperialism where the lecturer gets distracted by the sound of Russian missiles exploding outside, after which he just continues the lecture. peak Ukrainian experience.

working on transforming Cavafy's Waiting for the Barbarians into a silly tongue-in-cheek thing about gayness riffing off the movie The Barbarians (1987), which is very bad, very hilarious, and features a twincest kiss. (that's what I mean when I say my poetry is unpublishable.)

I have three fic WIPs with a bunch of fic outlines in active development, but I kinda want to focus on my poetry right now, even though it’s hopelessly unpublishable, so it feels like a waste of time, and it will disrupt my routine. sad emoji.

going over my rewatch notes for 04x01, and there's everything about Sam and Dean's interactions but not a single word about Castiel. someone's focus is very, uh, focused.

my app with affirmations isn’t really designed for Ukrainians 😅

two am, almost non-stop explosions for an hour now. *in the Empty’s voice* I just want to sleep.

shared a wincest fic concept with my friend and they said that it comes from the same place as my more unhinged kylux stories (such as the MC fucking his breakfast, fluff with an eldritch horror, or a romance with a sentient tea kettle). not sure if it was a compliment or not.

#wincest (from my coffee shop AU) Dean’s eyes stay blank throughout, his movements stilted, his mouth never quite curving into a smile. He follows Sam’s lead, and he does what Sam tells him to, and Sam tries to convince himself that he’s just bonding with his brother and not saying goodbye.

every time I try to explain where kylux comes from to my mother, she says "I've only watched that one movie with Cumberbatch." my life is literally this meme.

going over my alpha and beta readers' notes and I'm so absolutely blessed with people who are willing to help me with my writing just out of the goodness of their hearts. fandom is such a special place to be and I'm grateful to both of mine 🖤🧡❤️💙

❤️In Sync💙 ~23k, pre-Stanford #wincest, explicit, underage sex, getting together, oblivious Dean, pining Dean for Wayward Sons Zine Vol.5 Chapter 1/3. The Sun archiveofourown.org/works/849703...

saw this at 3 am and almost vibrated off my bed. I've spent the entire day today outlining a new fic for this, LET'S GOOOOOO KYLUX NATION

very pretty weekly tarot draw today, which, as far as I can see, suggests that I double down on torturing Sam and Dean, while also mothering them a little. so, an ordinary week in the life of a wincest fic writer.

Happy 10 year anniversary to the KBB! I know we took a year off, 2025 was a big anniversary for Kylux, but we're back again in 2026! This year's bang will be a Regular Bang! Where writers submit the prompt and the artist's bid. Sign up here: forms.gle/21xqiLtBmF1m... #kyluxbigbang #kylux

being Ukrainian be like: had a call with coworkers during an air raid alert, and we were reporting who was hearing explosions outside at which moment, so we could trace the trajectory of the enemy drones.

got hooked on the wikipedia app worse than on any social media. just browsing, collecting read lists, then reading them according to the mood/need. very convenient and totally absorbing. expect so much more lore in my SPN fics, lol.

every time I want to say “decompress,” it comes out as “decompose,” which, admittedly, is a more accurate description of what I’m doing after a workday.

I'm on an unplanned break from writing because I decided to sign up for a course on self-editing, but I tell myself that I'm going to become UNSTOPPABLE after I finally figure out how to actually edit my texts and make them better.

apparently, I ordered 70$ worth of snacks from an online store while hiding from the explosions at four am (it’s a lot in UAH). I’m not checking my order because I want to be surprised when I receive the package lol.

half past three am, and we’ve had almost non-stop very loud explosions for at least the last half an hour. good vibes will be appreciated.

#SPN post-12x02 “When she hugged me—” Dean’s voice cracks and he drops it, a big secret that should only be whispered when one’s alone. Sam feels honored to be allowed in the room. “I haven’t been hugged like that in thirty-three years.”

I have 111 wincest projects and 2 wincest WIPs staring at me, but I've started this new kylux fic! I wrote 1k words in half an hour, which is like four times my normal speed, so you can tell I'm very excited about it lol.

revisiting Dean's speech from Trial and Error and going teary-eyed because he did get his perfect ending in the end, but Sam didn't, and it will never not break my heart into tiny little bleeding pieces.

just so you understand the situation: on the train to the trip, I got an ask from a person looking for fics with a specific premise, I didn't know any, but 20 minutes later I had a Bible quote for the title and the main plot twist. a fic writer's brain is a terrifying thing.

I'm back from my work trip! it actually ended up a blast despite my anxiety, and I also have a new Wincest outline to work on. spent the entire day blinking at mom and the walls (not at the same time) and I feel like I'll be good to get back to writing tomorrow. wish me strength!

I’m in the middle of a work trip and I’m very rapidly realizing how pointless and meaningless my life is. I’ve got nothing to say, personally or professionally, and I don’t know how anyone tolerates me.

I’m on a train, and there is a TV screen that shows movies and TV shows trivia questions with three answer options, and one of the questions was “how many seasons does the show Supernatural have?” I literally can’t get away from this fandom.

❤️one candle is enough💙 ~13k, 1988 to 2013 #wincest, getting together, explicit, 5+1 things, Sam’s birthdays archiveofourown.org/works/84150986

I'm in for an extremely stressful week with no opportunity to write for work reasons. wish me perseverance, friends.

I've read three pages and my brain is already building custom lore around a key alchemical text, with betrayal, family issues, and an apocalypse in the true SPN style. someone stop me please.

Sam should have been the King of Hell, the Ruler of Heaven, the Prince of Purgatory, and the Lord of the Empty. just make my boy an omnipotent being like he deserves and I'll be happy.

your vibes and wishes worked, friends!! I got the news early and I am NOT FUCKED! thanks everyone for your kind support!!

husband sent me a whole gorgeous book on the occult specifically for my SPN fic research, so I’ll be gleefully cosplaying Sam on my next vacation 🤓

I'm in the middle of terrible IRL stress where things are out of my hands and I won't know if I'm majorly fucked until next Friday. if you have any nice words to say to me, they will be deeply appreciated.

me: where should I send Sam and Dean for breakfast, so I don't have to describe waffles for the dozenth time me two minutes later: *researching Japanese immigration into Kansas*

I don't want to be without you, brother.

I wish every person in the world to find someone who will punch you, hug you, and cry you into staying alive because they cannot see themself without you, like Sam Winchester does with his brother. forever relationship goals, those two.

Sam should have gotten the Mark of Cain in s11e22 and he should have gone on a righteous killing spree, and Dean should have followed him, hiding the bodies after him. that's my dream season 12 and you will not take it away from me.

#wincest #nsfw It shouldn’t be a shock when Sam drags his tongue over the tip of Dean’s dick, considering, but it brings Dean’s world to a full stop, followed by an earth-splitting crash. Something just got profoundly broken.

had some terrible work-related stress today, decided to skip writing because my brain crashed, watched a movie, and am now building a fic around a quote from it that I want Sam to say to Dean. if it works, there will be more Dark Winchesters coming. in five years or so.