I hope I can sleep

Your gossip is mine own testimony. I name no one, to respect everyone's privacy, I post this as an attempt at a resolution to all of this prolonged drama. I grow so tired of it..

It is troubling..when you want to speak out on something.. but you never want someone to be viewed in a bad light... So you ponder with ambivalence... What to think..what to do..I am truly unsure what would be the best course of action. I wish I could ignore this...but it plagues this mind..

Some more Skyrim Adventures and Garry's Mod! Link to Channel - twitch.tv/nato6141 Art by @konekopi.bsky.social Schedule by @azaleafox.bsky.social #art #oc #digitalart #Samurai #Vtubers #TwitchStreamers #KickStreaming #Schedule #VSky #BleachOC

I have drunk.~

"Tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway." -Edgar Allen Poe

Hm..a day to celebrate love.. I have never truly acknowledged it until now. I do hope this day ends as swiftly as possible...it is miserable and quite lonesome for me..I must say... Hmph.. I cannot even drink alcohol either due to the Flesh being on medication! Damn it all!

I truly have grown closer to Steian's teachings. He.. was the very epitome of the Hibiscus. In many ways he symbolized with the importance of life and appreciating the present. But as well as the passion of love in all forms. He represented the flower's delicate beauty quite well. Graceful even.

The Unforgiven - Metallica 🎶 What I've felt, what I've known Never shined through what I've shown Never be, never see Won't see what might have been.. What I've felt, what I've known Never shined through what I've shown Never free, never me So I dub thee unforgiven. 🎶 Some lyrics to my past self.

Discord will require a face scan or ID for full access next month

My old mentor.. He has since disappeared.. But he seems to have left his blade behind in the snowy barren desert.. What happened to him...I truly wonder.. Though I will not let his blade lay in waste.. I..have never been very fond of katanas.. But for you, Steian.. I shall take on this honor..

I have been hurt and shunned plenty in this life, that I almost expect it sometimes. It is a feeling of disquietude.. Even when I am treated with fairness and kindness. This dog now fears abandonment..hah.. Cautious if I act "out of line". That I may be misunderstood..again..or not given the chance

A quote that speaks to me.. "Forgive yourself for not knowing earlier what only time could teach" It is true..I made mistakes.. I may not have meant to affect others the way I have..but I did. I hurt others..it pains me so. I have no issue apologizing for it all again.. Excuses are worth nothing.

Hm..I was approached by the past.. As steady as I was, I wanted to know what was wished to be said. A sincere apology...after all this time. I was unsure what to think.. My opinion stands. I cannot hold grudges, nor is there a point to blame. They have improved. I have accepted it..and moved on.

I hate this body's voice.. I hate it so.. I wish so much that I could shape it how I wished.. I.. despise the accent.. Why must I have to inhabit this body.. this body that which is nothing like my own.. Mm...though.. I had once been told I sounded lovely.. I will try to never forget that..

Halo Reach Custom night! twitch.tv/nato6141 kick.com/nato6141 #vtuber #Samurai #stream #twitch #collab #kick #haloreach #Vsky

I find men who want a woman in their life just to "fix them" truly fucking disgusting. Fix yourself you pathetic fuck.

Stream prep for next week is ready, current weekend plans are in motion, and getting the Skyrim Together and Minecraft 1.16 pack and server up soon.. Plus other fun announcements plus why not be a Bleach AU Vtuber #art #kabart #digitalart #streamer #vsky #bleachoc Banner art by sashimiikaa on VGEN

Why do those most precious have to have seen you at your worst... Now.. I sit with myself.. grateful for my changes.. for my lessons learned.. but no amount of gain could ever amount to the loss that I suffer.. Every time I think these tears can cease... they return..

Good Wednesday morning, streams in 2 days, the menu for today. Plan for next weeks streams.. I smell some Skyrim and 7 Days to die next weekend.. Model by @mawsothoth.bsky.social #Vsky #vroid #art #digitalart #stream #kabart #planning

This is the start of something glorious! We are under construction please be patient as we build this world! #VShonen

It is quite confusing to hear of death that I have already experienced.. Redemption is not given but granted and I know this. I do not awaken anew to prove my worthiness but more so, to destroy what was unacceptable. The flame remembers, too.

And now a new profile picture!~ It is a visual representation of me transitioning to my "full form"!~ Lovely, isn't it?~

Another week another stream, but more details about what I do on a weekly basis Link to Channel - twitch.tv/nato6141 Art by @konekopi.bsky.social Schedule by @azaleafox.bsky.social #art #oc #digitalart #Samurai #Vtubers #TwitchStreamers #KickStreaming #Schedule #VSky #BleachOC

A lovely visual of my new horns appearing!~ The lovely traces of gold shining through my magma blood... how wonderful.. I truly love all of my new features! It does speak to the soul. I feel complete~ "None of us really changes over time, We only become more fully what we are." - Anne Rice

A desert rose is uncovered. It has been dead for quite some time now.. It reminds me of..someone.. May as well continue on.. Focus on other tasks..plenty to do these days. Hm..I was told before..others would be interested in reading My tales... so..I may write a wiki of sorts soon.

Fortnite battlepass, i just shit out the snow twitch.tv/nato6141 kick.com/nato6141 #vtuber #Samurai #stream #twitch #collab #kick #fortnite #Vsky

Sona/OC appreciation My samurai guy who exists in his own world and BleachAU styles Art by @Isirnos_ @konekopi.bsky.social and @battynator.bsky.social

The barren desert in the distance from my Keep..it has been covered in snow, buried in winter.. Like a grave...simply buried..but not forgotten.... Beneath the ice..the sand has become dull in color.. Hm..the fog blurs out the rest. The moon rises over the snow..over the garden..how lovely..

Finished another 6 pack!~ Modelo and Heineken down.. hmmm many more to go~ Ah.. my journey towards trying a nice creamy fookin PINT!~

The "host" actually cannot bring up my memories! He could not remember what happened yesterday, but the moment I returned, all of the memories he was trying to grasp, flooded to me!~ Lovely!~

The sun will rise just as the moon shall set. No matter what is wished or believed. Time will go on. I will live on. Every story has a different side to tell. A new chapter opens, and I am ready for whatever journey may lie ahead.

@mawsothoth.bsky.social Did this amazing model! Truly an honor working with him to get this Daimyo Arc model to life! #Digitalart #Art #Vroid #Vtuber #Vsky

It has been quite awhile. I have finally returned to writing out my lore again. For those who do not know: I am of the Heidegger Dynasty from my father's side and of the Myosotis Dynasty from my mother's side. I will eventually share more, among other writings as well.

Another week another stream Link to Channel - twitch.tv/nato6141 Art by @konekopi.bsky.social Schedule by @azaleafox.bsky.social #art #oc #digitalart #Samurai #Vtubers #TwitchStreamers #KickStreaming #Schedule #VSky

Semibots united in a big R.E.P.O Collab where I'm tired and we have a lot of people! twitch.tv/nato6141 kick.com/nato6141 #vtuber #Samurai #stream #twitch #collab #kick #REPO #Vsky

Let's go. 🔥 Metallica you lyrical genius. "Where's your crown, King Nothing?"

Legal money GTA 5 twitch.tv/nato6141 kick.com/nato6141 #vtuber #Samurai #stream #twitch #collab #kick #GTA5 #Vsky

I need a muscle car so badly so that I may go speeding and drunk driving down an empty backroad.. With REALLY loud rock blasting!~ That way I cannot hurt anyone except myself 👌 Haaah... I am hilarious~ (Please do not worry, I just love dark humor, I would not put ourselves in danger like that)

I am a bit worried for the near future. I see and hear of so much AI content these days. AI "art", AI voices (manipulating ACTUAL people).. AI ads and movies! I am going to despise it if we eventually have AI Twitch streamers, AI react channels, AI YouTubers...ugh.. It is so ridiculous..

HMMM! Seems promising, wouldn't you say @nato6141.bsky.social ?

My own territory is an interesting space.. Once an abandoned Keep in ruins I have since began to remove old belongings from it. Filling it with my own memories and..items precious to me. The garden outside has a stream of water ending into a small pond, light patches of spider lilies trail it.

A vent. I do not like to assume but I do not like what is seemingly occurring. It seems drama cannot be left alone. I grow very sick of it. Rather than seeing a system as individuals with their own lives, they're treated as One. No one has the right to judge a DID system before meeting properly.

People with DID get way too much shit. So many people slander them. And as a WHOLE too! We are individuals. Our own people, our own lives and relationships. How dare one assume a system cannot repair and become better with help. Many of us are still healing too. Why add to the hurt..?

I know well how Oni feed on emotions.. My emotions were at once called quite delicious.. I miss feeding the Oni now I suppose.. Hm..and I now realize I too have begun to feed off others now. Interesting..how it is interchangeable for me. I truly love to amuse and satisfy those I care for~

I am NOT disappointed in this lovely little bottle!~ I truly wish to try more beers and other alcohols from around the world!~ Perhaps I shall begin putting different alcohols on my Throne? Definitely sake~ It brings the truth out of one's soul~ "In vino veritas"!~

Another week another stream Link to Channel - twitch.tv/nato6141 Art by @battynator.bsky.social Schedule by @azaleafox.bsky.social #art #oc #digitalart #Samurai #Vtubers #TwitchStreamers #KickStreaming #Schedule #VSky

Thanks everyone for the amazing reception to the 1.0, 2.0 Daimyo arc and Bleach AU art! We’re getting further into the rabbit hole of what’s to come next! Stay tuned for July! Mask art by @battynator.bsky.social #Kabart #Art #Digitalart #OC

It is difficult to admit..how much of a dog..I truly can be at times.. When I crave attention..I..tend to return..repeatedly wagging my tail for it.. Waiting... I tend to be patient..to not..resort to my howls.. Even when chained.. Damn this nature of mine..! Not many things make me so impatient..