pensando cómo le voy a decir a mi terapista nuestra próxima cita que me arrepiento de haber sobrevivido el intento sin que me hospitalicen otra vez

wanna have one night where im not crying myself to sleep

Is it obvious i was waiting for this

seated for game awards. Pls reveal ff7 pt3 ive been miserable for weeks i deserve it

cant sleep but laughing cause remembered earlier my therapist was like "im sorry i will send you that psychiatrist list soon so you can get those meds. Really looks like you need the rest" <looking at my huge eyebags

im so exhausted i want to sleep please

my mom keeps repeatedly asking me to get an appointment with the gp because of 2 new white spots i have in my arms girl im trying its almost christmas

going to sleep to stop feeling angry then immediately dreaming abt what made me angry

cannot wait to book that psychiatrist appointment for my medication

actually looking at getting a new turntable but lowk need more storage first. My current set up is not the most convenient/comfortable and i wanna get one that i can reach without having to sit down

distracting myself from feeling deep emptiness and loneliness by listening to my vinyl like my therapist suggested but its not working so also started adding a bunch of new ones in my shopping carts to buy at some point and lowk reached flow state

my therapist telling me that being constantly abused and eventually abandoned by my father left deep wounds and pain that i need to stop punishing myself for having bc punishing myself wont change the fact that it happened. Been thinking abt this all week

my chest is killing me fmlll

ere our curtain falls #ffxiv #FFXIVart

>tries to drink water after 3 billion years >no water in the fridge

i lit hate my brain ohh my god shut up shut up

i keep forgetting abt daylight savings i went outside and its pitch black at 5 pmrjej

stepdad already yelling. Not even 12 yet

me after i take 17 benadryl and start seeing the hat man

my biggest flex is beating pre nerf consort radahn

my father texted me for my bday and im choosing to ignore it

doing anything but msq

MWAH! 💋 #hualian #tgcf #huacheng ##xielian

finished watching house with vane and started watching masterchef italy and im having the time of my life

lit have only killed 2 of the yotei six bc i keep exploring instead of doing msqbfbf

come on, darling let me steal this moment from you now oh, come on, angel come on, come on, darling let's exchange the experience #tgcf #huacheng #hualian #wuming

so not excited to turn 21 god please strike me down and kill me

Spear of the Impaler #ELDENRING #Art

love having a fight with my stepdad and getting reminded why i dont like being with my family 🤣

solace, temperance, virtue, ascension #FFXVI #FF16 #dionlesage pose ref from @trueref.bsky.social !

your highness, you really will be the death of me #TGCF #hualian #art

trip v soon..

my memory so bad for everything except when my brain feels the need to remind me of stuff i dont wanna remember. Bc sometimes im just chilling and my brain's like hey so do you remember when your dad called you a stupid bitch (you were like 6 btw) and im like oh😀

been having heartburn every day for weeks now and it keeps waking me up

七夕快乐🌌🫶 #TGCF

well its ok nothing matters anymore bc if i survive this depressive episode ill go back to not feeling anything again

everytime i look at my cat i wonder if she'd miss me

2B has been my warmup victim lately my beloved #nierautomata #nier #2B

kelp forests are one of my favorite habitats!! i have been watching a million documentaries about them so naturally, i had to draw one.

this guy

genuinely amazing how my dad managed to schedule a text for now. Incredibly shitty timing

cried so much last night my eyes are so swollen

show me a garden that's bursting into life #FFXIV #ffxivart #art #wolemet #azemet

花怜ﾁｭｯﾁｭ３秒前 #TGCF #天官賜福

the way i really hate feeling "okay" for a few days because the crash after that is genuinely so bad