calling that dude that you said that you hated...wasted

you've got innocent intentions and i'm so in my head

make me the only one who has you

so when you go, i'm still biting my nails like you're biting my lip, and i swear that it's real

it's not that i'm ungrateful or that i want something better, all i really want is to be heard

all on me like the smell of smoke, you let it linger

close my eyes, the truth but modified, know it's not real life, but i can barely tell

i'll hold your hair and now everybody's staring, but i don't care

and when i wake up in the morning, know i'm better off alone, but you know just how to remind me of a time before the push and pull

'til suddenly we're sitting on the floor, the smell of smoke, watch you perform

i'm pretty sure i was only crying 'cause i was drunk, at a party where i didn't really know anyone

you just like the way i feel, stuck in the palm of your hand

i tend to find the messiest of phrasing, convoluting or diluting what i feel

baby, light me up and drag me 'til there's nothing left

i'm here for the drama, i can't get enough

carolina honey, can you tell me what to call you?

i won't waste my time on being practical

fog it up, could it get any clearer?

i thought i let you go

make me-

so would you mind if i put it quite plainly? and i asked you to touch me tonight

and i wish you, wish you would stay up a little later just to linger by my side, effortlessly recite things that i can never write

i would never let you go

(gotta have a good time, then cut ties, on with my life)

i'll be there with ya

and we both got different places that we should be

even when my heart beats racing and i feel a mile away, and i don't know what to say to you

know what you are, babe, can you see right through me too?

want you to waste a couple years on thinking i'm the one just to wind you up for the sucker punch

i packed my best new clothes and my beat-up shoes

the right side of my face, it could use some reworking

(i'm just kidding, ha-ha)

i can handle this, i can handle this

we won't waste our time on being practical

tell me why it feels like i can never get it right (i can never get it right)

busy finding reasons not to go

so until you find a better fit, i'm standing here just for the hell of it

i'd do the rest, but it's in the context

we don't make excuses for mediocre men

i took the high road

i know you feel me in every first-date drunken kiss

this kind of trouble only happens late, like running from the cops the first time i got wasted

consider me a hedonist at heart

baby, i'm a drunk crier

bonfire of all your things, and i'll forget where it went wrong, start a thread with all my friends and say we ride at dawn, dye my hair a darker shade, call you the devil's spawn

with your alchemical lips, i am melting into this

all the leather in the world won't make me a harder girl

you said you're always gonna trust me, i couldn't hold it in my brain

but if you promise that you'll think of me when you're alone, i'd capsize the boat and lean into your undertow

this isn't how i thought it'd be