It’s yellow tonight.

Viewed a 500 square foot apartment today, that costs more than the one I'm losing on April 1st. I don't believe anyone who says they are happy in that amount of room.

Back on my broadcast director shit.

2024 off to a start.

No adult human has ever gracefully dismounted from an air mattress with any amount of dignity left intact. Cannot be done.

2am thought: holy fuck i hate commuting into downtown so fucking much. this shit eats, on average 90 to 120 minutes of my day. jesus christ i need a remote job again.

Sat in the director's chair for the first time in over 2 years and holy shit i missed directing TV so much god dammit. I want my next studio to let me build and run broadcasts on the regular. Just so much fun and energy.

Waking up at 4am for work: "Sir, a second snooze has hit the alarm."

It had been 830 days since I last woke up before 4am to put on a TV show. Shit.

Good morning.

I'm still unemployed, so this is now a Starfield photography account.

Back on that broadcast shit

I played about 40 hours of Baldur's Gate 3 in the first 3 days of release. Since then, I've been experiencing a very unfortunate side effect - all my dreams are complicated, dramatic, intense affairs which have me waking up at odd hours in a cold sweat. Please god make it stop.

This might just sum up my job search better than anything else can.

Intellectually, I know the industry is a mess right now, especially in Vancouver. But, it's really hard to not take every rejection as "you're not good enough." This has been a really bad month for my mental health. I wish I knew what to do differently.

I went to the end of the world and also met a bird.