As someone whose community is mostly lurkers. This new update of making it so lurkers no longer count really hurts my motivation. I can't imagine how much damage this has already caused in terms of streamers giving up or leaving. Really feels like I'm watching the death of Twitch in real time.

Unironnically got screamed at by my entire family over including loss in a letter I wrote. Like genuine actual anger. Today has been a very strange day.

Been so stressed I've been having breakdowns repeatedly. A few moments ago, I stepped in a puddle of my roommate's urine and honestly I can't even remember what was stressing me because of the sheer confusion. Why was there so much piss? Who left it? WHY? Flashbanged me into a better headspace.

Man, we had working hot water for like 4 days before it broke. Taking cold showers sucks lol.

My dreams have Pixar movie pacing and humor. Holy shit my dreams can genuinely be so funny.

Jump Space is kinda a dream game tbh. It has the gameplay of Railjack with the on foot combat I’ve always wanted, and it even has BOSCO and a sketchy AI. Multi-crew space dogfighting is a genre that never gets to eat and now we get a FEAST!?

So a guy stalked me back to my apartment uhhhh. Fucked off the second he saw a bunch of stoners in the stairwell. Thank you stoners LOL.

Post something random or have an awful October.

I think the oddest thing about moving to my apartment is equal parts elevation distance and humidity. The air feels thicker here. Like it's noticeably harder to breathe. Though, to be fair, the AQI here is close to 6x what it typically is. Wildfires man.

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY MOVED IN TO MY NEW APARTMENT!

People can’t drive in my area. The second we’re on a tight schedule, suddenly everybody is driving the speed limit and properly. I am watching divine intervention. Today, nobody shall crash their car or spontaneously combust. Nature (American highways) is beautiful.

I’m so excited to be in my new apartment so I can sing again!

I hate getting shots because despite routinely doing stuff that’s waaaaay more painful, my body HATES needles. Asked Alice why she seemed so fine with it since I know she isn’t a fan either and she just looked at me and said: “Yes, but I like dying less, so that’s that.” And yeah fair smghandjsa

I just got AI flagged as a child and asked me to provide a ID and a credit card. On my account I verified with an ID. And bought premium on My brother in Christ, I literally had to confirm I was an adult months ago when I made the damn account. You LITERALLY have my credit card. Fucking AI.

That's right, my darlings. Tuesday is the start of the Shantae Series Mermathon. Where I marathon the Shantae games in release order leading to a blind playthrough of the new game!! There will be prizes and goals for supporting me while I indulge in games I love!!

Kindred does amazing work and the coolest piece of free will is realizing you can just pay a guy to make you music you’ve always wanted. Kindred is a very payable guy. I mean look at him! He may be a flying bowling ball, but he got those studio headphones tho.

After wearing my old broken case down to nothing (even though it totally still works), I FINALLY (after being told by everyone for over a year) put on the new not broken case I was gifted like…. 15 months ago. I am absolutely a “if it works, I will not throw it out” girl.

AAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU ALL FOR THE OVERWHELMING LOVE AND SUPPORT TONIGHT!

OFFICIALLY REACHED GAMER HOURS WITH VTUBE STUDIO

So I just got the WIP for something huge I’m prepping for and I genuinely cannot even begin to explain how hard it’s gonna be to keep hush hush about it. It caught me so off guard I actually went “holy shit” out loud. Y’all. This is gonna be so fucking awesome

Alternate title: Shit the office puppygirl emails HR about.

I get that it’s nice to have dental, but why not mental care as part of my benefits package. If I’m going to work 40 hours a week, I need someone who will occasionally call me a good girl and give me little candies.

If my hours in VRChat ever exceed my hours in VTube studio, I guess I'll have to accept fate and become a VR streamer, build a VR harem, and spend $14,000 on the most luxury e-sex suite imaginable. Or I'll become a furry. Both are possible I guess.

Officially have some cool stuff for this October and December and maaaaaaan it's gonna be hard to not prematurely leak it out of excitement.

Google can never seem to figure out how to advertise to me and I'm pretty sure it's because its AI sees my browsing behavior as a form of inhuman psychological warfare.

Fundraiser Commission #2: This one is for @puddiwhop.bsky.social of her sona and a funny lil sandworm the likes of which not even God has seen (/ref). Thanks again for donating, Puddi! #artiguess #charity #fundraiser #commissions #cartoonists #illustration #lgbtqartists

Just a reminder that there are 2 rules on the internet. 1. Do not admit to a crime. 2. Do not make threats aimed at public officials or especially the government. People have been thrown into our concentration camp in El Salvador for less. Do not give the regime an excuse to make you join them.

Sisyphus ain't got shit on me. He has his stupid fucking stupid dumb dumb rock and I just spent 3 hours trying to figure out why rotation deformers don't work.

Hey I know I said the downside of VR exercise is it’s bad at like training like 1 part of your body like a dedicated gym experience would do; but apparently the entire body at once counts as “1 part” and pistol whip has brought Icarus to make fun of my hubris. My body is a moist brick. Mmm. Brick

Hacking all of the government owned surveillance drone birds to mine crypto so I can say “federally funded” on my doodoo shit coin scam page.

Shout out to the guy who (after spending like 30 golden berries to keep me from taking a gym), called up a van of people to stalk me and reinforce the gym. Pokémon GO players are wild LOL.

She knows what you did.

AAAAAAA SHE'S READY FOR RIGGING! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR HANGING OUT WITH US AS WE PUSHED OUT A QUICK LITTLE MODEL TEST. THIS IS PETAL. SHE'LL BE PLAYING PRESSURE AND SUBNAUTICA WHEN THE MODEL IS DONE. WILL UPDATE YOU ALL! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Me: *Finds somewhat alarming wound on the body. No pain whatsoever* Me: Oh. Alice, you’re up. Alice: This will hurt. Me: wha? Alice, immediately grabbing an alcohol wipe: You’re going to sit there, hug your stuffie, regret existence, and make a passive aggressive post on Bluesky. Me: oh-

Biggest missed opportunity was not incorporating a leotard or bunnysuit into Alice's model.

"Hey Queenie, I have so many points but no redeems to spend themon" they said. ":3" I replied, preparing untold levels of bullshit. That's right. I know how to use MixItUp properly now.

I AM HOME!

Can’t wait to get home and return to working on live2d stuff! Got 2 emotes approaching completion and I’m almost done with Faith’s model! Gonna be a lot of rigging, but it’ll be extremely exciting.

Still thinking about the cashier who looked at my fallout shirt and went “I could never play fallout. I need a game with more realism” and proceeded to rant about some high fantasy game for like 3 minutes while reminding us how much he hates fallout LOL.

I just realized those two (entirely unrelated) posters look WILD back to back

Why be sad when you can just be puppy?

Not Bluesky randomly recommending me a LOT of hypnosis content all at once like oop-

Very drunk and very fluffy

Very calming day

Went out to order some Panera with family. May have almost accidentally input “Queenie” as my name.

Woke up this morning and the first thought in my head is: “Scary lizard facts to fall asleep to. Every minute you spent resting is one they’re getting closer”

Visiting relatives has been going well. This is George. He runs a chiropractor clinic and is wanted in 7 states.

The family member who I’m helping move just looked me in the eye, dumped my suitcase full of clothing on the floor, and got mad at me for immediately being like “but why did you need to do that?”. OH and then they walked away. Free will check? I guess? At least I have some REALLY good apples~!

After almost 16 hours on the road, I can finally rest.

Just got flashbanged by someone’s fucking lambo with a hentai decal. Not what I expected to see today.