Finished editing the first novel on Monday in a moment 6 years in the making. Now what do I do with it? Wait, I'm supposed to show it to people? What fucking heresy is this? But seriously I'll be looking at the best way to get it out in the world for the 3 people that might want it. #writers #novel

The US Marine Corps' 250th birthday is Nov 10 so the Toys for Tots drive starts early in The Roost with a goal of $250. Care for yourselves 1st but, if you are able, some kids' holidays will be brighter this year if we meet our goal. For my Marine siblings from Tun Tavern to the future, Semper Fi.

I've achieved a few goals in my life but this is the only one I've doubled up on.

I just realized the month is almost over and I didn't make a happy pride post so here goes nothin. Happy Pride peeps. Your existence is the best victory you could have. Instead of posting all the different flags, this is one i created that encapsulates my identities as a polyamorous trans lesbian.

As the 4th of July gets closer in the US please check who you are using fireworks around. I used to get yard signs from the local VA warning the neighborhood that I dont do well with explosions but they dont give those out anymore around here. Please be aware your fun might just be someones hell.

I find myself in an interesting intersection. I really want to be able to wear the clothes I want. But I also dont want to be that mom that seems to be trying to dress like her teenage daughter. Like my daughter doesnt have a "style" yet, she finds clothes boring, but I still have this inborn fear.

Been out for a bit. Haven't felt stable but I am going to try streaming again this week. Also what have I missed? Happy Pride. Punch Nazis. Ask experts before having opinions. 6 x/y combinations, Punch Nazis, 3 sexes not guaranteed by x/y combos, infinite genders. Punch Nazis one more time. 💜

I know I haven't been streaming regularly lately so sorry about that. These next 2 weeks will probably be more of the same as this is a really hard time of the year for me. I'll be around when I'm feeling stable enough to be social.💜

I normally don't like receiving things from others but the lovely wives of mine have helped me improve, also the world is... yeah so every bit helps. If you want to show support without Twitch taking a cut there is now a Kofi for donations. Please take care of yourselves first. ko-fi.com/rilaraven

It's good to know that not only do i need my name change, and all id documents updated. Which will already cost 500-1000 usd to have a shot of getting back into the US after visiting wives but now I also need a burner cell too. 6 months from now I'll need a donkey and 5 dubloons on top of that.

I learned NaNoWriMo is officially dead as they filed bankruptcy. While i wont give my opinion as I know the writing and vtuber communities operate in much the same way. I will say that I am sad to see it go as it did inspire many, including myself, to try something they didnt think they could do.

Does everyone have thier high visibility jackets ready for Monday? I'm grabbing mine from storage tonight so I just wanted to make sure yall were ready too.

A judge has ruled that trans servicemembers can continue to serve. Which is as it should be but a line really stood out to me "transgender persons can have the warrior ethos". I would argue that we are warriors already. By the very nature of our existance in this world and these societies...

The wives have informed me it is my Phoenix Day. While I don't normally celebrate things pertaining to me I also think it is important to recognize little victories at this point in history. So heres to one year of successful hrt.

Ya girl finally got a reference sheet. Thanks to my wonderful wives and @laapplepie.bsky.social who absolutely cooked.

At this point if you are ever questioned about the specifics of people around you and your response is anything other than "There is no *insert minority* in Ba Sing Se" you are part of the problem.

Estrogen is wild with the emotional swings this week. Yesterday I was kinda a mopey mess for a while there and today I have a feral desire to use both my wives as experimental subjects to prove that I could, in fact, impregnate a transfem. And the entire time ive been craving cold cans of beefaroni.

So... realized an... interesting factoid. It has been 2 weeks since the beginning of the gates of hell here in the US. It has also been 2 weeks since my boobs have started being sore regularly and growth was noticed. By this logic ya girl gonna have some h-cups by the end of this.

Alright... who did it... I promise I wont bite🤣

Sorry for the lack of streaming lately, have not been in a stable state as of late, but I'm feeling much better today and planning on streaming at some point this weekend.

As of tomorrow the attacks officially begin. By executive order all federal agencies in the US will be required to only recognized birth sex and ignore gender as the slide into anti-science and fascism accelerates per the republican plan. If you can please make sure you have a support system...

If you see this, post your flags. Here are my 3 and one that I put together that combines the 3 into one Polytransbian flag.

9: Most underrated part of vtubing? The freedom. Not everyone needs that freedom for the same reason. Expressing the gender I identify with was huge. Others need that freedom for safety reasons, self confidence reasons, or just that they dont want to show fleshy face.

Ive been going back and forth about streaming on adult platforms, not because I want to make lewder content (although it is a long term goal to have the confidence to do that) but only because I want to stream my TCG Card shop and im not allowed to do that on twitch.

8: Want to stream but havent? A main goal was to be able to do some educational content. I did one stream but I didn't really like how it turned out so I stopped in the middle of making the 2nd one. I want to do one on polyamory next to help others understand and help with misinformation.

7: Dream collab and why. I dont really have one. I dont think I have the personality to hold a one on one collab. However, I do want to run dnd sessions for invited groups on stream at some point. I had a literal dream once of running a session for the vshojo crew even though I know none of them.

My goal for 2025 is slightly different than last year. 2024 goal: Make it to 2025 2025 goal: Make it to 2026 but with boobs.

What if... and hear me out... you all go listen to it without me saying anything. Then do it again cause I said so.

If you are going to set off fireworks for new years, or in general, please check ensure in the area everyone is ok. It has been years since anyone has cared about my "vet lives here please no fireworks in the vicinity" signs and every holiday is a rough time for me and others like me.

Guess I'll but this back out there. I'll pick up where we left of at #7 if anyone wants to know more.

I know its ridiculously unlikely to happen but if anyone sees art of me or I show up in a clip compilation or something let me know. Call it a morbid curiosity.

Btw. New emotes from NIkendesy on Fiverr. Unfortunately I don't have enough follower slots so one or two are gonna be in the sub tier.

Im gonna say the quiet part out loud. It is one of humanity's great achievements that in 200 years we have gone from "Forgive me father for I have sinned" to "I'm sowwy mommy I've been nauwty uWu teehee".

Looking at legally murdering and birthing myself and I have found a: really long process b: really expensive process c: requires me to publicly announce myself and invite anyone who wants to a public hearing to tell a judge why i shouldn't be allowed to exist so... super looking forward to that.

Sorry I haven't streamed this week. Just generally low energy on top of being in office for work. I will be back next week and coming back to doing writing streams as well. Also some new emotes are incoming at some point so yeay.

My steam recap tells me two things. One, I love my wives so much that even Steam noticed. Two, I finished 0 games this year...

Can I just be like done with stuff. I had 9 days of doing nothing but living and loving with the wives and it was bliss. And now I'm realizing just how fucking tired everything makes me. Can I just like not please.

Ah yes. I am a victim of that thoroughly trans urge to exist... if that makes you unhappy then fuck off. Once you get to where you fucked off to, fuck off again. Then continue to fuck off until you have fucked off the whole way back to me. Then fuck off one more time so I can feel better about it.

In office weeks come like the inevitable expansion of our star. And they feel equally as devastating.

Fun fact. I despise Elden Ring. It is a disappointment in every way. The fact it is defacing my recap with its presence is squarely @starryreyna.bsky.social's fault. 🤣💜

Its been one of the years of all time. 147 new people have willingly subjected themselves to my presence at least once.

brain has come back to the whole "lets make a thing of streaming" i then remind myself of the following: 1: cant edit. Hearing my voice causes panic attacks 2: aint got that kinda time. 3: dont like promoting myself 4: not exactly a "marketable" personality 5: i dont like me so noone else should

Just a friendly reminder for anyone in the US. If you see some church with political signs or messaging use this form and the IRS can and will revoke their tax exempt status. Providing evidence can also be done by following the instructions on the site. www.irs.gov/charities-no...

6: Story behind my name? So I was making npc's for my DND game and named one of them Rila and thought "thats a nice name". Then for some reason the next day I got really possessive of it, changed the character name and changed all my internet handles to some version of Rila.

On those days like today when I feel like I can do no right and the changes I want are astronomically far away I look at this art I commissioned from my mama Ruruu.run. Change is slow but it will happen. Whether you think you matter or not, you matter to someone. 💜

Question for anyone who has played #Potionomics after the #polyamory update. Is this actual representation for once with open communication and everyone's informed consent? Or is it just another "poly is monogamous cheating" stereotype where no one knows or acknowledges anything? #lgbtq+

In an effort to actually put myself out there for once I'm going to shamelessly steal this from someone else's post. Forget where I found it though cause I accidentally refreshed the browser🥲

The Coven's 2nd Planet Crafter stream is up on the YouTubes💜 #vtuber #lgbt #polyamory youtu.be/uPNniq1pqmM

Sometimes I wish I had more time to do collabs with chill people, or just be more sociable with others in general. Then I remember that I don't want to interact with me so why would I subject others to it and that feeling fades for another week or so.

Been thinking how I used to do voices for npcs in DND. It just made me hyper aware how much I hate hearing myself talk and it gives me mini panic attacks just hearing it. Its the same reason I don't edit VODS for short content. Does that limit growth, yeah. but i also like not hyperventilating.