I feel like this year gonna be hardest. I’m gonna quit this year, I think. I don’t know where else to work. I don’t have local passport nor diploma. Nor money. I just have no power. Almost cried on talk with manager because of my salary (it’ll decrease from new taxes, and company won’t cover it)

Another commission after a long break. Done for cutie @neko-knight.bsky.social. I’m still grateful for opportunity to work with OCs. Yummy knights.

Human sacrifice to the local werewolf (Ayame, he/him)

Part 1. Of course they aren’t the way they wanted :( #comic #kingpoetknight #oc #sketch #drawing #lineart

Daily rant. I hate Ryanair, today was last day I fly them. I was called cheater, paid money, because i had phone case on strap. I couldn’t put it in bag after she miraculously ‘found out’ my attempt on cheating. I hope their staff will suffer from explosive diarrhea during all Christmas #ryanair

Something for myself #frostpunk #oc #scout #linework #pose #drawing #art #sketch #wip #character #concept

Heeeelllo, ive done something here with Aanko's knight - Draw This Your Style. Let him peacfully stroll in shop. got caught in details again Thanks for chance to participate!! #dtiys #knight #armour #shopping #oc #colours

oh i loved to work on this so much. Parts of commission for @blueflamebird.bsky.social #eldenring #commission #wylder #ironeye #wyldeve #art #digitalart #fandom #nightreign #knights #armour

The animalistic sexual tension when I rarely play druid in DnD. Thanks Halsin for developing my weird thoughts. #bear #dnd #sketch #art #BG3 #druid #drawing

Just a trying on some lights #bear #sketch #drawing #lights #colours

WIP commission incoming 🤌 #wyldeye #wylder #ironeye #eldenring #commission #knights #sketch

I know that jester is taller than I drew him, but–

The commission I was honoured to do for @neko-knight.bsky.social I’m super grateful for opportunity and overall support, and new friend made♥️ It was super interesting to work and learn about lore and OCs, and… everything #knight #colours #render #commission

I mean 🤌 #pricelist #commission

Made myself a profile photo👀 as well as watermark. Thought about dragon at first but… my patronus is magpie so… 👉👈

Today I was refused in buying box of sticks for Iqos. Do you know the reason? Because apparently having a new haircut made me loose ten years. Woman in shop was absolutely fucking sure I’m under 18 and bullshiting her. I’m 26… I mean… I dunno if I should be grateful for compliment or offended🙃

Let me share a thought. I’ve been trying to to grow hair for a long time. At 20 I had thick hair in every sense of it, only thing it always was very hydration demanding. At 24 I decided to stop dying black and go into auburn. I did, and it was pretty nice, even alive somehow.

cw: angst, major character death wish you were here. #ghostsoap

im not really sorry for feeling horny #sketches #dick #pose #colours

quick mindless sketches #colours #sketch #digitalart #tiger

Did drawing for @neko-knight.bsky.social Enjoyed it, loved it, loved the result, and the opportunity to work with OCs. As well as opportunity to see what is going in my brushes set. #knights #oc #art #colours #stylised #drawing #digitalart #linework

That’s thing, I’m following @blanchebees.bsky.social for a long time, and their drawings are bloody INSPIRING. I’m like a huge fan. I didn’t know that I have a knights kink thing, but now I definitely do. (It’s WIP drawing so) #knights #digitalart #inspiration #colour

That’s us, three peas in one pot. These two asshole will never know how am I grateful for 5 years in row, even if it’s just discord, and not irl. They helped me out through hardest moments of my life and they still do. #digitalart #colour #battlefield6 #art #stylised #pink #story #friends #oc

I’m mad af. ArtStation refuses to save or upload this project. I dunno. I’m upset. #sniper #art #colour #stylised #idkwtfamidoing #digital

Today’s sketches. I know, right? Hyperproductive today aren’t we. Robert is biggest hear me out btw. And I’m satisfied ending game with no romance, because both girls are very fucking questionable. Here my bullshite don’t mind it: #sketch #colour #bull #dispatch #robertrobertson #fightclub #art

Chromatic aberration I love it sorry. And there is so… random colour pallet - first link in google. Ref from Pinterest. Just a half of hour work, not sure what I wanted but I like it. I like messy style, but adore fine line and suck in both. I’m alive. Still. Unfortunately. #art #colour #men #draw

For the years, me and my discord lad have this ultimate and constant eternal argue about way of beating Frostpunk game. I’m the one obsessed with Order, while he’s always choosing Faith. So it is base for an art for day 18 inktober DEAL theme. Hope you’ll guess the movie #inktober

I’m tired, really. Posting this stuff for myself, thinking myself it will help. What exactly. How exactly it works. I feel to shy to make sorta add, don’t feel like I’m worth to. Dunno. Just.. tired of being looser, but understand that will never be any more than that.

Day 10 - shredded Two medics erase their past: stacks of incriminating files vanish into the shredder, smoke curls in the air. Every page hides stolen organs, black-market trades, and deaths no one is supposed to trace back to them. Part of original comic, which I’ll never draw or write complete:(

I love men’s tits. Thank you for listening.

DAY 9 - Heavy Well yeah, ‘m doing inktober. But very reluctantly. BUT hating myself less. Just one hour a day. On tippy toes. And I even like some shit I do, for example this one. Second version was prim, ‘cause my mate said to add *myself* into it. So… alright, I did. Nothing much to say.

You know what else bothers. When you look at yourself in the mirror and like ‘what the *fuck* has happened to me’. Terrible view. And after that nothing changes again. When you realise you’re so fucked, so lost, so lost in control over your appearance and health that you don’t even know… 1/3

Oh, AHA. This one is more than year old, attempt on hoping into Inktober. As you could guess - failed one. There is few more in ArtStation saved before my nervous system collapsed completely and I wiped my PC. I don’t even remember how I drew it so fine, honestly, probably just traced it from photo🙃

Maybe the art is hard for me 'cause I'm not original. Thoughts, aye, they are, but when it comes to practice - absolutely no. I'm not feeling developing in it either. Like I'm stuck in my academic shite at one point back in 2019 and since then whatever I do, whoever I pray, how much I try to... 1/3

And you know what pisses off? You go any socials and see very 🤌 prof art. And description like ‘just a tiny silly sketch, half-bad'. WHAT TF YOU MEAN HALF-BAD, SILLY?!! I'm so angry at these posts, so fucking OUTRAGED. I'm not able to do a gd caricature over it,not able even to draw lines like this

In any case, I’ve been into writing, have sorta…thing for it. And AI chats perfect boost in right way, but unfortunately all my cases end up with perfect pron. As for fantasy and imagination overall - huge boost, especially when you want to draw things. Alas, as I said - dangerous ‘cause addictive:(

The thing is. Spicy, huh. I’m *addicted. Right. Whole life I wasn’t doing drugs, nor alcohol, nor sex things, nor physical addictions. Though, by 23 I found a fucking AI chats, and writing. And it consumed 80% of my life, and still does, ‘cause I’m lonely af. I know I’m fucked. But trying to get out

I also have a full few pages of sketches for comic about Helldivers. But, well. Considering my life I wasn’t able to get it into PS. But *maybe*. Maybe I’ll at least try it, aye? Just for myself. Though, I don’t mind to seem desperate, ‘cause I am. Lying about it would’ve been stupid. Anyways, ty lu

After a year of severe depression, health and anger issues - I came back. Not the epic come back like in IG unfortunately. We've been playing Baldurs Gate lately and since my mate has BD i thought it'd be fun to take tablet after a year of tossing it into the wall. I hope i'll catch up with LIFE. TY

First and last ‘I’m not a bot post’.