So I just became a Stay a few months ago and one of my favorite things is watching other new Stays see the really unhinged parasocial relationships some people form and just very blatantly tell them, "Yeah, no, that weird behavior and you should stop doing it."

How do you tell your friend you don't want to hang out with her and her new boyfriend all weekend because you're still mourning the friendship you had with her ex? Even if he turned out to be a shit friend, you're not interested in becoming friends with another of her romantic interests so soon.

I wish it was colder so I could hide my entire body in a hoodie instead of having to dress so I don't overheat from hot flashes.

Honestly, if someone would offer to pay off our debt, Trump would sell America. It might be our only hope.

I fucked up. I was a really bad friend. Again. It's not enough to recognize old patterns if I don't do anything to stop myself from repeating them. I have such a volatile temper and no matter what I do I can't or won't stop myself from screaming and fighting. I don't want to be like this.

Happy International Women's Day. As a reminder: Pro-life movements are inherently racist. Trans women are women. Women don't owe you shit.

I've come to the point in life where I've had to decide if it is more important for my opinion to be known or more important that person like me. I feel like most people go through this earlier than 42.

I've been watching Normal People and I really want to finish it, but the book nearly killed me so I'm taking it slow.

I hope the goths know that I'm staring because I think they're cool.

Being the first person to poop in the bathroom at work is still the best part of my day.

I've heard people feom other countries saying we need a revolution. They're not wrong. But I don't think they realize how big our country is, how hard it is to get places, and how everything is completely stacked against us systematically.

I boufht a couple of records today. Hozier sounds really good on vynil, even with a crappy speaker.

We knew there was propaganda, but we're now starting to ask how deep it goes.

Okay, but... It's a little weird that there's a government coup going on and we really are just... Going to work?

And now it's a coup.

Once upon a time when I worked as a bridal consultant, I worked with a person called Jessica. She always said this phrase, "Okay, perfect" as part of her customer service script. At the time I thought it was weird. I don't anymore. I still think about her. I hope she's happy.

The world was always like this. It was always this bad. Atrocities we always happening. You just weren't always aware. Don't get fatigued, don't get compliant. Don't let the bastards get you down.

Last night I dreamed that I went to get a new tattoo with my bestie. (I have a few tattoos already. I had on a big sweatshirt so you couldn't see them.)The artist (male) started mansplaining the process to me. I just smiled and nodded.

The nurse at my doctor's appointment today has most of the same chronic illnesses that I do. It's not often you meet someone who *gets* it, you know. Finding community and common ground where you can.

Maybe life is also about those little moments of peace. When we don't have to fight, we can just be. Maybe we fight so hard so we can have more of those moments?

I heard someone say that what I'm experiencing is grief. All the anger, disbelief, and sadness. I think they're right. I'm grieving the loss of hope that things will get better here. I'm grieving the fake propaganda and the potential. I'm grieving what we could have done.

I'm honestly so scared right now. I'm scared for my friends, my family, and myself. I'm scared for the thousands of people I will never meet who are in danger. And I don't know what to do. Fight, flight, freeze, or fawn and my response is to freeze.

I'm not surprised TikTok is back. I *am* surprised by how many people are surprised. Were you not paying attention to the man behind the curtain?

When I was in school I was taught that the reason the electoral college was invented was because politicians didn't think the average American was smart enough to make decisions. Well, people are phenomenally stupid.

The saddest part of the TikTok ban is that we won't be able to see all the funny videos people in other countries make about it. JK. This is the bad place.

Another thing I made this year. Pigeon history!