whenever i make an/ oc/s and then one way or another (through medication or life circumstance) become very much like that/those oc/s i wonder whether i was accidentally divining some to-be-uncovered-later hidden aspect/s of myself or if i am just fulfilling my own prophecy in a self pigeonholing way

ok #wip

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the brand on ollies shirt is BRAND brand. BRAND sells products such as products

telling myself that posting about hrt and then deleting the posts is not the same thing as not posting about hrt

hrt is making me even more asexual

Would transitioning saved Damien?

(Butterfly AEffect) Spread

ripping off my eyelids because as soon as i fell in love with grace (the sampling plugin) it started throwing memory leak errors whenever i try to use it. why won't the decades old software accommodate my contemporary needs

lately i ONLY want to listen to music that sounds like this

i assume everything i post here is seen and owned by every person on earth simultaneously

why am i making myself bald on purpose

this happened to me in high school

dude i fucking love taking my sleeping medicine and then getting hit by a truck of sleep. they finally invented something that makes me pass the fuck out instead of being too tired to move but awake

a clip from my Butterfly Æffect dub of Damien's butterfly monologue. i think this is when the game really sinks its hooks into you: the moment you realize Damien isn't just a punching bag amalgam of shitty men, but that his behavior comes from a deeply real and hauntingly human place.

dumbass becomes trans for the 2nd time

hormonemaxxing so i can unlock every gender

write manic edit mixed

mwahahahahaha

marshall @ damien

me: it feels sort of like ..... how people with normal seasonal depression describe taking vitamin d the other guy who lives in my brain (?????): vitamin d is also a hormone me: alright true

conditionally useful #butterflyaeffect

Get even further away from the router.

at any given moment i'm probably thinking about this www.youtube.com/watch?v=4426...

i gotta believe

I Got Isekai'd Into My Favorite Ryona, So I Guess I'll Transition

instructions unclear feet stuck on the underside of the water's surface

LEVEL 1: The text supports a transgender reading of the protagonist. LEVEL 2: The text supports a transgender reading of the author. LEVEL 3: The text supports a transgender reading of the reader.

trying very hard to walk off my poison instead of staying still so i don't take damage

Butterfly Aeffect Magazine Ad (20XX) #ButterflyAeffect

but i'm not laughing

read through this last night and here's a select few screenshots of stuff in it that spoke to me, esp to the remnants of depressed teen mado. dialogue feels very real for the time period its in (i think its the mid-2010s? def feels like the period of online that i was active on tumblr.)

hitting such a deep vein of trans sadness was really not on my bingo card for this year but idk why

Okay, that’s all the time I’ve got. I've gotta get back to playing Butterfly Æffect on my Nintendo Switch.

i bring a dfab mtf vibe to the cis vs trans binary

suggestive

This got a very kind writeup. Did you see it? And download the zine? And read the whole thing? And play all the games? (smiles) thetidepool.itch.io/high-tide-vo...

What a beautiful day to play a visual novel. How about trying this one: "as if through glass" is a "Butterfly Soup"-like for the cohort that sent death threats through Tumblr. Silicon Valley nihilism, anime, gay* girls** getting existential with it. 20k words ebicon.itch.io/as-if-throug...

The visual novel everyone’s been asking for: a coming of age story about gay Chinese-American teenagers on imageboards ebicon.itch.io/as-if-throug... 1-2 hours / 20k words / all original soundtrack

play high school tumblr poetry and vagueposting visual novel

sees my own posts wow i hate social media

some deeply important words here we could all take to heart

I edited my entire Butterfly Æffect dub/readthrough into one video! Please enjoy 5+ uninterrupted hours of toxic relationships and beautiful pervert torture, fully voiced!