I may be the only person who consistently finds Max funny

time for a bit of an alter lore dump: for reasons there's no reason to share, for a while (i.e. about 5 months) I believed Ms/Maya was comatose, maybe permanently, since I didn't see any kind of signs or anything from her but then I started feeling a "new" alter, someone who didn't really know...

shoutout to the cavemen who probably starved to death because their instincts telling them to shove foreign squishy objects into their noise hole sounded irrational

I've gotten some kind of deeply ingrained trauma around video game paper airplanes thanks to that one video I saw on the unused Animal Crossing paper airplane item that can cause your world to become corrupted

I can't say I've ever been big into livestreamers, like I'll happily watch and cackle at edited VODs or even uncut VODs but I rarely attend an actual livestream.... just not my kind of content I guess

a visit with my grandma meant to spend quality time together has turned into a troubleshooting session between her and my dad... so err I'm upstairs right now waiting for something interesting to happen

the future of generative AI is so magical because I wouldn't have understood this email if not for the option to summarize it

I think a lot about how underwater diving and exploring caves and going to space scares me but REALISTICALLY I am never going to go out of my way to do any of those

the transformation continues

I am excited to be able to sign onto one of my accounts someday having gotten a diagnosis and coming up with some really clever joke in order to share the news

right.... someone on CharacterHub, WITHOUT CONSULTING ME FIRST, *kinda* fulfilled my quest for 600 gems... notorious AI user to the point it's in their profile comments.... I do not have 600 gems because two people already accepted it.... I'm kinda speechless really

thank god I controlled my crimson spread as much as I did early into hardmode or else I would be having a very unfortunate time

okay so we are slowly figuring it out, it looks like I have a place for therapy and another for psychological analysis (for autism at the moment), have yet to set any appointments but it's looking in a much better state than it was 2 days ago

I'm thinking back to when I went to Yellowstone fighting the temptation to throw my plushie into one of the springs, I wondered to myself "I wonder how many corpses are hiding in the springs"

last night's dream

I feel honoured (with a U) when moots who sparingly use the like button show up in my notifications /gen

is it really almost March, yeesh

FUCK!!! I GET IT!!!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!

I dunno why this is tickling me so bad

even now a full year or two later I'm waiting for polls to be added to bluesky so I can make one every 30 minutes asking some random bullshit question

I think a lot about how cismales are just BORN with a penis... you don't have to work for it like I do... it's just there.....

it stops being fun after uninterrupted hour number 4

"become a graphic designer" they said.... "it'll be easy" they said.... /lh

I did make a... like... guide? for my IMDB ratings if a singular entity on this rock sphere cares at all

I think to bring this all full circle my fanon name for the Iron Lung movie monster will be "The Gongoozler" #thosewhoknow

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making moodboards is hard when all of the top results for a fandom is just this kind of shit (it did make me laugh)

this is a warning that if you ever see me at a store it's probably in the baby toy aisle

I've come up with my Proud Nuisances (opposite of Guilty Pleasures) list finally, go ahead, be mad at me now

I'm going through an incredibly frustrating process with psychiatry/therapy right now and it LOOKS LIKE my treatment plan has been all but put on pause for a while so... that was a colossal waste of time

dunno what this means but that's good I think

it's been a while since I've had imported trypophobia candy

jesus... anti-autism course

oh, also, during my boredom filled Sheezy doomscrolling, I came across someone making porn of Cookie and Schmitty y'know, the Jackbox Games voiceovers I'm not one to judge I just thought it was an interesting thought experiment

cw: vomit - Andy did draw some.. uh.. panicked artwork on Sunday, might be worth sharing

hi, I beat Terraria while I was gone

I should say I'm doing okay (I saw the DM, hesitant to reply to it directly for now), mental breakdown mostly over I am gonna be exceedingly busy college-wise for the next couple days so I might drop off the face of the earth until Wednesday thank you for your patience... life is tricky....

fuck

my dad and I had a long talk today trying to kind of figure out where the sources of trauma in my past came from I had SOME inklings but I think we've kinda hammered down a missing piece in both of our minds it's a subject I don't really want to divulge too much

today an adult was born: I put my own laundry away... yes... I am 20 years old and I put my laundry away for the first* time today *in recent memory

I had a dream ... uhhh I'm too nervous to use their codename now...... that you-know-who found my old posts about them and I don't really remember what they said.. maybe the dream ended before I heard anything

guy with superheated gloves

it got accepted ! freedom at last

watching Jerma until I pass out, quickest game of my life

I keep checking every hour am I being too paranoid

ADHD theme song youtu.be/e7H5Ghbidzo?...

my love for chicken (the food) has spiked very dramatically over the past four or so years

I like that for a little while I was too afraid to watch this video because I didn't know my IQ