i love being in college. hate it when im ill in college though. i want to go back to bed but theres SNOW out there (fuckin. NY weather…) also i want my stupid boyfriend to be here but alas!

okay so today i ate BEFORE having caffeine and i think im less ill now? also my boy was up too late and missed his classes >:((

ate a third time! our friend made food for his class and brought it for the friend group

i ate twice today even though im really nauseous. everyone be proud of me

i need to write poems today for my instagram but im soooo eepy still

my hands are numb

Jesus Christ

boy is paying more attention to our other friend than me and im a little bothered…

covered in ink (had to swap the ink reservoir in my fountain pen)

also we did a lego set

the boy is showing me his sims builds

im eepy

one of my friends is so annoyingly sullen when she feels left out. like not everything is about you girliepop! let me tell my tmi to james and not you in peace

that shit gave me indigestion but hey i gave it the old college try (funnier because im at college rn)

cant wait to show off that lingerie for my boy after class ::)

just DEVOURED some chipotle. first time having it and it was so yummy ummy

i got a $93 something something at victoria’s secret, a book, and an oracle deck

spent so much money at the mall today

my boy keeps missing his classes at this rate he wont come back next semester…

i hate when i feel bruised but theres no visible bruise. let me see that shit!!

college is great you take a dogboy on one date and… things 🥰

took the boy to applebees ::) im dressed all pretty and lowk want to not be wearing this anymore

my handwriting is worse when im in pain. weird (predictable but still pisses me off)

im so sick of being in pain

movies with boyfriend yay

also the chronic pain is still being bad so idk if ill sleep tonight. ive been trying for like four hours… but tomorrow my boy says i can come over and watch a movie with him ::)

stupid boyfriend is so kind to me. doesnt he know im evil?

i am in so much pain. i love rainy days!

i want to read to the boy but we’re hanging out with our friends

i miss my boyfriend (its been like two hours)

food obtained now i need nicotine

im hungry. 7 minutes until class over…

my boy is eeping forever…

listening to mcr making out we’re so emo rebellious. also AAAAAA im losing it cant believe the us is at war

i get so scared wearing croptops alone in public. i will not be assaulted i need to calm down. even if i did i shouldn’t blame it on the croptop 😭

oh soundgarden is blackhole sun… anyways i continue to listen. yummy music at the gym

dorm beds not big enough for two people to eep in we tried but failed i went back to my dorm at like 3am

remind me to listen to sound garden (the boy says it is essential)

im so eepy i need nicotine to fix it but that does not appear to be happening

bruise on my thigh from fighting with furniture. and im wearing the sluttiest winnie the pooh pajamas going to see the boy soon. i put on lotion to smell nice and shit

im so normal about my stupid autistic puppyboy

got stoned with my buddy and it was so scawy but fun ig

im so eepy and my leg hurts (accidentally slammed it into a chair yesterday)

oh yeah me and the cute guy are Courting now. so thats really cool

im so dissociated that the only thing cutting through it is rage. jack btw jer cant deal with anger so he gave up front

im totally lost ngl

everyones whining about the test and i got a B when i finished first…

just got overstimulated by hardly anything idk how ill survive this day…

he let me give him a tarot reading 😁 and it said his future has romance in it (thats about us bitches)

we only go to the gym to release tension and lately we’ve been goin everyday…