Oop the general public is learning what theatre people have known for a awhile: the second act of wicked is meh.

feeling blue this week. but I’m home and it’s raining and I have my heated blanket on and I’m watching my neighbor Totoro so everything is ok for now

ran into coworkers I only kind of knew at the beach. They let me have some wine and it was all chill and good vibes. It’s one of those moments of good juju from the universe. It’ll be fine if we have each other’s backs.

Fuck I hate it when a hyperfixation comes up in a group conversation and I have to TONE DOWN what I say to not sound like a know-it-all but it’s still more than what everyone else knows about the topic… and then someone says “Oohoo you know A LOT about (subject)” I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate

I want to move to the forest and become a gnome as god intended

meltdown today love it

hi it me

When the Tides Held the Moon by @venessakelley.bsky.social is so beautiful I’m actually weeping

I hate having a baby face. People at work assume I’m in my early 20s and treat me like a kid when I’m fully 30. Lesson: In general don’t condescend to people you look younger than you. Or anybody. It’s rude.

Got a book from the library that sounded right up my alley. Disaster bi himbo protagonist on a ship LOVE. So I listened to some of the audiobook on Spotify and immediately clocked the voice of our very own Nathan Foad from Our Flag Means Death! A spectacular surprise and A+ narrator choice #ofmd

beep boop the president is a moron gleep glorp

Lately I’ve been dreaming all night long. I dream so much that it doesn’t feel like I’m asleep so I don’t feel rested in the morning. And 80% of my dreams are anxiety ridden nightmarish hellscapes. It’s a horrible way to sleep. I just want to be unconscious when I rest. Fuck.

cold has commenced. body aches and can’t get comfortable.

told new potential squish that I’m aromantic. now we wait and see how they respond.

Iiiii forgot to do the one thing I was supposed to do today

Another rough night. Can’t catch a break

I think I was a koi in a past life. I could say I was something cool like an eagle or a cat but honestly I think I was an ornamental carp swimmingly happily in a little pond

fack I don’t know how to be a person

this Barbie is in a freeze response

Without downloading any new images, where are you mentally?

I’m connecting through Salt Lake City so theoretically I’ll be on the plane with Mormons and magats, so YOU KNOW I’ll be watching some queer shit on the in flight entertainment tv.

Now that I’m adult sized, traveling is a lot less fun. Reasons: responsibility, headaches and aching joints combo, small seats and adult sized body combo.

it’s wild to me when the AP reports on an occasional bubonic plague in humans as if it’s not completely treatable with antibiotics now. I know they’re looking for clicks, but it’s not anything to fear monger about.

I want someone to lay on top of me and kiss my neck

coffee and fluoxetine

When you touch a cat while it’s half asleep and it makes that “prrrrrt” sound. Like if you agree.

Writing when I have ocd is fucking hard. Too many intrusive thoughts and spirals and wormholes.

I have a question. When I use an adblocker, does money come directly out of the advertiser’s pocket or do I deny the advertiser the OPPORTUNITY to make money by not viewing their ads and buying their product? …And then they say they “lost money.”

Dad: *dramatically reads the final “I stabeth thee” line from Moby Dick* Me: yeah Ahab has the whale and I have the fucking internet. Dad: … and which one is worse? Me: 0_0

OFMD friends! I spotted a giant animatronic Rosy Maple Moth at John Ball Zoo in Grand Rapids, MI.

I helped out in the garden at my parents’ house today and while it was fun, I didn’t see a single garden toad and for that I give it 0/5 ⭐️… but I saw a bunch of butterflies so maybe I’m being a bit harsh. 5/5 ⭐️ for insects and plants. 0/5 for amphibians. Booooo.

I told my 70 year old mom that a bunch of ofmd props and costumes are up for auction. First she let out a sad sigh but then she followed up with “wait is the nose jar up for auction??”

ok I’m downloading date everything

I take weather warnings pretty seriously because one of my relatives is a weather man on tv. And I’m saying this because midwesterners get a bad rap for eye rolling at tornado warnings and going outside to watch…

my gramps’ funeral was on by 9th birthday and that has started a tradition of my birthdays being terrible

does anyone else just… not care about love island? Or reality tv in general? I feel like all my peers are talking about it. It’s too exploitative for me. Same with love one the spectrum.

uhhhhh I think I matched with an ethically non monogamous husband and wife duo… separately? And I don’t think they know it?? Holy shit??

Had some big epiphanies this week. Realized I may not be as asexual as I thought but still very aromantic. Also realized that polyamory/non monogamy sounds swell to me. Also decided I want to start dating again but with clear expectations.

Once again, I didn’t sleep long. Restless legs are a bitch.

I’ve decided I’m going to fully embrace my true goblin self. I’m experiencing joy I haven’t felt since surgery and I’m not spiraling which means I’m unstoppable. The cause: I have another gig going, my Prozac has reached full efficacy, and I started reading a chaotic queer book.

I’ve accepted that I’m the last person on people’s minds to invite to weddings. Shame. You could have me throwing down at your reception party but nooooo

this Barbie’s ocd flared up again

should I apply to be a volunteer at my local aquarium? I feel like I’d be great at telling people fun marine facts but then they’d say “huh you have a masters degree in costume design at yet you want to tell people fish facts for free” yes I contain multitudes

the hp author is so fucking weird. imagine having a billion dollars to - i don’t know - help solve world hunger but instead using it to strip away people’s rights. fuck off joanne. go colonize mars with Elon.

3wpo: nerve pain in the nips is the worst. Absolutely never getting nip piercings. Also I’m still so swollen on the sides where my drains were which sucks. But the neck and shoulder pain from having large breasts was worse.

2wPO update: The allergic reaction subsided but now nerve sensation is coming back which is its own form of torture.

Last 48 hours were wild. I had a mind melting allergic reaction to the surgical skin adhesives but they peeled off so talk about a night and day difference. Also got my surgical drains out YES ma’am. I’ve conquered the 1 week post op hump.

I have had it with these motherfucking surgical drains in my motherfucking chest. (Yes they’re important and they need to be there but they’re a sensory nightmare and my ribs hurt from my surgical bra)

I finally had my top surgery almost a week ago. My mom has been so supportive throughout the process of getting it set up and she’s staying with me for 3 weeks while I’m healing. Shout out to my mom every day, not just Mother’s Day.