#pmd gives back what you put in. For many of us, we poured in our souls & received a personal experience deeper than what we saw on the screen. A couple of days ago marked 20 years since Rescue Team released. I wished to draw something for it, even if I knew it'd be late.

🌱💚 local girl in 3rd decade of wishing she was very tiny

🌱 i didn't want to be this big and scary... i never wanted to be this big and scary... Q_Q

🌱 i feel like a lot of the time when i do slide to teen-mode, i'm spending it either in a fit of anger, hurt, and rage, or just shutting down and waiting to slide back down to kid or baby mode again i'm more pleasant in those modes after all

i wish i could say what i want 😔 (complete metamorphosis into something small, cute, and nonverbal that follows directions)

Paw. From @kolvalzakingdom.bsky.social.

🌱 fuckin'... i guess that's still on the ol' to-do, huh? took baby & kid brain modes from an affliction curse to something positive. fear-to-joy. so just gotta do it for teen-mode but I HATE BEING IN THIS MODE i feel like you toss a grenade of moody-hormone rot into the existing trauma cyclone

🌱 uuuugh teen-mode flashbacks FFFFFFUUUUUUCK, TEEN-MODE FLASHBACKS

🌱 time moves so fast and i can't keep up and i'm stressed out and overwhelmed but it just, does not, slow down and i'm always late and *screams*

🌱 so much same... QnQ

Installing Linux- #furryart #sfw #ageregression #kidfur furaffinity.net/view/62867875

🌱 i wish i didn't still struggle with "is it okay, or selfish? to want what i want? to even dare to have wants in the first place?" trauma flashback morning i guess... it's so evil of me to want or need anything, what hard work and common sense have i done to EARN the right to have wants?

🌱 i remember being so scared when i first realized i was afflicted by regression i remember being so sad when adult-mode just... stopped happening then this year, so nervous when i decided to be open about it but i've come so far facing　accepting, & loving this about me and it feels so warm 💗

recent lucario sketch; getting practice in with a different drawing program than i'm used to, so i can draw digital art when visiting my gf's where i don't have my desktop

If the cake says it, it must be true, right? When someone who cares for you makes that #littlespace alteration... >w< back around my birthday, got a little "birthday cake #agere"-brained & long story short, "cake trope but with numbers in kanji!" idea! made late for my own birthday, but still fun!

💚 i think Jun's way overthinking her wanting to prepare before re-opening commissions thing tbh and also, way overthinking preparation for the pmd comic she wants to make i feel like i need to find a way to really give her a surge of courage to take the leap of faith

Bunnuy

🌱 my body is in such pain tonight. i feel physically as bad as i do mentally and emotionally

🌱 not a huge fan of "currently my only free and/or have privacy afternoon, in the entire WEEK, is Monday" afternoon's also the time of day my ADHD med in particular is working and it's like... combined with the times afternoon is busy, i just have... no energy left when i wanna draw x_x

I just doing my usual "Mew things" when suddenly, Aoi appeared with a rattle! When he started shaking it, I couldn't take my eyes off it, my thoughts drifted away, and my body began to transform...

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💚 tbh, on days where we take our meds but have a mental health breakdown, what if we indulged on squirt soda anyway? sure the grapefruit, but if the bad emotion's overpowering our meds that day anyway...? indulge in some form of joy am i right? disclaimer: not advice, don't do this due to me

💚 Rokko's cursing her ex's name, and I have to keep squirting Jun with the spray bottle because she's being prone to taking things people say as jabs specifically aimed at her and it's "No."

GOING LIVE WITH GROUNDED www.twitch.tv/havensys

🌱 Lime squirting at me with a spray bottle when she detects me thinking "but what i need to do [__] to prove that i'm-" 💚🚿 *tsst!* "No prove!"

it's like this

Even when I age-slide down to baby, I still wanna draw! But what to draw...? Blank part of paper.. Even the idea lightbulb is age-sliding, oh dear! Sketched this during some brainstorming and then decided to color! #littlespace #regression

🌱 i still have such a way to go.. to repair my ability to read stories without having a panic attack.. >_< i keep feeling too /stupid/ to give stories the respectful read they deserve. and for internet stories, like, intimidated by analytical comments reminding me how

🌱 how do you walk into a situation where you know you're going to get hurt? but everyone's saying you won't? even though you've done the same dance before and you have pattern-recognition? but your pattern-recognition's broken apparently, just like how you're broken you're broken you're broken

🌱some days you feel small in a precious way, like a doll, and others like vermin, just, "you aren't supposed to be here,, you'll never be people, go away"

🌱 hello to the emotion of being terrified once again

🌱 hard to keep me in the "remember wow two cakes" mindset when i venture out of my immediate circles and face an entire convention center filled with cakes was looking for inspiration but instead feelng redundant again and overwhelmed by it all... 😞

Oh heeeeeyyyy Goddess has a new reeeef~! Added some new trinkets, removed the chest fluff, made my hair much poofier. I really like this version... <3

🌱 my brain is a zone where 2nd-guessing anything i did turns into 1000-guessing @_@

So my friend dAVePAGE was inspired by an artpiece by nulloffset and this inspired me to do my own rambly piece, also mixing in a post I made last night about how I could ramble about PMD and yeah!

🌱 this bnuuy's living a size & cuteness i wish to be omggg

🖤 The little ones have such fears, so much fears of people. Sometimes to extremes. But, it makes sense given our past. You learn to fear how adults and even other kids can hurt you. And the bigness of the present body doesn't wash the fear away.

💚 i'm trying to focus on joy right now... i'm really trying..... i'm not particularly, inspiring, or smart... just a scared kid like jun but i don't even have the sweet charm she has... there isn't really a crying emoji for the frustration, and despair, so just, gonna use the sob one 😭

💚 apparently i gave off the impression, even internally, that i can't be hurt, i don't feel emotions how jun does... i'm a literal split of her sure but i didn't just, conveniently get spawned without the emotional part COME ON

Got a new tele sticker from @sproutpanda.bsky.social . Patches knows whats best and now i dont have to worry about adult things. #babyfur #furry #cubbie

EYVOOOOOOOOI

A gift to you all for free on my birthday! It'd make me super happy to see this spread far and wide.

🌱 do you think it's fun to not be good at the only language i manage to know!? do you think it's fun to do your best and still fail!?!? and still just get *screams* *SCREAMS*

🌱 autism-ADHD post-trauma tendency to overexplain and clarify what I'm attempting to say only to get misinterpreted anyway

🌱 some bad, baaaaaad ptsd this morning yay YAY 💀

It's the darkest of timelines. Emmy has become... A VIDTUBE INFLUENCER. (ominous thunder crashing) #EmmyDraws #RejuVacations

🌱💚 being a japanese-american millennial means feeling lots of complicated emotions about people arguing over anime online. which happens a LOT because, anime's become everywhere over the years.

🌱 I remember J's memories. as a teen, drew a simple anthro cat OC that was supposed to be... us(?)/me(?) (as Rokko talked about earlier, there's that, dissonance from the whole personality death thing) those drawings are long lost due to our intentional destroying them to hide from parents

🌱 need less flashback regression & more fun regression plzzzz

🦊 Jun finds herself haunted by her past to an intense degree. And I'm saying this as someone haunted by my own past, in this life & the last. She's trying to reconcile that she & J, the original personality, are the same. Died from anguish, but Alive because. The brain keeps going. #did #plurality