Me, after finishing exactly one 5min task from my to do list: Ok fine, that was hard. Now I need to relax for 1h. Let's start by checking social media - the same thing I did right before tackling the 5min task.

Had a terrible work day, which resulted in me being an utterly unproductive mess since I finished work which I'm so going to regret tomorrow.

Wondering if our IT department is bored bc wtf did they do to our email adress names?! It's not only impractical and unnecessary but also downright wrong how it displays our company name now.

I feel like I studied more Korean this past week than in the last 3.5 years since I started combined. Not that I feel like I make a lot of progress, it's mostly drilling vocab into my brain, but it's definitely something.

I'm home and I'd like to thank the spiders for keeping my kitchen moth infestation at bay. In other words: on first glance, everything's ok, just had to vacuum and get some fresh air in. And I already have the first load of laundry in the washing machine.

My plane scheduled for 12.25 got delayed by half an hour yesterday. I barely managed to download #permission_to_dance_onstage_live literally finishing on the runway 30 seconds before takeoff. I was so glad this album kept me company on my flight back from SK 😭.

Started the day fighting with my hair and leaving way too late. Missed out on FESTA bc the queue was impossible. Was sad bc I was overlooked by the people distributing goodies. And then I got OT7 - 7 as in incl. Yoongi - at Hobi's concert with Koo and Jin performing as well. Best night of my life.

I'm staying in an Airbnb with a family of four, which in some ways wasn't my best idea, but breakfast is included so I get delicious Korean homecooked meals - except for someone who doesn't normally eat breakfast and happens to be a white potato, stomaching this is a lot xD (so good though!)

Made it to the airport by taxi, whew. I'm so early, I have to wait hours for baggage drop off and that's freaking me out bc my bag is too heavy and I have too much stuff in general and I'm not sure they'll let me on the plane like this. Argh, once again too much stress for my liking.

Ah, yes, nothing goes over happily working away from SK and then finding an email that one of your team has decided to quit and will only be here until the end of July. Fantastic. She's only been with us for a year. Back to square 1, I love it.

I thinkbI'm so horribly horribly tired that I don't know how to stay awake bc I pretty much slept less than 5h a day for over a week. That's a level of exhaustion and sleepiness I can hardly fight. I wanted to stay up until 10 but I won't even be able to make it until 9 at that point.

Alrighty, it's time 🥳🥳🥳! I'm on the first (delayed) train to my parents', who'll bring me to the airport tomorrow, listening to DDay (and tearing up a lot bc I just arrived at Amygdala) and feeling so super exciteeeed (also dead).

Spending the last minutes in my flat for the next 13 weeks lying on the floor with a terrible headache and knowing full well that I have to repack everything again bc I have too much stuff.

The flat is clean and I am dead. Now I need to pack for real aka try to make everything fit. But first, a break.

I still have so much stuff to do, I'm considering not sleeping tonight ... but I'm also really really tired. But I only have until tomorrow evening. Ahhhhhhhh. Ok, I'll give me another 5min of rest and will then tackle the next part of the living room. I can do this.

Okay, went to get the last couple of things. I really hope I didn't forget anything ... in the (not quite up to date) packing list we trust.

I'm so overwhelmed and have no energy at all. So far, I only went through all of my clothes and put out the ones I could see taking with me but it's still going to be a lot of work of narrowing it down to what actually fits in my suitcase.

I'm still in bed. I have a shit ton to do before I leave for 13 weeks on Monday, but I'm still in bed. That's so frustratingly me.

It's my last day in the office until the end of July. It's so crazy and hasn't sunken in yet. Feel massively stressed out bc there are so many things I still need to do today. Help!

Future's gonna be ok, right? Because I was too exhausted after work to continue my SK prep. I just fell asleep.

I'm done with my hospital appointment before my original time slot. Well that's new and well deserved since I slept about 3h bc I was stressed out by the trains not runnimg today! Everything's fine so one thing less to worry about.

My mum just dropped me off back home and took away all of my plants except two which I will leave at work. This is getting real and I feel hopelessly overwhelmed.

Did I book anything for SK today? No, of course not. But I got tickets for Marc-Uwe Kling in October xD

Just finished another rewatch of The Hunger Games films. I have such an interesting relationship with this series. Didn't particularly like the books past 1, but wrote my, in my opinion, stellar bachelor's thesis on them, so I'll forever have a soft spot for them. Also, the soundtrack slays.

I thiiink I finally figured out my travel plans until my fam arrives: Seoul to Cheongju, which will be my base to explore the surrounding cities and national parks, then Jeju. Maybe I manage to book something tomorrow so I can finally stop worrying about not knowing where to go.

I'm slowly starting to panic: What do I need for SK that I have to prepare/order in advance? Bc time is running out way too fast. And what do I pack? And how do I pack it? Ahhhhhhh, where did all the time go?! Only 14 days left.

And suddenly I find myself in an ARMY group chat planning a meet up in June in Seoul 😍. Thank youuu @cypherluscious.bsky.social 💜

I accidentally stayed up until past 4am because I got hyperfixated on the pattern for the back of my LYA pullover. I actually only wanted to check on my Proof pattern because I'm pondering what knitting project to take to SK and sth BTS related would be lovely. Don't have yarn for that one though.

I cleaned the stairwell. Now I don't have energy to tackle my own mess which desperately needs to be tackled because time is running out. 16 days to my flight to SK 😳

I really need to pack, it's already quite late, but meh. Really don't feel like it right now, sigh. Good thing I have my packing list and part is already packed from Leipzig, so it should be rather quick. I just need to get started ...

Having a headache from the depths of hell. Really bad timing, I wanted to have a nice day before the next fair 😭

My brain is still in fair mode (woke up incredibly early) and my body is in post fair mode (everything hurts). Right now, I'm really not looking forward to another 5 days starting tomorrow.

It feels so weird to have already left Leipzig. I don't like missing out on half of the fair 😭

Publishing speed running be like Monday/Tuesday sales rep conference, Wednesday prepping for two book fairs, Thursday/Friday Leipzig Book Fair, Saturday off, Sunday to Thursday Bologna Children's Book Fair. I hate the tight schedule but I'm looking forward to the fairs!

I'll be in SK in exactly a month. For three months. Um, that's a bit crazy. Wtf was I thinking?! (Yeah, I'm still super excited but ... cue the panic? This always seemed so far away and for the last three weeks impossible and now this is going to happen?!)

Waiting for my lunch to be done then only 1 more hour of work. Then quick grocery shopping. Then nothing. I'm so exhausted.

Great. Something had to go massively wrong today. Only silver lining: it could've been so much worse.

Holymoly, I just realised there are only 11 normal office days before SK. The rest is fairs and conferences. And only 3 normal weekends and due to my severe limbo depression of the last 3 weeks, there's still so much to do 😳

It's still there but it got a lot smaller 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I have another appointment in 3 weeks to check once again before my flight but it currently looks like I will be able to go to SK as planned even though I'm not 100% ok. These last 3 weeks were some of the worst of my life.

I'm more scared about tomorrow than the surgery itself. Might just be the day all my dreams die.

It's taking so much out of me, requirig basically limitless patience and time, but oh. Oh. It's already glorious and I'm not even halfway through. (Which is a good thing since I still need to decide on a neck line and finish the pattern for the back.) #BTS #knitting #ARMY #LoveYourselfAnswer

The most disillusioning thing about publishing is royalty reporting and I'm just the person juggling the numbers.

I'm incredibly tired and exhausted today. I need the weekend - oh, wait, I'll probably have to work because there's just too much stuff to do and not enough time.

Why can't my brain just retain Korean vocab?! As soon as I don't study for a couple of weeks, everything's gone and I have to start from scratch. (OK, it's not quite that bad, for example I remember spinach now, lol. But most words are just gone, even the ones I previously remembered well)

Who's that person who got home at 18.30, knitted, cooked dinner, and studied Korean and where was she these past two weeks?!

One of my favourite things in this fandom is Yoongi = cats + tangerines and him just fully embracing it. That just gives me life.

I know my family means well, but you're part of the problem. Dealing with you is taking even more energy out of me, and I currently don't have any to begin with. The only thing that can get me out of this episode is a miracle at my next doctor's appointment.

The way I just 😍↕️😍↕️ ...

Halfway through the royalty reports. Wouldn't it be nice if we were done by the end of next week already ... So far, I still need to go through 33% for the first time and 16% are currently on hold bc they need contract checks, licencing reports, or other issues to be resolved. Not too bad actually.

Managed to not aimlessly scroll online the whole evening and read 120 pages instead. Tiny steps out of the utter darkness and despair that's my brain at the moment.