have been stuck in this goddamn cube room with blood stains on the walls and phlegm in the sink and cum on the ceiling and an emergency pull thing that's missing the bit you pull and dents and scuffs and cracks in the walls for like three hours now. I wanna go hoooome

mental health

got mentally ill enough that I was very strongly advised to go to A&E so am now spending my waiting room hours trying to make more shit for my radio show. behold, the product of the mind of madness, a little peek into my twisted and fucked up psyche, a glimpse into the malice and insanity etc etc

starting a new belief system where the sky and the earth are both women and it's their homosexual love for each other that means we can all stay alive. gravity? never heard of him. yuri is a fundamental force of the universe. the sky holds the earth close cus she thinks her clocky coastlines are hot

ok so maybe a stupid idea but what if I made YouTube videos about reviewing my favourite other YouTube series

ok! seem to be recovering a little. am slightly less insane. I am not yet recovered enough that I can go to the corner shop without having a flashback but there were a good couple hours there where I even stopped shaking!

holy shit I had no idea how bad it would be to have Christmas as a trigger this sucks so bad lmao how the fuck am I gonna get through December

I am so furious at YouTube for doing this. You have literal gambling ads plastered across your website. The video you take action on contains no real gambling, and is promoting an LGBTQ+ children's charity fundraiser. Absolutely horrendous image and optics for the website. Completely moronic

As we get closer to the holiday season, consider hiring an Actual Artist to make something for those you love <3 details in my pinned! #commissions #commissionsheet

REALLY hate this thing the YouTube app is doing now where it shows you previews of comments in the thing you click on to see all the comments but if it's got a timestamp in it and you click where the timestamp is GOING TO be on the comment preview it's ABOUT TO LOAD it'll think you clicked on it

I love taking a melatonin to try and fix my sleep cycle a bit and it just not working (this is a lie actually I hate it)

throwback to when I watched this live on a projector at the house of my friend who's a decade or so older than me and she saw this line and was like "yknow I did actually hack a mainframe once" and told me about it and trans people are so fucking cool dude lmao

other trans people make being trans so much more doable and I am forever grateful for them

ptsd is such a humiliating mental illness. everything's so involuntary. emotionally it feels like I'm being flung about with a gmod physgun and I'm just stuck reacting to it regardless of situation or company and frankly I'm really tired of it

we're now seeing the stage of ostracisation in the UK where the parts of public life trans people can access are vanishing one by one in a montage like end of evangelion, which makes for a funny post but actually really sucks to be living through as a part of the demographic

wow wow wow trauma anniversaries SUUUUCKKKK I want NO MORE of this feeling please I am TIRED OF IT !!!!

hey!! my housemate got concussed by a fascist and needs money to cover rent n stuff while the cops dawdle on the verdict of whether they also assaulted her or not. (they did)(twice) please give her some money if you can spare it!!! gofund.me/b3e1736ae

hey!! my housemate got concussed by a fascist and needs money to cover rent n stuff while the cops dawdle on the verdict of whether they also assaulted her or not. (they did)(twice) please give her some money if you can spare it!!! gofund.me/b3e1736ae

housemate just came into my room and asked "hey Mae what was the name of that yuri" "you're gonna have to narrow it down" "the one with the uhhh cannibalism" "you are going to have to narrow it down"

sheep are always saying things like "I saw you from across the baa"

just got done reading animal farm. incredible how the cruel and detestable pig really was a metaphor for 2015 social justice warriors this whole time

I really hope I don't come across as extremely unstable. like idk if that would be an INaccurate description of me per se but shutup I don't want people to think I'm nuts

next year it's gonna be the 20th anniversary of sonic 06

if I was a criminal I would simply not return to the scene of the crime

I am being incapacitated by my mental health and awh man that feels so bad. I hate having obvious flashbacks in front of everyone it's so embarrassing lmao

really strugglin with trauma stuff at the moment. gonna be a roouughh couple weeks I think. 2nd of december marks one year since I unrepressed some Bad Shit that happened to me when I was Very young and my life just kinda.. broke. not a clue how ive survived it so far but ill keep goin long as I can

I think one of the best compliments I've ever received was when I was doing my queen deltarune cosplay and someone said the voice I was putting on was their new headcanon voice for her

think I just got an EMDR referral and all it took was having a flashback over the phone at the gmmh guy

heya!! in just a few minutes tune into @transradiouk.com in order to catch my show, extremely online!!! today I'm gonna be talking about the snapcube KH fandub (for the last time I promise I swear) and also the new funny number that just dropped. tune in!!!! 4-5pm GMT transradiouk.com/chat-room/

hello melancholic is just band when you fell from heaven. at least to me. im yuriposting

now is a really bad time for me to figure out that Christmas is a bit of a trauma trigger for me. goddamnit that sucks okay lmao

excellent timing for combination realtime fandub and adventure time fans as the guy holly has been doing an impression of for the last five weeks showed up in the newest Fionna and cake and was INSTANTLY recognisable lmao

goddamn this is a tougher tdor than I was expecting. I miss jude. I miss willow. absolutely devastated I never got the chance to know either of them better. what a loss to the world

just got what might be one of Britain's last ever issued HRT bridging prescriptions and honestly the fact they're expecting me to go from 4mg weekly Estradiol enanthate injections to this is hilarious

the future is so scary

a little bit annoyed how my entire skeletomuscular system has randomly decided to be in a BUNCH of pain these past few days like my knees and legs are usually in some degree of pain but now it's my whole dang self. what the hell. can this stop soon

heya!! in just a couple minutes I'm going LIVE on @transradiouk.com with a tech issues riddled edition of my show, EXTREMELY ONLINE!! pc's breakin and my mic is weird but I've got some cool songs n jokes lined up so everything will be fine I'm sure. tune in 4-5pm GMT!! transradiouk.com/chat-room/

can the liberal men political cartoonists on this site please stop drawing cutesy newspaper style caricature doodles of peoples real childhood sexual assaults to make a quick joke

shout out to funny voices trans women I love you other trans women who do funny voices

two of my purple scarves got tangled together in the wash and I'm choosing to see this, too, as yuri

we're probably never gonna get a "how do we relationship" anime and that makes me so sad

need to be put in one of those things that influencers put boiled eggs in to make them cubes

British English life is strange localisation called "life's a funny old thing innit"

morshu is a vocaloid

A lot of well meaning cis allies will still be under the impression that your average trans girl grew up just like the boys around her. I don't think many actually understand just how frequently people picked up on how we are different and considered hurting as a victimless action

why is it that my bestie is better at picking up on when I'm having a flashback than I am

heya friends!! if you wanna hear an hour of video game OST and anime ops tune into @transradiouk.com for my show, EXTREMELY ONLINE!!! today I'm gonna be talking about bunlith the witch upstairs, a yuri anime and my usual lil funnies!! should be a fun time!!!!! 4-5pm GMT transradiouk.com/chat-room/

don't worry guys. we met up at this doctor who filming location and pledged that no child at Ruskin high school in Crewe will look at tiktok at lunch ever again. we must make sure that no trans kid facing violent bigotry can ever access support from her friends online ever again. we did good today