hey guys first time getting off valproate and i can literally feel my brain packing a suitcase haha if i start levitating no you didn’t uwu

WOOHOO bpd rage storm passed, i’ll crawl back to writing my dumb little novels yay

and u know what’s actually fucking pathetic? a STRANGER on the internet saved me. some man miles away cared more about me than the people who raised me. let that sink in. that’s how fucking low you set the bar. that’s how catastrophically you failed.

I don’t give a single fuck if im repetitive. i want OUT of this rotting, suffocating shithole. this city chewed me up, spat me out, called me crazy, stuffed me with useless meds and dead-eyed shrinks

im about to lock in my escape from this broken house and my nervous system is screaming confetti

skircle SATURDAY .#rebelling

fuck my bf ignoring me makes me feel so fucking sad and feral at once im crying into the chocolate im binging and chain smoking like a tragic main character im trying not to implodeEEEEEE

the best christmas present i got this year: emotional blackmail from my mum!! wrapped in guilt, tied with tears, smiling like it’s love while it crushes me!! merry christmas everyone!!

damn i haven’t cried this much in ages

my bf is the most devastatingly perfect thing alive, i love him i need him i’m nothing without him every second apart feels like i’m dying

im so clingy its almost embarrassing lol

People when a jirai girl is unhinged, mentally ill, explosive, has issues with substances & is completely fucked in the head!! #jiraiposting

christmas was ok-ish presents were meh zolpidem is a gift from the gods holy zolpidem

my bf is such an angel

im bitching so much about christmas lol justttt wish me luck for this hellish night with my shitty family send me prayers or good vibes or money whatever you see fit

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whatever i’m going to smoke

i want a quality cutting sesh but im trying to stay clean ugh

literally: “alive only for him”

i need my bf

I HATE CHRISTMASSSSSSSS

oh god, tomorrow is Christmas Eve.. breathe, breathe.. i honestly don’t think im getting out of this intact.. in dysfunctional families the mentally ill girl is always the scapegoat forced to swallow verbal abuse, humiliations, accusations, on repeat, forever

i miss himmm

you’ll always be by my side, right? i love you more than anything in the world and every second i spend without you i miss you deeply i miss you, i miss you, i miss you

quick show me ur favourite bpd meme

ahah bpd rage so funny so bpd ahah am i right *sweats nervously*

my family forced me to spend christmas with them AGAIN every fucking year i BEG to be left alone and every year they drown me in guilt (their fucking specialty). masters at crushing souls while acting like nothing’s wrong just like last year, the year before, the year before that…

and my family started accusing me of faking my anemia diagnosis exactly because…….?! oh yes mom i just ADORE being anemic!! so cute!! look at my pathetic little red blood cells🥺 what the actual fuck is wrong with them. they’re batshit crazy and yet im the one in therapy

apparently people think screaming at me and calling me disgusting over my sleep issues will somehow magically fix me then they get even madder when i just stare back like 😶 nothing behind the eyes

god i love discord dramas and anyway that stupid mod asked to be exposed for being a fucking creep

unsolicited health update: sleep schedule? basically extinct

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Bags I bought, bag I use

genuine question: why does the western jirai kei community seem so invested in yume shipping? if you’re familiar with both communities i’d love to hear your perspective!

be an asshole to me and don’t act shocked when i when i hit back harder you’ll cry, call me cruel, paint me the villain and honestly it’s hilarious

oh my god.

it’s insane how my mind digs up every buried trauma just to craft the most soul breaking nightmares

cried my eyes out… it was far too much for my heart to handle, emotionally speaking… i love my bf to pieces so when he spirals over something i did it drowns me in a sadness so sharp and wild I can’t even put it into words

ordering foundation online is such a hassle (╥﹏╥)

jirai kei lambdabern #umineko

hi #jiraisky ૮꒰ྀི⊃´ ꒳ `⊂ྀི꒱ა ♡

money is never enough for all the shit i need to fill the void

im sleeping like 13 hours a day

Chiikawa x Sanrio - Plush Momonga & Kuromi - Check it out on meccha-japan! #Chiikawa #Sanrio

please for the love of god i need an active #jiraisky community

💭🧠 .. ⸝⸝ intro… ryu / りゅう~ she/her 日本語🆗 ⁠♡ 157 cm INFJ 4w3 ꒦꒷ jirai kei / menhera 💉 bipolar ii; borderline; dependent personality 🩹 #jiraisky #jiraiblr #moots ♡︎/⟳ if u wanna be moots ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ ᰔ