Spilled coffee on my lap cuz I was trying to put the seatbelt on n put the cardboard cup between le thighs… squeezed too hard.

Breakdown after breakdown,,, And my bladder is crappy today. Oh wow look at that, another smoke break. (I don’t smoke, I just sit here staring at my phone…) Man.

Well first they go smoke like 3 times and drink coffee, and then they start around 8?? And I totally fumbled packing the boxes cuz I didn’t know how much of which was supposed to go into a box and didn’t ask cuz I didn’t wanna be a bother but also now I’m just an inconvenience cuz too much cabbage.

Don’t remember what time the boss lady asked me to come in tomorrow,,,, but the paper says 7, so I should be there at 7? But she most definitely didn’t say 7… More like Viertel or Dreiviertel… so 7:30 or 7:45? Why couldn’t she write it down on paper 😩?? The words left her and I mhm’d but I forgot

The Boss Lady said something about it starting earlier normally. Today was at 8 cuz I’m new or whatever, but apparently I gotta be there at 7 AM on a regular day. 🫠 Except Thursday… hours get pushed back there, but the lady didn’t elaborate… and I already forgot most of the stuff she said to me.

Ya go back to work irl and suddenly all the suicidal thoughts come back. What’s up with that???

Peeling off the gross leafs from lettuce and sorting through rotten apples or whatever… for 1,50€ an hour… really ain’t it. I’ve wasted my youth. I’m gonna try vtubing again. 😭

I found the place and we got a breakfast break. I’m just staring at my phone now. Had to pack boxes with vegetables n bread and stuff. I feel like the worst introvert to ever exist. But at least the tasks aren’t hard so far…

I don’t even know where I’m supposed to go tomorrow. The Jobcenter Lady told me the road name… and the general direction… but I’m looking at the Google maps and I ??? Still don’t know where the entry is ?? I’m gonna cry if I can’t find it. Can’t even bring my mom along cuz I’m 26 years old.

Depending on how life goes, there prolly won’t be new art from me until March. Or I’ll only draw cats. I don’t wanna be too dramatic but the burnout is really bad this time around.

What do you even do at a food pantry? Sort through cabbages? I feel like a big dummy for not knowing anything whatsoever. And it’s gonna last until the end of February,,, five hours a day isn’t that bad but also?? Am I gonna miss out on my granny’s bday on Tuesday if it’s every day of the week?

Fang ab Montag bei der Tafel an, weil meiner Beraterin vom Jobcenter die Ideen ausgegangen sind und ich nicht weiß was ich mit mir selbst anfangen soll. Nur weil ich nicht in Therapie gehen will. Ist auch komisch. Dann kam sie mir mit „da gehen Leute hin, die sich selbst aufgegeben haben“. 🥲

Everything in life is going terrible right now. There is only blah blah and complaints. Never anything good or positive,,, it’s all just bad or neutral or empty. I’m itchy and my spleen hurts :( Listening to the sound of my bunnies chewing is the only thing keeping me sane rn.

Reached a point where I just don’t do anything anymore. Aside from occasionally doing dishes, laundry, cleaning the bunny room… I just lay here and scroll the tiktok, looking for something to laugh at. The algorithm fucking sucks as well,,, they don’t even show me anything good. I hate it here.

Coffee makes my spleen hurt. (At least I think it’s the spleen? It’s on my left by the ribs.) I only drink 1 or 2 mugs of instant coffee a day,,, but apparently that’s too much to handle now. I also get asthmatic from the tummy acid fumes whilst digesting, or whatever. It’s weird.

Doctor is away for some schooling shtick,,, all week long,,,, and I’m too spooked by strangers to look for a stand-in doc to get a new asthma spray inhaler prescription. Guess I’ll die. 😩

Can’t believe I haven’t drawn since ~Halloween,,, it’s so over.

Breathing sucks and I’ve been all out of asthma spray inhaler shtick since ~Tuesday,,,, but was too tired to go to the doc,,, and the lady got horrible opening hours on most days. But if I don’t go on Monday, I might genuinely perish cuz I can’t breathe lmao.

Mom cleaned the dishes and then complained how she cleaned “my” dishes… bruh, I used one (1) mug and a plate. The hell you mean “my” dishes?? I didn’t even dirty anything yesterday cuz I wasn’t home?? Also, if you would’ve waited two more hours, I would have cleaned the dishes myself…

My home makes me miserable. The fact that I gotta hang up laundry and do the dishes, now that I’m back, is pissing me off. I spend one night away and aside from missing my bunnies, it was great. Tasty food, no corn-bugs or crumbs in my bed, no blabbering from mom, no waiting for the mailwoman…

Back home, time to snooze. Should have worn different shoes. Everything hurts. I’m still too short to see anything at concerts. Concert overall felt kinda mid. The songs were good, tho it were the exact same ones as last time besides ~3 new songs. I think I’m just getting too old for this.

Going to a concert tonight and lil sis booked us an air bnb cuz trains don’t drive back home that late and I am feeling awful in my guts lolol. Also it’s cold!! Like damn!! Why is it so cold all of a sudden???

Why are groceries 40€? It won’t even last a whole week… this is just to get us through the weekend??? (Bunnies wanted veggies and apples, mom wanted chocolate and some miscellaneous food items, I got a pastry… but I still don’t get how all of that accumulates to 40€…) And I still don’t have a job.

Being an adult sucks. I’m going back to bed. At least I got lotsa sweets and a capybara plushie out of turning a year older.

So apparently bank accounts are no longer free once you turn 26…

Got an ai generated mug for my 26th birthday. 🥲 Adult life is rough.

It’s past midnight, which means it’s birthday time, which means I gotta update the age in my bio everywhere.

Another trashy doodle for the pile.

We’ve been awake since 7 am… It’s now 12 o’lunch… I haven’t done anything all day,,,, besides doomscrolling. This isn’t helping with my depression,,, but I’m too apathetic to do anything else. I’m not in the mood to clean or draw, I don’t wanna do anything. Everything sucks today. I’m tired.

Apparently granny got issues with her leg and can’t walk properly anymore. Mom will take her to the doctor later. Granny said it started two weeks ago… so she prolly wanted to wait it out, like usual, but it only got worse. Wish she would’ve said something sooner…

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Ew, bluesky is a different shade of blue now. What happened?

Vector is back in duel links but I already have him, sooo… not much need to replay the event, right? Unless…

Looked at the calendar,,,, My birthday is in a week. 💀💀💀

Fomo got to me…

Also had to go out at 9am to watch dad take apart a closet at lil sis’ old place and help him move it down from the fifth floor (highest floor in the building),,, up and down and up and down to the car,,, and then to her new flat to rebuild it. And he said we’ll go back after dinner :(

Dad said to text him if it rains, so he can pick me up. I make it halfway home, trying to be fast about it, so I won’t bother him… And then right in the middle of town, it pours buckets from above. But since I was already soaked and halfway home, I just kept walking. Still gotta shower anyway.

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Am cold and depressed and I still gotta wash the dishes,,,, ueueue,,, no art is getting done today.

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Man, I’ll be turning 26 years old next month. I kinda forgot I was still getting birthdays, being stuck in limbo and all. How dreadful.

Dad is on a video call with a literal baby (it’s from my aunt) and it sure is making loud baby noises.

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