Is the sky still blue to you, or started to feel gray? Is the night calming you and the moonshine guiding you, or is the loneliness of the night starting to feel too much? Is the sun of the new day still greeting you gently or not anymore? . .. . .. ... . .. . .. .

I didn't have enough savings for a new pc to replace my old laptop n now that I see some light, the RAM went 3times higher... sigh...

Scattered Tools - Scattered Minds Hey guys. Hello. สวัสดี. Meow meow I feel so lonely. Is it a good idea to type like this? idk. Anyway~ have a good day!

It's been 4yrs since I first tried pixel art n I feel so nostalgic looking at these in my [Old work_pixel art] folder. Also, one of my darkest phases (mental health). I used to believe that it was the start of my Afterlife, marking the start of the day of slowly trying to be alive again.

[ hbd 🍰🕯️]

Trying to balance between expressing the emotions in the moment and carefully drawing without having much plan. I'm glad it turned out well. ✏️🖋️

For most people, it might not be that hard to get encouragement here n there in daily life. I know it's much healthier to enjoy what you do on your own n not care about compliments, opinions, and encouragements, but many times I just feel like I'm walking alone n been alone for a long time...

I like vending machines n appreciate the variety of drinks or products they offer. And most of the drinks here are based on the ones I like the most, condensed into my ink drawing. They're kinda cute~

Vases and Ink I draw these vases directly with ink—no pencil, no planning—embracing mistakes and reminding myself it’s okay if something doesn’t feel good enough. It is part of how I deal with pressure and expectations. I can’t erase or fix it—only adjust what’s already there.

can't believe it's almost a year since I drew this...

low energy/mood days

While I started to develop some resistance toward this feeling, still... having Blue Screen surprised you once in a while really isn't good for my soul. 😭 Sometimes I was like- ok, time for some rest, but sometimes also- it felt like a little slap on your face.

Perhaps the healthiest relationship I can have with myself is to accept that I'm just me — a normal person. And when I slip, instead of looking down on myself and thinking, "You're getting reckless, you can do better than this," I would say, "Ah, I slipped. Let's fix it and keep going."

It's a bit funny how I look back at my past self and want to hug him, while I believe that my past self also wants to hug my present self. You have an empathy for your younger self n your younger self has an empathy for your struggle adult self.

This piece is my happy accident. I was feeling so down back then, blasting my favorite anime songs, melting into my desk, and thinking about a memory of myself in a music studio as a student, feeling lonely, fragile, n also feeling that emotional weight that connected with me n the past.

Trying to test what I learn a bit, it's pretty hard to maintain control. My weaknesses are proportion and pressure control (both my hand and literally my mind)

I feel I cannot let it go I feel so much

Don't wanna admit but after I didn't touch the drawing program (except pixel art) for a few years due to my laptop condition, I looked back at the colorful side of my old artworks n kinda miss the nice/eye candy side of using color in drawing. Maybe after I can afford a new pc, I will try it again.

eye time.

new day, new BSOD... I wanna bite my laptop hard. nom nom nom. 🦷🦷🦷💻

I’m inspired by the idea that two parts of me connect and talk to each other. This is the part I like, the one tied to my artistic side. Maybe it’s just me and my thoughts, but for me, they’re usually clear and independent. And I think others might feel the same way, too. who knows.

Not sure if it's a hobby but I like to scroll through my old sketchbooks sometimes. And it gives a nice feeling... Seeing your self-portrait in anime style from 12yrs ago is something :3 n even my younger self's crush in the small corner. Wait! Is this a first sign of being older!? noooo hahaha

idk why but today when I was just scrolling. I keep looking at the architecture, sculpture, art-related stuff from ancient times, n some of them are so special. It made my mind fantasize about the scenery n atmosphere of the past. I can feel the connection even though it's been thousands of years.

Little Coins in the Jar One of my favorite drawings—I keep looking back at it from time to time. It shows a softer side of me, the kind that smiles because something looks cute, without all the extra thoughts or overthinking.

This is a simplified style of mine. I wanted it to carry a heaviness, but still feel light against the background -mixed emotions. I also left just a tiny bit of description n title to connect with the viewer, while leaving the rest for them to feel on their own.

please my dear laptop, please dont die on me yet. It's ok for you to have BSOD sometimes, but dont go yet. 💛

Just noticed the tilt after I put down my pen. kinda looks funny. ( ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ sᴏᴍᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛᴏᴏ ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴠᴍ. )

Draw something with ref. using a pen.

Life feels pretty overwhelming but I do appreciate that I have time to slow down on things. There are so many conflicts both inside n outside of my country but I need this, I need a time to slow down n move my hand with the pen n pencil.

Sharp The feeling when I drew this was so intense and heavy, I had to stop myself from scratching too hard and ruining the canvas… but it also left me weirdly relieved. Maybe it’s just my brain doing something and helping me in a way I didn’t even notice—who knows, ehehe.

It's funny how I have so many fears about posting new style art on my X. Like they're gonna say things like: Why is your art changing? Why does it look unfinished? Why does it look pretty random? People suffer from the algo daily- of course inactive users like me will have 0 engagements...

playing with some CRT shader with ShaderGlass.

While this one is one a more mysterious side, I actually just want to invoke a feeling of someone that looking at you gently but also haunted. It had my personal experience in it but I want people to feel it in their own ways so I go with a simpler description. FND: foundation.app/mint/base/0x...

This is kinda weird but after I avoided thinking about some tragic moments cuz I think that focusing on it would make me drown( and it used to.) This time it's actually making me feel lighter. Maybe just thinking about it randomly isn't enough to process it. Maybe I need to drown sometimes... (1)

I used to be too young to care about it, but lately, it has become a concept that visits my mind. It used to feel far away, like a scene from a random movie, that only happened as a fiction. I avoided drowning in it but this amount of drawing is ok for me. FND: foundation.app/mint/base/0x...

It feels surreal to upload artwork again and see myself as an artist. But here it is. I spent some time finding the name and writing the description. I gather the experience and emotion I felt from this piece into words. I hope it connects with someone out there. FND: foundation.app/mint/base/0x...

I hate war.

I just realized that a new fear has been born in me, fear of death. I never thought about it before because I'm still young and most of my fears are about financial or betrayal but after witnessed the death of my friend. It made me realize that my life can actually end. Everything can actually go.

draw

Sometimes I create a new canvas n draw using ink without any goal.

ink

left - study from ref. right - chibi design from ref.

A whisper from the past A whisper from the present A whisper from the future- A whisper of your story.

"Even though I’ve been really inactive on social media, I want you to know that I am still trying. I know some people might be disappointed that I haven’t posted any finished artwork in a long time—it's been nearly a year—but I haven’t stopped drawing. I’m still healing and working through things-

On the right is a bit darker cuz I took a picture at night. Some of my "Reconnect with drawing"