I’m scared people will think I abandon them on insta. It’s delusional and I don’t even owe people, and I’m projecting my own fear. Faking self worth Maybe so. Fuck do I know? I’m a choate, possessed and struggling not to hate myself. I’m trying to form a script that works for everyone, I just fail.

An old friend called, she has brain cancer. I’m starting to really have survivor guilt. I’ve done everything wrong and so many of my friends and fam are gone or fighting terminal illness.

I hard co-sign this one.

Is it day 2 or 3? Ugh i miss the dopamine of insta, I hate to admit it. The last act I did a split with contacted me through email to check on me. I nearly cried. I didn’t have the heart to admit I’m on another network with no followers. Someone close to me said nobody cares online and I disagree

Doc loaded me up with 2 weeks of steroids for the cancer pain. This should be interesting.

😃 I think that’s a good review 😂

I’m in a bad spot. I’ve deactivated insta for 7 days while I decide what to do. It’s time for me to make some major changes in life. I may deactivate those forever, but if so I’ll show back up again once things change.

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Thinking you are strong for withstanding mental abuse has to be the dumbest feeling in the universe. People love what they get out of you, much less care about your needs.

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Saudade is a unique Portuguese and Galician word for a deep, melancholic longing or nostalgia for something or someone lost or absent, often with a bittersweet quality and a recognition that it may never return.

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Hormonal depression is the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. On month nine of Lupron injection and no insurance/ no surgery planned. DOGE closed the loophole so I have to wait till January. I should be ok from the cancer going stage 4, but I’m really struggling with the depression.

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