my dad texted me in the middle of the night asking if i’ve heard of chainsaw man, b/c he was on a flight and was thinking about watching it since he knows i like anime 😭

there’s a lot of use crying over spilled milk actually. why wouldn’t i cry if i spill my nice drink

i cannot overstate the importance of 2020 hyperpop to my development as a human being

i’m the most irredeemable person that i know

i miss david lynch so much still

this happened to me

there’s two squirrels i’ve been watching who climb up and down the tallest tree in my neighborhood, jumping limb to limb & chasing each other. they do this seemingly daily

after like 8 years of being washed i’m finally ready to lock in

if humans invented the sky there’s no way we’d have let it be something colorful like blue. man made sky would be an ugly drab gray

🙂

sold my soul, now my soul’s gone

i hate what love’s turned out to be

gay sematary be like “getting topped in that drop top with my top off”

showed my chaser fake bf a faceapp photo of me looking cuntified with longer hair and he goes “i can see why that one would damage your psyche” 😡👿

oof

one of my boobs is officially bigger than the other and i’d like them to sort themselves out pls

ordering anti-autism pills from dr oz’s website and seeing boner pills under “People like you also purchased…”

that first sip of dr pepper after 24 hours of not eating goes insane

just another day in the life i guess 🤭

ugly sobbing finishing manhunt you can’t doooo this to me

now how in the hell am i supposed to explain to my mother what “*notices bulge* OwO what’s this?” means.

is today the day normies find out about groypers

the wolf’s cry at midnight is here to remind me where what’s real’s uncertain is where you will find me

i’m not really me i’m just acting

🔄

i’m gonna regret this (forever)

crying over the death of a 30 year old horse because the anime horse girl embodiment of her is so cute and pure

i stay alone in my room cuz i hate meowself 3:

😀🔫

that was a fun 2-3 days of feeling ok, time to go back to the endless void

i actually love sematary and bladee so much that i like jump up and down and squeal when i think of them i’m #cooked

god is love is my love, cold

horse girls are one of the only things keeping me going 🫡

the derealization has me browsing through the magna carta on wikipedia

1 hour of being sober got me like

waco texas and millennium actress prove that love is not possible in this lifetime and you should probably just give up actually

so i bled til i cried, til i felt i might die to be known the way you should is to put yourself through hell still i waited and tried, til it killed me cause you’re right i can wait if i want but it’ll never be good enough like i want to believe it is

every day i wake up to the same fucking thing

i’m not trying to complain but i’ve realized that my thoughts are ruminations or obsessions / compulsions 99% of the time, to the point i’ve identified them as just being who i am. i don’t feel like a living human being

there are so many small things in life im afraid i’ll never experience and it makes me feel so empty

grew up hard, fell off harder cooking our brains, smoking that shit your daddy smoked in vietnam

atomizing myself into trillions of disparate subparticles

how much of a cruel year can you call my fault

to love me is to suffer me

watch my dreams getting crushed, turn my dreams into dust

i’m sinking it goes up to my chin white white white, gray to black eversince

3am again

3am yayayay