I am not dealing with life very well atm

I hate my life

I turn 56 in two weeks... I am not sure I want to really go beyond it... what's the point anymore 😕

In the summer of 2019, 49th year, I honestly felt like killing myself. I saw no point in turning 50. Fat, ugly, loser. That's me. With the way the world feels right now I wonder if maybe I did do it and I am currently stuck in purgatory.

I hate my life... i haven't been happy in a long time. I honestly don't think I will ever be happy again I just want to go away 😕

Pretty much how it feels atm.

Friday morning, 6am, -28c outside.. Christ i don't want to go to work, I don't want to face the world or deal with people.

Not going to lie.. atm I honestly feel like I just shouldn't be around anymore..just go away..permanently.

Just not stopping snowing

Joy ... more snow

Snow....ugh

Snowy day.. 10 to 20 cm expected

The drive in was not fun. Not looking forward to snowblowing my driveway tonight. Hopefully they fixed the .

Happy New Year 2026 everyone.

If you're on threads watch put for this scammer

Ahhh yes, its all coming together...

Merry Christmas everyone

Lego Star Trek Enterprise D set

Relaxing

Xmas tree up at parents.

Winter.. joy...

-20c this morning.. joy.

Winter is here

620am..snow blowed driveway, it's wet and heavy snow. Finally got on the road at 720. Roads are not good. Everyone driving 10 to 20 under the limit. Going to be a ugly weather day.

Only -18c this morning.

-25c this morning... brrrŕr

@kinkybellahart.bsky.social love your work. You are so stunning, sexy, erotic and sinfully beautiful. I get frustrated hard from your pics and vids.

Winter... joy..

Me too, Wil.

@goddesswhortica.bsky.social so.. matching panties to the dress?

Seriously thinking a bottle of sleeping pills is what I need atm.

And another bday is yet again a total shit day... one could always hope that this day would be a good day.. but nope.

@scalzi.com finished Starter Villian. Fun book. I got Kaiju Appreciation Society to start today. Enjoyed all your books.

I hate my life

Giant puppy visiting me at work..

President Volodymyr Zelenskyy is not a dictator. He is a champion of democracy, freedom and truth.

I really think I am close to a full breakdown.. I am not sure I can handle everything here..

I am not sure I am going to make it through this year.. every day I wake up and I honestly think why am I bothering staying alive

Snowy Tuesday

Lost precious Hannah today.

The view from work atm. Snow day.

I seriously hate my life atm..and honestly think maybe I should just not wake up anymore

I honestly hate my life and myself atm.

I hate the constant drama

So far this year sucks

True luxury is found in the simplest moments.