BPD is one of the only disorders you’re not born with. it can develop due to environmental-factors while growing up (drug addicted household, parent abandonment, emotional neglect, physical abuse, etc) compounded with years of trauma. 1/6

Thinkin the final stage of healing, is making peace with being misunderstood. And disliked.

“Where do you see yourself in five years?” In a body bag dude.

Not a lot going on. #anxiety #mentalhealth

I’ll honk at anyone in traffic. I’ll worry about what gun you got later

There is a very specific fatigue that comes from knowing exactly what is happening, explaining exactly what is happening, being told you are overreacting, and then watching exactly what is happening happen with excellent punctuality.

“𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘍𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳’𝘴 𝘋𝘢𝘺?” “Oh not much, just celebrating the pervasive and enduring trauma he inflicted upon me.” #fathersday #mentalhealth

Me checking my phone every morning like someone actually cares about me

“Melanophilia” -Love for darkness, the color black, or all things shadowed.

what I am becoming does not have to be earned through suffering

would you rather be mauled by 20 lions or hang out with me for a little

Jason ripping open the tent to find Unknown inside. #deadbydaylight #dbd #JasonUniverse

dedicating a portion of my night to cast a circle and commune for thunderstorms and tornadoes tomorrow for Trump’s birthday event

would you rather get shot 25 times or hang out with me for a little bit

thought I might be autistic until I learned that the brain damage from CPTSD can mimic autistic symptoms to the point where it's impossible to tell the difference.

my coworker today did something nice for me and I meant to say “i would kill for you” but instead I just said “I’ll kill you”

been toying with the idea of feeling things a normal amount and not being insane about everything

“I’m scared my parents will find out.” If i’m being honest, I’m only open to friendships with people who have stood up to their parents at least once before. at least I know you’re honest.

waking up this morning to the new Bullseye costume

You are not like AI. You’re more like a garden. You need different things on different days. A little sun today, a little less water tomorrow. You have fallow and fruitful seasons. It’s not a design flaw. It’s something wiser.

the American Trolley Paradox: pulling the lever changes the trolley from red to blue nothing else is altered

I hate people who fish for compliments “i’m so dumb” like yeah- you up there

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times i have.

I’m not really into labels… But I’ll wear this one

People with no character development scare me. How are you literally the same person you were four years ago, doing the same exact things?

guys I’m bored home on a Friday night does anyone wanna stare at a desolate cabin together or something

I'm trying to be less condescending. I bet you don't even know what that means.

If you die in Ohio you die in real life.

“𝘔𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘬…” Happy World Goth Day- How are you celebrating? #WorldGothDay #Goth #Wiccan #DarkAesthetic #GothWitch #Holiday

could easily read The VVitch as a feminist movie. I could. Anyone could. Any movie with a witch that's just a low hanging fruit. But also… Its entire script is premised on taking Puritan folk tales sincerely and deathly seriously.

you just finished the boys? Yeah, i bet you did

Society rn feels like when you know you’re gonna vomit but your body is still building up to it

“if i were you-“ if you were me you probably would’ve blown your shit smoove off by now

“listen to your body” my body: quit your job. disappear from society. befriend the crows. abandon everything and become one with the trees

Bozhe moi…

Me every two weeks:

The sun coming out and spring arriving makes you feel good, because you are a creature, not a machine. You have more in common with grass and tides than with a device in your hand. You move in rhythm with the sun and the moon, not on demand like AI. You are a creature.

A cage. To stay behind bars, until use and old age accept them, and all chance of doing great deeds is gone beyond recall or desire.

was explaining to a friend recently, that I'm sad as a baseline the other moods pass more quickly, like transient ones. So I'm happy for a while, anxious for a while, cheerful for a while… but deep down I'm always sad

as a really little kid in the 90’s, I really thought quicksand was gonna play a larger role in my life

"you're so funny" thanks i probably would've been lobotomized in 1940

The Pope wears Nikes. … 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘋𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘭 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘗𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘢.

(zero drinks in) do you think the shame and guilt will ever go away

just realized when i get a partner that means my family is gonna know that I have feelings

girl dinner but it’s just cocktails and hexing everyone who has ever wronged us

I hate the idea that Americans won’t revolt because we’re ”lazy” and not because our government has spent the better part of 100 years and trillions of dollars /perfecting/ the art of global counterrevolution and repression. This is literally the final boss.

I liked like 4 feminist posts and my tl started showing me posts from the "Kill all men" crowd

no babe i love how 40 you are

Celsius drinks mess me up but in a fun way