one of those days where I just feel anxious about Everything

Apparently they have birria ramen cups nowadays..... interesting

An old comic about living with suicidal ideation, called head in a jar.

Stubbornly becoming better little by little even if I can't recognize it sometimes

I get a bit of time to myself todayy *smacks face into pillow*

I got a fidget spinner (one of my nephews' I imagine) and it's actually pretty nice to just mess with it

I think I'll never really be able to get over the "I wish I could Be Better At Things Faster" wall (not on my own anyway) but at the very least I can try my best regardless

Family time is drainingg, fweh

Oh shit twilight princess decomp

Allergies have been acting up again (probably because the weather's been Weird lately) and I still feel a lot of general malaise hanging over my head but, aaaaa

a. feeling anxious today

video gaaaaaames

i love you, too

The laundromat is so empty today ..... very spooky (ignoring the loud TV in the corner)

FooOOood, rahhhh

I like all my friends a lot even if/when I'm distant and bad at showing it of....

meow meow meow meow meow meow

happy trans day

At chili’s

Hello friends today I'm going to attempt to install linux mint into the old HDD because: why not

Usually these days I go "my energy is almost entirely on drawing, I dunno if I can do writing as well anymore", but then I get the chance to do so and then be all "hell yeah I like writing stuff, writing is cool" again and things are Nice

Today I pray to the gods that the water guy comes by today so I can get my jug refilled because oops I ran out of water already (it's hot, augh)

Medi, while rummaging through stuff tonight: oh heck I forgot I had a box for this one gamer keyboard I bought years ago, maybe with this i can actually fix my linux isues with the Apex-- noooooo it's *another* flat-cap one, why do I have two of these things ahhhhh

Also I want Mac and cheese now and I just realized I can use the cheddar to make it at home now. Hmmmm

Thinking about identity is a handful sometimes

Despite going through a full block of cheese and another going moldy (my fault on that), I still have three blocks' worth of cheddar in the freezer.....

I feel bad for thinking "I feel lonely" but I am also too awkward about taking the initiative to do things with other people without worrying about a dozen different things. buh

Re-installing windows, not because I want to stay with it but I feel I spend too much time tinkering with and hopping through so many distros that I haven't been too productive at all in so long, bluh Computer-ing is fun but I have to draw...

I hope that one day being "myself" feels like a favorable thing more so than a deep inconvenience

Do you ever fall asleep again and wake up at 1pm

Jolted awake today after feeling like someone was suddenly poking me on the side. oouf

hwuughghhhhghhh

( I think that's like, another point for the "man I hope I don't have ADHD on top of already being too suspect on autism + depression" side of things that, but, I dunno)

I think spending my entire school life basically coursing through without really spending much effort into it probably fucked with my ability to do any kind of studying (in general)

Cooking is hard sometimes, mostly because I can be simultaneously "I am hungry, so I should make food" and "I do not have the energy to cook right now because I am hugnry" so I just end up slapping a sandwich together instead

T-Thank you, youtube auto-playlist

Flintstones: Dead Money???

Mentally I am very "whatever" right now for all that's worth, but at least I'm not throwing up every day which is a plus

I posted this sometime in early 2025.... And I think I finally reached my peak form Between playing more games with my kids and really drilling down into what I enjoy as an old man.. It's *Metroidvanias *Arcade style games *Rogue types 2026 I've beat Bloodstained and working on Ball x Pit now!

I think I need to just go on a. Trip or something, like be outside the house for an extended period of time for once. Go outside as it were

I wish I was somebody else, I wish I was normal, I wish I wasn't a broke and barely functioning awkward mess most of the time, ughhhh

Cleansing myself of being irritated about that asinine dismissive take about rendered art by with some of the chipping away at one of my poster orders I have been doing Happy with how the sheer fabric and sequencing is looking so far but I am itching to get on that BG

sigh!

I gave a RIP to my controller and thought of getting another one, but out of curiosity I plugged it in again and it works fine now?? no drifting like it caught before at least I guess I'm blaming windows for that one...... (i am on penguin now)