My PC is almost fully funded, just final stretch and I just want to raise a smidge more, if possible, to make sure I can get PC and pay bills this month! If you want to help out, any lil bit counts! 🎁 Throne - throne.com/fuululuu/ite... ☕ Kofi - ko-fi.com/fuululuu

Something for Valentine's. Always wanted to draw these two, and still rooting for that potential reunion. 🥰 #ffxiv #ffxivart #yshtola #runar

i has happy post. The pain in my jaw is down to a 1 or 2 of 10. My headache is a dull roar instead of an icepick. My throat only slightly hurts and its just day 3 of the antibiotic. YAY! 4 more days and i should be good to go~ Thanks for listening to me whine. Have another pic of Melancholy~

My tooth was still hurting so bad because the temp filling the assistant put in was expanding and putting huge pressure on the hurting tooth. Now that i've dug it out, the pain went from a 20 of 10 to like a 4 of 10. thank fuck...

day 2, still can't sleep. I've been sleeping in bursts. Like 30m here an hour there. I really hope the antibiotic brings down the infection today so i can sleep. This jaw pain is unbearable and it only gets worse when I'm horizontal.

Update on the tooth. They couldn't pull it. There was a massive abscess so even when under the maximum amount of local anesthesia, i could still feel that tooth. Which explains a lot. My swollen lymph node on that side? My sore throat on that side? All of it. Explained by an abscess. Neato. -_-

So, I've taken inspiration from someone i admire and i want to share something personal. It is how i kind of see myself online. I know y'all will be kind. Meet Melancholy.

All numbed up. Getting the tooth problem fixed. Woo.

In 15 minutes, I will wake Fey up. In 30 minutes, we will leave for the dentists office. In an hour, I will have some semblance of relief. After 24 hours of not being able to sleep, I welcome any relief.

i can't sleep. I'm sorry for whatever i did to deserve this pain. i have 9 more hours until i can get any relief.

SO much for emergency dentists. Soonest i can be out of this immense pain is tomorrow morning at 11am. Wonderful. I'll have dealt with agonizing tooth pain for 36 hours at that point ; ; The are going to tell me they want to save it. I'm going to tell them i don't care...

GO BIRDS! Congrats to all my friends in Philly~

Me: "Yay everything is getting better and i hurt less!" My tooth: "bet" ; ; stupid bastard

Faith in humanity story time. I wore a bright red ribbon in my hair when was at the market the other day. Like Aereith from FF7. I'm standing there when i heard these two average looking college bros bickering. One of the lightly pushes the other and says "say something, Pussy" cont.

Good news~ The Antibiotics are working and my lymph node feels squishy instead of hard. It also feels ... deeper? Less pronounced? I dunno how to put that but i can feel it less! I'm excited that everything will be back to "normal" and i can be less anxious~

SO, I finally have my antibiotics. I'm now taking the correct dose of my anxiety meds and i'm hopeful. I just have to make it through the current constant creeping anxiety and i'll come out on the other side healthier and happier. I know i will. Thank you for anyone and everyone who's been kind <3

I hope my #anxiety meds start to take full effect soon. It's getting better in some areas and much much worse in others. Now I'm starting to feel like some of my friends are getting frustrated. I know I talk about it a lot but i have to. I have to get it out or i hyperfocus. ; ; I'm sorry...

Today was extremely bad. ><; The new meds are working, mostly, but honestly, the temporary bs while my body gets used to them is pretty gnarly. It'll pass.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_6p... That is all.

I've been dealing with #healthAnxiety for a while now and it's rough. I had fluid in my ear which caused one of my lymph nodes to swell pretty badly. It wrecked me bad enough i went to the E.R. to get checked. They found no malignancies but I'm still rattled and that was a month ago ; ;

And the Hrothgal agenda continues this month, for @darickcastle.bsky.social #ffxiv #hrothgal #ffxivart #ff14art

I'm on new Anti-Anxiety meds. They are working wonderfully but like... holy shit I've been a bitch today. Like bad. I'm sorry to my friends that've put up with me. #anxietymedication #anxiety #newmeds

I'm reliving my Sonic phase. The games, the cartoons, the comics, and everything in-between, I feel so typical but I'm currently obsessed with Rouge. Also Bunny, Sally, Tikal, Vanilla, Julie-sue. . . *trails off naming names*

Gonna start using this. Everyone follow me. I stream, but i won't be streaming until we're moved mid year. I mean, i MIGHT but who knows.