Brushing my teeth for the full two minutes before bed then plumping my pillows up feels like healing.

Week after next I'm planning for my month off work to recover. I might get very bad between now and then.

Just heard the phrase, 'a source of emotional threat' as a character trait.

Cracking photo.

Jobs for today. -socks and pants wash -one round of washing up -thin down the contents of my little trofast drawers I'll consider it a success if I manage those.

Maybe I'll be one of those people who get over mental illness by doing Parkrun.

kid1 is on a call with a girl he was in primary school with who I'm absolutely convinced had a crush on him. He's showing off with the meal he just cooked us all, she said it looks peak.

Got my first flyer from a local tradesperson with ai artwork.

Pretty sure the kids think our currency is 'quid'.

The live action One Piece is a lot of fun. I don't know if the anime is but I suspect they're quite weird about Nami.

Anyway, kid1 possible coeliac, but nothing conclusive yet. Ideally not but we'll have to see. Just blood monitoring at the moment.

Somehow I managed to get taking kid1 to the paediatrician wrong.

Reform candidate Barclay Nickels. Wonder if this is our boy:

Yay, the list of Reform candidates for my Senedd constituency are out. Llyr Powell and Joshua Kim are familiar names but don't know any of the others. I'm sure Barclay is a nice working-class boy.

The plan for my old Harry Potter lego at some point: dismantle them and donate all generic pieces. All identifiably HP-pieces will be studded into local dog turds.

I'm told that these Terry's Chocolate Orange eggs look like beauty blenders. They certainly aren't really orange or egg-shaped.

"can I place an order for eosin please?" "Y?" "because we've run out"

Slightly awkward laughter from my line manager when one of the other techs suggested we have future meetings in the pub #lads

Month off work at some point has been agreed. Just need to decide when.

If you watch the Harry Potter trailer then you're a shitbag.

Review for the health centre I've got to take kid1 to tomorrow: "weird youths outside loitering, 1 star"

Supposed to have an appointment with the alcohol service this week but I've yet to be told when it is #lads

One of these was just in the local shop! He saw me but apparently wasn't in the mood to do any accosting.

Too much stuff coming up in work that needs my specific attention. No idea when I'll be able to have some time off to try to get better.

I don't think I'm far off being too ill to go to work. Feel quite close to sitting here paralysed for several hours rather than getting ready to leave the house.

Oh! I had a semi-retired researcher turn up in work today who I know for a sure fact is anti-trans. I wonder how I'd react if faced with in-person hostility. Honestly don't know if I'd shrink or get fuck this shit sky-high bloody-minded.

I've got home with M&S bread and M&S cheese and I'm planning to have M&S cheese on M&S toast #m&s

Stuck in work because I can't quite face the journey home.

Sods, switched broadband but they didn't turn off my old account so now I have to argue with them to get fifty quid back *sigh*

The only thing I can think of that's improved noticeably in recent times is the rail service in Wales. Took a while but it's way better now than under Arriva.

Sick of seeing that prick's face.

At least I'm only in work for three days this week.

Now is the time of night I set a 5am alarm and slump.

Wish I knew the designer of this tshirt print I got off Vinted cos it's gorgeous.

Trying to work out some things to do to keep myself occupied during my recovery month off work. Was wondering about some local queerish social events but dunno if I count as trans for them.

My car tax has gone up from nothing a year to twenty quid a year. It's a scandal. That's an infinity% increase.

Seven partial cheeses moved from the fridge to the food waste.

I bought two bits of log from Hobbycraft but don't know what for. They're just nice objects.

Saw a billboard with an advert for Starlink in Newport.

Don't think this colour is for me, probably a bit far on the girlish side. Still, only one way to find out what suits me #selfdiscovery

🎶heartbreak is one thing, my ego's another, I beg you don't embarrass me, motherfucker🎶

Decided I can't face the rail replacement bus service to be social in Cardiff tomorrow so need to think of something else to do.

Comments from the family on having painted nails: "have you painted your nails?" "yep, fancied some decoration" "did {kid2} paint your nails?" "no, I did them myself" "they're very nice"

Acetone is a nice smell.

Five types of mini eggs in a big pot.

I think we've decided on me having a month of work to try to get better.

50% success rate so far. #lads

I think I'm leaning towards thinking the answer to the question, "can I work and recover at the same time?" is no.

I couldn't face the stress of doing anything for my mum for mother's day this year. I don't feel any emotional connection at all so it's just too much.

Trying to find the closest nail polish colour match for the trans flag colours. Sally Hansen 263 is the closest I've found for the pink.